Okay breathe a huge sigh of relief because now we get to enter clarity into the mix! Wow is all I can say about August 2011. I have never seen or felt such a rough and confusing month, nor have I heard more people who were in the same boat of having no idea which way to turn, which decision to make, which a, b, or c to walk towards, and at the same time being so inundated with out of the blue loss and changes and things dropping away. I was so excited for August and had been for the entire year. I had intuited that in August things would come together and peace would begin to take hold. I felt like all the changes of 2011 would really sort of solidity and become clearer and easier to understand once August hit. And boy of boy did I get blindsided! It started for me with a really strange illness that left me with a 103 fever for 7 days, that broke 3 times and each time you would just hear water dripping out of my body onto the sheets as if there was a leak in the ceiling. Drip, drip, drip and soaked bedding. I had never experienced such a thing. But then after the release of all the water would come the rising of the fever again. And then once the fever did fall for good there came the journey of getting my life force back. I was so weak and exhausted with adrenals depleted. So this is how I started the August Mercury retrograde and from there I found that all I could really do was lay in bed and worry about what I was supposed to be doing. The fears were overtaking me and this inner need or desire to make a decision was feeling ever present, yet there were no signs of which direction or decision I should make. So it felt like the pressure to act, yet with no signs or even any opportunities to move towards. It was almost like being in the forest at night, while hearing a voice say, make a decision! make a decision!, yet you are in the dark and can't see any thing so which way to go was a huge mystery and kind of scary. If you are in the forest and it is daylight and you hear someone urging you to act, it is a lot easier to make choices and to get the body moving. So I know a lot of you have been in this same boat.
Then what happened was opportunities to act started coming to me, and from multiple directions and all kind of contradicting each other, which added the confusion of the darkness lightening but then becoming an A, a B, or a C ... so a fork in the road. Within days I got this job offer, that job offer and a job offer to move back to Oakland, CA and all sounding good, but each so different and with no signs of which was the best road for me to take. But being in the depth at this point of the Mercury retrograde and knowing this is a time for re-evaluating and re-examining things, so I knew to just trust, surrender and KNOW that the most appropriate route for me would be made known once the transit had passed and the storm had settled. It's kind of like you don't go out and fix up the damage while the storm is still going on. You wait for the storm to pass, then you go out and see what needs to be done. So I sat with my options and even now I still don't have clarity as we still are in the Mercury retrograde hot zone, even though Mercury went direct on the evening of August 26. Now until about the first 10 days into September, Mercury will be going back over the steps it already took and will then be back to 1 degree Virgo which is the placement of when it went retrograde on August 2nd. From there on out you should be in a new place, with new clarity and with empowered feelings of okay, this is the RIGHT thing for me.
I will get to this further on your individual sign readings but for me being a Pisces, Mercury was going back to make changes in my sixth house of work and health, so those areas have been where the changes are taking place for me and all Pisces. But what I have really gotten and the feelings that come forth out of me is that we don't have to accept what does not feel totally right on any longer in living this new world. We have full choice as to say, no, this is not acceptable for me, or yes, this feels good to me. It is the same when you are in the grocery story. You choose what you want to take home and put in your body. You choose the clothes you want to wear. You choose the attitude you want to hold. So I got these 2 job offers in my present location, both very part time, and with one I walk out of there on fire with energy and happiness and every moment of it is an absolute joy to work. It is so fun and I feel giddy with the feelings of things are really going to work out, when I leave the job. Now the other job, is pretty much the antithesis. It is draining and I get home and have to sleep and I feel unable to do anything productive. The owner is very much on the vibration of fear and negativity and that is her journey to climb out of, so no judgment here, but to put my energy in with hers just doesn't feel good or empowering to ME. There are other people who work there who are awesome and they are the ones who really made me say, give this a try, feel it out, but, just a few days in the environment and noticing how my body felt was enough for me to stand up and say, No. I can go into the land of scarcity and say, but I need this job for the money and I need this job to stay afloat. Or I can go to the land of abundance and say, well, I do need money to stay afloat but I believe I can manifest a better job that feels more at home and inspiring to me. I can say, even though I can not see that job yet, I can trust that it is out there and I can trust that by saying NO to this one job that makes my energy shrink, is really just me making space for something more appropriate to come, and is really just me setting up my boundaries as to what I will and will not accept in my free will, think it/manifest it world we live in now.
If you accept less than, you get less than. For so long we have said things like, no no that's okay I'll take less, I don't want to take up space, I don't feel okay asking for what I REALLY want, you choose for me, I'll take the scraps and be happy. Basically we have been bottom feeders. We have been afraid to shine, because others try to make us think it is unacceptable to shine and BE vibrant beings. And we have been too shy to ask for what we REALLY want inside. We accept less and say, well at least I have this. And I am not saying that we shouldn't be thankful for whatever comes to us, we absolutely should give massive thanks for it all, but NOW it is time to really go for the gold. It is time to get really clear on what will make our hearts sing. It is time to live lives that feel full of joy and light in every single moment, even when things aren't going as we would have liked them to go. It is time to envision what we would really like our lives to look like and to go for it. Now if you feel hesitant to let go of something that feels horrible in your life for fear that you really can't manifest something better then don't. Hold tight to what you got. And if you really feel like karmically you are here to suffer and not live an abundant passionate life, then I am not going to convince you otherwise. Just like that business owner I was working with for a spell, she was choosing this path and I say, continue on if you like the way it is looking. But if you really believe it can be better, can feel better, that your dreams can be a reality, then go for making that happen. Follow the bread crumbs that are being placed before you and trust that these steps are leading you to a happy, whole, content, path that honors who you are and what you are here to bring this time around. And also trust that the steps sometimes go right or left too. Even me feeling out these 3 options, the one that was to go back to Oakland at first felt so amazing and this is it! But as I walked it for a little while I started to feel like it was only leading me backwards and that it wouldn't be the most growth producing. But I don't know yet. As this Mercury journey plays out, it may bounce back to being the best path for me. So keep your mind open as you follow your bread crumbs to happiness. Sometimes one path takes you only so far in order to bring in another element that is then the place to merge from. But if it FEELS good, GO FOR IT. Feel the right path, the right job, the right friends, the right partner. Put yourself in places that make you SHINE. If your energy grows, you are home. If your energy shrinks, you need to step away. This is the message of this Mercury in retrograde in Leo. This is what you all have been learning this difficult confusing month of August. And just think of the Lion in the Wizard of Oz and don't be afraid or think you have no right to choose what feels good and what feels wrong. You have every right to choose and you have every right to be that puffed up powerful lion who owns his life through his own conscious choice of believing he is a magnificent, all deserving powerful being. Believe in your magnificence and choose the paths that reinforces that truth.
Okay New Moon Info!! So this is all so perfectly timed as 2 days after Mercury is done excavating through our souls by forcing us to see where change needs to take place, and moves into direct forward motion once again, we have a New Moon and a new opportunity to state what we want our lives to look like. It's like okay, we have run all out of gas and are empty and now in a few days we get to the next gas station and get to fill up with our intentions of where we want to be going next. The New Moon will be occurring about 8:05 PM Pacific Time on August 28th, and the Sun and Moon will be at 6 degrees Virgo and in a Grand Trine with Jupiter and Pluto. This is BEAUTIFUL. Jupiter is all about expansion and unlimited possibilities and growth potential and dreaming huge and Pluto is all about going to the depths and really getting deep in there into the core of things, and also Pluto is the sign of death and rebirth. And they are lined up in Earth grounding signs and in a Trine which is the most magical, easiest transition and just blessings galore. So this to me is the most beautiful way to end what has been the most difficult month for many people out there. Maybe this is why I have been waiting for August all year. This is the proof that rainbows DO come after storms and that life is always cyclical; it goes up, it goes down. Things are flowing awesome in our lives, then things fall away and change. We have Summer, but then we have Fall. We have Winter, but then we have Spring.
Now a little more tidbit on this New Moon activity is that you have to understand that everything happens in steps. Nothing really happens in evolution all at once. So we are given these opportunities to manifest change in our lives through making outward and inward changes. So on the 26th Mercury goes direct so we gain a little more clarity into what we want to change and which new choices we should jump on. And 2 days later, we have a New Moon opportunity to set those new insights in motion and then 2 days later, Jupiter goes retrograde. So in this next step we will really be going inward to search for more ways to have full spectrum happiness in our lives. We may grow stronger in our faith in something. We may start mediating more and really making that a daily part of life. We may start to connect with our Spirit Guides more and call them closer so we have assistance in navigating life more appropriately. Along with Pluto in retrograde we may start going back to our childhoods to understand where the beliefs we hold now had first taken root. We may start to get clearer on what is really the best for us individually to believe in. You may see a lot of old beliefs falling away as not really appropriate for the changing times, or for where you see yourself going/growing, or even just that they were your parents beliefs and not really what you believe in anymore. And then on the 17th of September Pluto goes direct so all his deep and undercover investigating into the core of you will really come forward and you can expect A LOT of things to drop away and for reborn feelings to take their place. Pluto in retrograde has been like a therapist who says nothing but just observes you as you ramble on with your life story. On the 17th he will finally start telling you what he has discovered and what needs to be transformed. I'm looking forward to him going Direct. Sometimes Pluto going retrograde can have us feeling a little crazy with all the self analyzing and microscopic examinings of our psyche. So you know, Pluto went retrograde on the 9th of April. Does that help you understand the crazies and unstable feelings you have felt the past several months?
Okay so the September 2011 Monthly horoscopes will arrive by the first for you to see how the planets are playing with you this next month, but for now work on your intentions for this New Moon. Now besides these descriptions I've listed below, since the New Moon is in Virgo you can all include intentions for how to bring more order into your lives; how to let go of being such a perfectionist so that it holds you back from really being happy and accepting; how to bring more exercise discipline into your life; how to create a really awesome and empowering work environment; and how to be less judgmental and critical of yourself and others.
If you are an Aries or have an Aries Rising:
Make intentions for making job environment changes, health adjustments, new workout goals, new healthy eating habits. Focus on what your dream job would be if there were no limitations.
If you are a Taurus or have a Taurus Rising:
Make intentions for how to have more fun in your life, how to express more creativity, how to bring more spice into your romantic life.
If you are a Gemini or have a Gemini Rising:
Make intentions surrounding your home base as a more comfortable place or better working from home environment. Work to bring peace and acceptance to any fractures in your childhood upbringing.
If you are a Cancer or have a Cancer Rising:
Make intentions for clarity in communications with others or with siblings. Express yourself through writing or writing projects.
If you are a Leo or have a Leo Rising:
Make intentions for how to bring in more money, be more creative with your hands, how to bring in more value into your life. Focus on stability.
If you are a Virgo or have a Virgo Rising:
Make intentions on bringing in new beginnings and for looking in and really getting to know/get real with who you are. Think self love. Think more about how to make yourself happy instead of focusing on only being happy with this other thing in your life.
If you are a Libra or have a Libra Rising:
Make intentions for doing inner work and going deep into your past to find healing. Focus on peace and faith in the powers that be and solitude.
If you are a Scorpio or have a Scorpio Rising:
Make intentions for finding new friends or group associations that really vibrate just like you. Get ready to feel really at home with others, finally. Focus on the impact you want to make on the world at large.
If you are a Sagittarius or have a Sagittarius Rising:
Make intentions for expanding your career and going to the next level. Focus on walking your authority out in the world, success and monetary stability.
If you are a Capricorn or have a Capricorn Rising:
Make intentions for traveling or at least expanding your mental horizons. Focus on truth, higher thought learning, and finding freedom.
If you are an Aquarius or have an Aquarius Rising:
Make intentions for doing deep psychological housecleaning (get real). Focus on transformation and for creating stronger bonds through kick ass sex.
If you are a Pisces or have a Pisces Rising:
Make intentions for harmony, cooperation, working for instead of against others. Focus on new partnerships or for more harmony in existing ones. Focus on how to make others happy. Focus on bringing more beauty into your life.