Hello all. I am a Capricorn Sun, Scorpio moon, Pisces Rising traditionally. I tell you this because everyone minimally needs to know theirs and read theirs with any horoscope you read. Look at it like we used to be one dimensional and now we are 3 just for kicks and giggles. These days are not my easiest moments a lot of pain going on for me in my knees and heart and intuition lots of crocodile heart and mind tears and memories and people letting go from my life to open me up to be more of me and to focus on what matters most to me personally. It is not easy for me to share personally and KA says it is my scorpio moon and in truth no one really in my life has wanted to hear from me personally about all that I go through to provide this information. It is my journey and I always felt the information I get from it for you is the only important stuff really. I suppose if someone sincerely wanted to know I would speak but generally others do most of the talking. I have worked long and hard without pay or recognition to provide this information. I do it because I wanted to and knew I could and did not want others to feel so alone as I did with no one to turn to who could relate or understand and really honestly could not possibly grasp my journey so I am grateful I am me, and so strong and could trust what poured through me to guide me. I am supposed to be here to give this information to all of us. It is my job to know such things. I generally love it but have been ridiculed incredibly often including lately and I am a little tired of that structure and projection from the collective world and ignorant people who know not what they do. It is boring unconscious and outdated now let us move on. I keep hearing lately in my inner ear, sticks and stones can break my bones but names can never hurt me. I have become much more emotionally stable in the last few years thanks to many polishing negative influences in my life that I loved dearly. I am much more able to not fall apart in a bucket of tears every moment so am more functional in my depth these days and in my life thank goodness. I don't want to seem like I just spew information and am not flesh and blood. I am real and just a person whose path is this and took on an enormous amount of stuff I chose to live through to be me and authentic in it. So please know it is my pleasure to provide this and I absolutely wish to experience and live with all of us in our best and I actually know how to get us there if anyone will listen. I will always hold a space for this possibility and can only share what I grasp in that possibility so we each can find our way safely, securely, and efficiently. I am grateful to KA for letting me share here. It has made my life whole in a way that was missing for a long time for me. I still take time to digest everything before I can speak and need to empathically feel it in my own body before I will externalize it to you. A bit of a turtle that way I am as well as an eternal mother, I wont give you bad food, I will try it first and give you the best. Just my way. Hope you are getting ready for the fall equinox this is a special time now, and I am really looking forward to it. Thanks for being here and listening.
The title of this entry was the three top selling movies a week ago. It struck me as odd and great and I decided to weave what the words mean to the vibrational influences we are currently undergoing. Here is some information I wish to share that can help in our careful consideration of where we presently find ourselves. If you look at things vibrationally you don't have to exagerate or manipulate anything. Vibration is true and whole and vibes itself honestly. The whole point of life now is to be the vibration that you are. It is more than your aura. It is what feeds, what is, what beats, what smells, what guides you deep inside that allows your aura to be read as your vibration. Aura just takes up space what is sourcing it is your genetic vibration something only you can be and share and is deeply specific to who you have been forever breathing now in this body and this life. It is what is and isn't what it isn't. It cannot lie. smiles......... Imagine.
Being your vibration is a much easier way to know the truth of a matter and not its disguise. Ponder this some. 94% of what is lived out currently on earth vibrationally is the disguise so it means the manipulation we live collectively is still altering our vibration in its truth. When that leaves it is scary only because the disguise is familiar it is also painful because it is not real nor authentic to what we are built to awaken into and be in this current time. When the disguise leaves we become more aware of all the ways we were not awake and were suffocated by the disguise. All the details and ways this is shifting into something more authentic, true to your body and form and vibrationally correct for who you came to be is listed below for the rest of September 2011, while reading Please breath and enjoy. I will list these details and current planetary influences affecting our body from our bodies perspective as the more you can encompass and anchor your body through being aware of its awakening places the faster and more efficient you allow your vibration to genuinely exist, settle in, get safe, be alive and awaken and the disguise to vacate thank goodness : FYI it may be easier to read my writing speaking it so feel free to do that if it is difficult to grasp through just reading. Remember I am someone you need to marinate with so read and reread to let this sink in where it needs to for you. Thanks.
By the way each and every one of you rocks. Only you can be you and we as a humanity cannot exist without you each and every one. Remember this a lot now.
Your feet, knees, legs:
There is a lot working in here many influences so let us break them down one by one. How they meald and synthesize together is different for everyone. SO you will have your own symphony in this I am just going to list the general specifics to help for now.
Pluto: WOW undertow and it is the best way to view it. Have you ever been in the ocean with a strong undertow? It moves slowly and surely and completely, strong and hard, and is capable of pulling you under without the surface even moving an inch. So it will make us pay attention and honor our primal emotional depth. It is our emotional depth that knows how to stand up safely and securely and with trust and faith to survive, nothing else. Every person's is different in its complexity, quality, and level. Some of us get to just be on the surface of stuff, skim the top. Others have to feel it all. Will feel like gunk, guilt, blame, shame as it flows through. It has been perculating in a fog horn pause and retrograde since April 9th. This date added fire to the mix so it was like deep hot lava mixing with the water in you to create steam. We don't have anything in our body until we create the alchemy of steam. Think of lava flow hitting the water makes smoke as it cools and creates LAND. THIS is the stability I am talking about. It actually exists in you and has been created these last many months so as we now get to be more aware of what the undertow wants us to realize in our personal truth, own that and let go of the rest. Where to look? Feet, knees, legs. Symptoms this is working in you are: HEAT, sweat, more circulation, cracking in your joints, contraction and pain all of these are a great way in the body to create Help, be in touch with your inner warrior, and to be contagious to tell other bodies vibrationally, Yes it is safe here, now. We are under pressure here all of us to move, take different footsteps, and be healthy in this new alchemy that has created itself in our body and made itself at home. The alchemy contains fuel to correct what you were unwilling to do before. The warrior in you can help. Ask it to help you be more disciplined with the new footsteps you now have the courage to take. It is making obvious all the perverseness in your life. Good and bad. SEE it figure out how you want to handle it now having more information and pieces to your life's puzzle and story. Write it down as it reveals itself to you so you can reflect on it later. Who are you and who are you not? Follow who you are, take it with you into the future and let go of who you are not. We are in this process of being reacquainted with our truth and our sea legs until December. Take it slow, pause a lot, don't miss any information, it is all needed to find our new legs and stability in what to trust about ourselves, free of the perversion of the disguise. Don't be afraid it is like Halloween think of it like a costume that you have no more use for and have outgrown and take off your mask when you are ready and feel more safe in your ability to stand and are sure footed in your calm. Buy great comfortable shoes that support the new you. Dance a lot. Please say: Free, Clear and Restore. Breath in your nose and out of your mouth. Thank you.
Your nose and mind:
Everytime you relieve the old pressure in your feet, knees and legs the sinus cavities around your nose will open. You may thank Saturn for this influence as soon as it shifted on Sept. 1st it went from one health gene to another. This new one is our intuition. It carries a fear of tomorrow in it and gives life its eerie shear cool quality right now. It is acting as the bridge with our undertow now moving forward to allow the mind and our feet to be together in action and words. So it will remove the hypocrisy in life that is holding back the new quality of life that is possible to live out presently. It is also helping to bring a healthy perception of ways that our dysfunction can have a genius in it. What that means is that with all the disguise that has been upon us collectively we can brightly with clear flashlight see the parts we need to, to use this perversion in a healthy way and free forever the blame shame and guilt that was laid upon it just to keep all of us more unconscious until these moments moving forward. So no judgement please, yes it is exhaustive and has been a long time in coming partly why the same fuel that is revealing these parts to us is also removing and giving us more energy to keep persevering and not give up. Why this entry is titled, The Help, Warrior Contagion is because Everytime we emotionally clear an old emotional pattern of blame, shame and guilt, (the help) our legs stand in a new balance (warrior) and our mind and nose area opens (contagion). It may have felt at first like sinus drip everywhere a river of drip. It is freeing and cellularly clearing the disguise. It will help remove the fog that can sit in you. It will be aggravating your sinus and mind for sinus headaches perhaps, the key is to remove the pressure in your legs through walking, and stretching and swimming is grand. Energy work, massage, acupuncture, foot reflexology, foot epsom salt baths and all body epsom salt baths, all grand. Helping yourself to breath in your nose and out your mouth as much as possible can help you to get this immune system moving in its new direction. All forms of exercise that help you to sweat and move the steam out of you is going to help these body areas.
Fear of tomorrow.
Sounds gloomy and doomy but it is not. It is present, in the moment, captures all the little frequencies going on so you can be aware and alive like an animal and feels fearful to be able to be aware even more than normal, gotta hear it all. USE it. Awesome information right now, bringing some very nice awareness to your life and revealing some nice truths you will have to incorporate to be healthy as the new you in the future. This vibrations secret is it is afraid until the moment comes. So that edge you feel in waiting for tomorrow is this gene. If you are engaged in the moment you are in you wont need to feel such demise. I have this in me all the time and though I have been doing the work I do for 14 years I am always afraid until the moment comes to do the work I do and then I am fine. So I have learned to remember and work with it so it did not take my life down. It was hard as a kid as I had swim practice at 4am on Monday and Sunday night was scary in anticipation of a moment I was not in yet. Once in Monday and in that cold pool I was alive and well. Work with it and let it help you and your body to feeeeeel goooood in the moments you are in engaging in as your new you. Pay attention to what help comes, where you feel like being your warrior and what parts of your expression feel contagious and you feel good and alive and others engage back with you. THIS is real Life and you giving your part your purpose.
Your throat and voice:
TO have or have not that is the question here. Listen to your voice, your words what you are saying to others and them to you. What are all the things gathering on your list that you have in your life that work? What are all the things you don't have that the last month and a half told you needs to be a must have in your future? Sort it out. The foundational message what is important to create a safe and secure trusting life for you will manifest speak and reveal itself in the last days of this month. Funny as we move into Libra and balance the real balance for each of us will be shown free of the extreme. Don't be surprised if it is childlike and really yummy and not so extremely exciting. Excitement in its pure form is real and honest and safe and home and simple in its balance not at the extreme ends of emotion at all but right in the middle. This is about the floor of life in its most basic and fundamental form. Find your floor, your feet, your shoes, your pressure in life that works at a pace that makes you feel, calm, fulfilled, that you can trust your life and your quality of life. Make sure it works for you personally as this is a deeply personal preference and one only you can know for yourself then you share it and combine what is necessary and needed with those you share with.
Gathering steam and circulation and energy and ego we have been in our deep letting go. The heart is the main organ in the body we need. Without it we are not alive and we do not beat to circulate the blood necessary to sustain nourishment to the rest of the body. This is the central hub of change right now and if we cannot change our hearts we cannot live in this body properly and wont use our minds differently more connected and whole for ourselves to create a sustainable future. Emphasis on create. The new creative push in all of us comes from our heart. It is in Leo energy and the last many years has been pushing all Leo foks to let go and surrender their old pride and righteousness to a more whole and tender place that allows the whole of the heart to create differently than just the beating one to keep us alive. It is a frequency shift so the shock and alchemy and electricity that keeps the heart beating is getting more connected which allows the heart to have more vision than before and actually more information. The heart can be dense and immature worse than emotions actually and is like a small child that does not get its way. Be careful and aware of this part of yourself now and ask honestly is this who you want to be and is it working for you or separating you from others and your life? If you are righteous is that working for you or not? If you are egotistical is it healthy or not? If you exagerate to the point of deception and lie without knowing it, is the lie serving your life or not? There is no correct answer as their is healthy ego, exageration, righteousness, and courage to be found and had in this influence. It will make each of us show up more with heart and meaning in our own lives and the lives of others. Life sucks without it. Unfortunately it is the very place that the disguise is the greatest, the greed is the greatest, the lack of truth and proper identifying of words vibrationally versus the hypocrisy of the words is the greatest. SO? What has been speaking to you. If it seems like a lot and you are exhausted from what feels like your own righteous fight you may be in a bit of a battle with your own ego in ways that can be surprising you and that previously you did not know existed. KEY is surrender. I am finding that just saying the word almost like an instruction to my body helps me let go in it, some of the fearful contraction recede and open to the stable land I can possibly stand in. I recommend it highly. It is subtle so pay attention to the subtle response in your heart and bodies state of contraction. There is a poem in the ascension support section. IF we all did it daily from now until the end of September lots of simply easy transformation could abound. Please try it. I find it makes a momentary calm but that the affects of doing the poem open all day long. It is a bit like a whispering wind all my words and poems but it works great and is based and founded in creative trust. It can't harm you and can only help. SO what are we committed to? Continuing to complain and do nothing in the disguise of the collective vibrational dis-ease? Or working at it some to be the vibrationally sane and sound person you can be? If the help, warrior and contagion win you will be doing that poem daily. I would greatly appreciate it and let me know how it goes. It helps me and the others here to bring better support if we have a sense of what is going on for you and what you are aware of when you read some of these entries. It is ok to go viral with this information and share it with people you care about. If people don't have your best interest at heart they will be selectively and purposefully moved out of your way and your life. Trust it and use the extra time on your hands to do your thing and share with people that have your best interest at heart.
Jupiter expanding and returning our mental quality:
Many generations before us made these moments possible. They had to live through pretty awful stuff sometimes in their individuality so we could have the heart and voices that we do now and can make a different brush stroke on our lives. We are their offspring. They were narcissistic, addictive, rebellious, indignant, negative, rigid, mean, scared and unsure of what to do and how to handle it. Financially there was lack. Religion guided in a not whole way terrifying them into obedience with lots of false power and authority. They did their best and so will we. They paved the way for now to be the possibility that it is becoming. Respect what came before you even if it felt like harm while you revolutionize yourself and shift. Don't be brutal or you become vibrationally the same thing you are fighting against to make better. Respect the sacred sanctity that is the life thread between all of us in a body. Honor that, it will help you to grasp the essence of the inside of someone regardless of the surface disguise. The respect of the vibration that has come before is the only thing that is sustaining us so we best realize that if we really want a chance to have the life we feel, desire, need, want, we have to maintain and improve the thread that has made it through so far to keep us alive and allow us this life and chunk the rest for some more space in our body and being, emptiness that can be filled with the return of all the hidden pieces that are now available to us free of the disguise. Don't take my word for it. DO some exercises see what you get. Each day until the end of September take your hands and put them over a different body part. Examples that are good now are: your mind , hand on your face eyes and nose area, your heart, your feet, your chest. Say out loud, I now free clear and restore my mind, my heart, my feet, my chest respectively. I forgive myself and all those involved. Thanks be me and my human family.
In that you want to be discovering where is the help? How do you wish to help? What assertive part of the warrior in you needs a role in your life? Where are you contagious and on fire and can't hold this ever birthing part back? The more you let go of your disguise with Pluto's help the more revealing the answers to these questions will be. Everything is guiding you to your purpose and function in that. Trust yourself, You can, You will live your heart and soul's desire. Listen carefully for it now, to whisper its truth to you. I give you permission to pay attention here and ignore the rest. Do it now.
I count, You matter, Together WE make the difference. Thanks for listening. Peace be Hi'ilani