Oh my. So I started watching the TV series called Intervention where all these people with addictions are shown in the core of their addiction, and then offered help to get clean from their addiction. I have been amazed at how many of the people in the show have been addicted to pharmaceutical drugs and how they just have to do more and more and every day are on the streets trying to figure out how to get more money to get more pills. They all have this dead lifeless look coming out of their eyes and they are kind of like zombie and showing very few emotions. They become so brainwashed for the pills that they let everything else in their life fall away. And the thing is that because they get these pills prescribed from a Medical Doctor, they think it is not the same as doing heroin or crack or meth, which come illegally off the street. But they are exactly the same; they completely go hand in hand.
For some reason I have never bought into the concept of popping a pill to feel better. I mean I don't even take Ibuprofen when I get a headache! Maybe a toke off a joint, from the green the grows naturally, but a pill, never. I remember years ago hearing from guy friends that all the girls they were meeting turned out to be addicted to pills, like for social anxiety. So as they would tell me, the girls they were meeting seemed so exciting and alive and personable but then they would find out it was was just a pill and an addiction and not the real person inside. I kept hearing it voiced like,"I'm totally into this new girl, but I hope she's not into pills and she's really just doped up". I heard it too many times to not get suspicious that something really fucked up was going on with the youth.
Then this movie fell into my hands. Wow. This is what is going on. It is so easy to escape through these drugs and to think it is all good, but this is synthetic happiness and not authentic happiness. But once you start taking the drugs, you get addicted and think you need the drugs to function. And ultimately down the line, you get found out, and the people closest to you will be saying, "I want the real you back". But then comes the journey to finding that original person again.
I think by message to the pill abuses is:
1. it is okay to be depressed as that is a natural wave of human emotions we experience. It is natural! Yes, it sucks and feels so hopeless, but once you move through it, you find happiness. Every time. It is only like a growth cycle that is awakening you to something you need to find deep within yourself.
2. if you are shy, be okay with that! So many people want to be something they are not and because of the internet and all the super star shows, people think they need to be the life of the party to be accepted or even really to accept themselves. They want attention and think the best way is by being showy. Let me just tell you my opinion and I LOVE shy people. I love shy guys. I like the guy who is kind of awkward and stands back and looks a bit uncomfortable. The one who is all HHEEEYYY and wanting the attention of the entire room turns me off every time. Think James Dean. And it is the same with girls. The shy girl, the one who is just keeping it real and being herself is the one that the guys really want as a permanent partner. The girls who are all showy and thinking they need to be standing out to get all the attention tend to be the loneliest people when the lights go out and the show ends. But this is really just about accepting who ever the fuck you are. If you are overweight, you are still perfect. If you are kind of awkward and geeky, you are still perfect. If you are not as "attractive" as the men or women in print in the magazines, you are still perfect. If you are shy and bashful and find it difficult to meet people. you are still perfect. You are perfect if you are being real and being yourself. It doesn't matter what other people think about you as long as you are just being true to who you really are. And to take a pill to try to be someone else is just like putting your inner growth on pause and walking up an escalator that is going down.
Please watch this important movie and for Gods sake LOVE YOURSELF, knowing there is a plan to all your experiences and growth opportunies, no matter how dorky, goofy, plain janey, depressed or lonely you feel. Feelings change and shift over time. I used to be the girl that had to get all the attention and be the life of the party and now I am the shy, plain janey girl and at first I was uncomfortable with it but now I love it! Just love it no matter what it is.