The other day I received a beaded angel that was on its way into a trash bin. It had served its purpose and wasn't useful anymore to its owner. Hanging from a key chain for a couple of years it had seen and been through its glory days of beauty.
Since I am an artist, crafting in many forms and shapes of creativity, all the way from the bottom of the ocean of mother earth into the deepest wells within humans, I have a tendency to see transformation and new usage in most "stuff" that catches my eyes, inner and outer. So taking this worn out angel apart, with the intention of saving as many beautiful useful beads as possible, I started seeing the metaphorical symbolism in my work.
This is another passion of mine ... using everything as a metaphor for everything, because all is the same ... "same, same but different".
We are all One, but individually we are unique and very special, we have one subtle thing, each one of us, that makes us different from everyone else while, at the same time, we're still One and the same. That is the reason why it is critical for You to know You and I to know I, so we can show up together and shine with our special uniqueness as One.
Let go of wasting valuable time and energy trying to understand another creating an illusion of control. When we do we're still just projecting ourselves onto another using them as the wall for our communication between our inner and outer selves.
Nothing will change if I don't change, nothing will change if You don't change. Let's be the change we so wish to see, that is in our dreams of imagination. Stop fixing!, Start changing!
If someone ever still is in doubt of what is going on within, individually and collectively, in these changes You might (?) have an epiphany in a moment ...
Soo back to my angel ... bead by bead (tiny little suckers!! 1 mm beads) I started taking this worn out, tired angel apart. Beads, so tiny and round, and tricky to grab with my not so tiny fingers. They were flying all over the place, but strand by strand, tied together by old stitches from a different culture (mexican), bead by bead, they eventually ended up on a white napkin.
As I was watching the beads, unattached and free, they suddenly sort of came alive, showing new vibrant colors from old colors, showing new possibilities, when looked at apart from the whole of its old form. Endless, bountiful, possibilities ... the choices are mine ...
I still don't know what my new creative whole is going to become from all the new vibrant parts, and colors, and tones ... claimed from within an old form, but step by step following my creative flashes of intuition, mixed with excited playfulness it will all come together perfectly.
Getting the picture?!
We are taking apart what we were told, conditioned and trained to be, reclaiming the power we invested in this being and claiming the wisdom learned, moving inside to rediscover our Divine Selves, our True Dreams ignited by our Imagination, our Love, our Worth, our True Purpose of this lifetime armed and filled with the soul wisdom claimed from our past.
with Love and Peace in Consistent, Constant, Conscious Change, Morayah
So yesterday I had to take my maine coon, Moose, into the vet since he had stopped eating and wasn't drinking and was lethargic. Being the eternal optimist I am, I just knew it was no big deal and soon we'd be back home after getting him some fluids and all would be good again. Now he is 15 years old so I have been bracing myself for the fact that the decline is here and not many more years I will have with my partner, my pride and joy, my main man, Moose.
So we get to this vet here in Santa Fe, called the Ark, which had been referred to me by several friends. And we get in to see the vet, who was just about the most wonderful woman named Holly; I was really pleased with her. She decides we should really do some blood work, being that he is in the geriatric age range, and asks me to wait around for the results. Sure, I can wait. I didn't mind because I was enjoying all the animals and people coming in and out of the busy waiting room, and it was fun to watch the front desk woman in charge as she was multi-tasking to the first degree, without ever losing her cool or her friendly smile. I saw why this place was so referred and it was reflected in the non-stop phone ringing and customers special ordering pet foods and waiting room that that kept turning over with a new group of owners and animals. I felt very at ease and my inner radar told me all would be good with Moose, so I just envisioned an awesome outcome.
After about 20 minutes Holly comes and gets us to explain the results and as she lays out the paper with the grids and I look down at it, not really knowing what I am seeing. She starts with something like, this doesn't look very good and there are a lot of issues going on. And I hear her words, but I still am confident that this just means we need to make some changes. So she starts with the white blood count and explains that 18,50 would be a VERY high and alarming count and his was 26.83. Okay, okay. Still my ears just hear, okay there is an infection that his WBC are fighting, that's okay. And then she goes to the next one. By this point I have figured out that everything in the red is what is a problem and as I quickly scan down and see about 14 red marks, the tears just started to flood out. I noticed it so sharply too because I went from all is okay, not a tear in sight, to oh my gosh my baby is dying, oh my gosh he is really sick, and the human emotion just flooded out and I could not stop the wash of tears about to bust out. She was still looking down at the paper when I got hit by this tsunami, but when she looked up at me she saw the awareness of what was really going on had hit me as she reaches out to touch me in that understanding way of oh I know, this is hard to hear. So at one moment not a tear or sad emotion in site and then just like that, stomach sobbing convulsions that would not stop as the cheeks become drenched in downward flowing tears. That human emotion that hits you like a load of bricks.
We got home exhausted. Moose went to rest on the bed relieved to be shot up with some fluids but out for the count as they jacked him up with antibiotics. I took a nap beside him because the rush of emotions had truly knocked me out too. I absolutely was not expecting this. How could it be that my boy who acts like a kitten running through the house and jumping up to the window sills and chasing his cat mates around could now be dealing with a failing liver AND kidneys? And how could I deal without having my sidekick who is nearly always by my side, gone? Oh. Let me just fall asleep and forget about it for the moment...
Anyway, Moose woke from his rest, ate some can food and was purring and eating more can food in the morning. I just got back from dropping him off at the Ark where he will be all day getting fluids in him to flush his kidneys. When I got there Holly greeted us and said she came in early to take care of getting Moose hooked up to the IV. That touched my heart that she cared enough about us to take away from her free time to come in early and be the one who watches over my baby. (Oh looky there...more tears, but this time they are from being touched by the compassionate act of someone else). And now I am home and in great faith that my boy will pull through somehow and grace me with a few more years of his beautiful spirit. And I will keep you all posted on that...
But my point of this story was the miracle of human emotion. It is amazing how the roller coaster ride of human emotion affects us. It is the same if you are just driving down the street and come upon a fresh accident that was deadly; at one moment you can be fine and enjoying the music and the next gripped with the sadness for what you just saw and/or the thankfulness for what you STILL have. The uncontrollable aspect of human emotion. And I just think it is kind of cool to feel things so intensely or to be so overtaken by an emotion that we could not have created on our own. It doesn't always feel good, obviously, but it is amazing to me how our emotions are expressed in moments of vulnerability. And I invite you to relish in the miracle we are given to feel things. Even if they hurt, feel them and express them fully and be thankful you aren't a robot. Robots don't have the honor or feeling devastating sadness, or elated glee and joy, or enraged furry. So don't let yourself turn into a robot, feel those emotional waves!
More on Moose later...
Moose and Mama
It is ok to print these and reread them. i am very deep so sometimes it will take a few readings to marinate upon what is here so please don't hesitate to do that for yourself and not miss what is written here as your body will recognize it in the depth and intuitive part of you.
In the last seven to ten days a major change is beginning to progress in the climate of our culture as a human being. The planetary influences are guiding very slowly and exactly a change in our heart, it's bandwidth, how wide and how far it is received as well as its capacity to beat and vibrate in a fuller and more whole frequency. When our hearts are immature (most folks) and not as large they are ignorant, closed, only concerned about survival and keeping their heart beating and alive. Smaller hearts have a prejudice naturally wired into them and they are pretty one sided. Much of the trouble and ignorance we experience in this world in the climate of the patriarch, power and greed and exaggerated consumption comes from hearts with a smaller bandwidth and oh yes they can be very angry folks just to be angry no real change on the horizon, ever.
Eclipses have the ability to change us, each of us, our body personally and as a whole in one quick schwoop. They honor our brightness and light as a being as well as our emotional nature that is wired into our nervous system. Part of why people can get amped up and out of control around eclipses is their emotional nature has the eclipse dancing with it and that is a huge influence that is much greater than every day tasks and activities and is activated like a volcano deep inside of your body. Eclipses have the greatest ability to shift a consciousness in all of its facets the dark more shadow parts of ourselves as well as they shine great light and insight through our psyche like a lens to show us all the little gem pieces we need to see right now to be all of our best self. In general when we make shifts in our body we get tired so that we don't move too fast and especially with this eclipse the Gemini part of it is happening in our mind as an emphasis so it is really important when changing the climate and function of our mental field to go slow enough to get it right and get mentally healthy quickly. Sometimes slowing to quicken later is best motion in a body.
To me Eclipses are like great emotional friends that come to evolve us into the next phase of emotional maturity. They happen yearly, and even before we are born, in our mom's tummy, to initially create a huge part of our own emotional nature and then each eclipse afterward develops and progresses us in the appropriate times to keep us growing just so.
I am always aware of when the manifestation possibility has occurred for these shifts somehow. I will be writing them here kind of as a big picture guide to help each of us find our way through with simplicity and stable awareness to help us grow this year into the heart we each have. So this last 11 days I have been really sick and in that got to see some things I want to simply and basically put here to make us feel safe in our movement. This eclipse is truly about being complete with the ancestral heritage we came in with. So we carry a family lineage genetically. What is odd about it is it is in our DNA so even if we are conditioned as a family to be a particular way each of us is a lineage bearer for what came before. In the past people were terribly limited and did not expect much and had to put up with great hardship just so we could be alive and have the freedoms we have now. Our ability to be free of those limitations is happening with this eclipse. It will wire into your nervous system your personal correct frequency for optimism, faith and hope. You will watch this grow this year and into 2012 as we each develop into the emotional mature person we can be now free of the karmic heritage of the days past. So when we talk about letting go of the past or not being in the past. Cellularly this eclipse has the ability to really take care of that at a level we have not experienced before.
The influence of Gemini wanting to make whole the two parts of itself in our nervous system is also a big factor. It will bridge our right and left mind together in NOW thinking ways. It has been working in your dream time (sleep time) to bring up many pictures, feelings, story lines, logical boxes and pieces to weed out what is not necessary to move forward in your treasure chest of mental thoughts. It is really cool when this happens how well the body does know how to take care of this. Many may even be from your past family members cellular memory to refresh your mind to present time now. It also carries a bit of a feeling like your whole life you are working hard and something keeps luring to keep you from having and manifesting what you feel is correct for you. THIS is your family stuff. There has been a split through Gemini that is no longer going to be holding this in place. We are meant to grow past and into deep fullness of all that our ancestral lineage brings in its glory not demise. This eclipse is allowing for this possibility.
The influence of Sagittarius is going to help us overcome our excesses and find our way into a new balance. It will allow us to stand in our hip and upper legs and bums properly for trust in our survival, joy of life and love of life. To take the proper steps in efficiency and not in excess so we don't waste our precious energy and resources moving forward. It will put optimism and hope into our body so we are anchored into it correctly for our emotional abundance, and spiritual truth. Eclipses are cooperation at its finest and the fabric of the universe is really stepping up now to bridge together what once was thought impossible. This eclipse is allowing for the beginning of this possibility.
Saturn's influence on all of this is important as well. This influence always honors our limitation in this life and really needs us to get it right. It is really not negotiable and is the ultimate gatekeeper of progress and life in a body. It has been playing in our instinct since January beginning with the vibration of Intuition where it went retrograde which is a deep molting process to really get us in our body and free of the inadequacies we feel as a species in our boundaries of protection and separation. These carry the energies of blame, shame and guilt, and our instinct, our more gut feeling, animalistic cellular memory has now got in the game to shift the limitation of separation and fear into Health, feeling good in your own body free of image issues, and being more aware of what to do to get healthy as your self and take care of this body, we call home for this lifetime. It moved direct yesterday which means the molting can now be released and what it was working on with you can be clearer and felt more strongly and put into spontaneous action. It has made your gut feeling stronger and will allow your immune system to continue to be in touch with the depth of your emotions to clear any awkward, embarrassing, patterns that are not yours to keep. Thank goodness. It will help you have the energy to face the inadequacies you want to address to make yourself feel better about you in all of your truth and authentic presentations. It will free the patriarch influence on this world. It moving direct during this eclipse is allowing for this possibility in our body and hearts. YES! thank you!
Last but not least Our Jupiter influence is huge right now. It shifts tomorrow of course on the eclipse to be less mutative and way more tangible, SELF CARE for stable foundations and good boundaries. So for this summer do self care at its highest. It will make you aware of your personal needs and discover ways to take better care of your needs to greater health. The more you can self care and be the person you feel good about being, the more your heart will grow and you will mature through the summer to be ready for the energies of this fall. Jupiter in Taurus helps us to get healthy and care for our body specifically in the throat, thyroid gland and our voice. This influence is with us for a year. It will change as you change your vocal tone and frequency. This allows you to influence your environment through your voice, actions and expressions in new ways. So work with it. Use it for all it is worth and really sensually love all the ways you are growing.
The importance of all of this is that our history is important. We can't separate from it when it is breathing through our genes. Some people do the right thing in integrity and they are that way because of their genes and despite them. We have confused our emotional blame, shame and guilt personally with our genetic make-up. We think our genes are something to fear rather than something to help. We are always evolving and we are not our parents, we are the next generation but we have to get all the separation where we pushed away to find our way back into a more centered and balanced place. Most folks when they work on themselves to improve the quality of their life have to address their genetic baggage to move forward and be who they are. We were never told how long this was all going to take. In gravity it takes quite a while and people have not wanted to do the work yet. Having a change of heart will fix this and give everyone new found energy to try. In this restructure what works will remain. We just need to change and make better what is not working. We cannot do that without changing the hearts of everyone into a wider bandwidth that allows for compassion in everyone. This will allow people to extend their wealth of information only they can bring to help solve the problems that arise. We can't do that when we are all about ME. Only when we have a place in our heart that wants to share a bit and be all about US. We are all connected and we need to seriously start being about that and less about our separated, disconnected protective tendencies that keep people out and excluded instead of in and included. This eclipse will change all that and begin our change of heart so we can engage with others differently and in new more open ways. Thanks for listening. Enjoy and Receive. I count, You matter, Together WE make the difference.
In "the old life" we created our "now" " with our past as the back drop for our dreams and hopes and our "never ever" reality projections. If we look at ourselves as holograms, imagining and dreaming and praying for our small and big dreams to manifest, we are piping our most successful happy visions and hopes out into our future. At the same time fear filled and doubt filled hopes are at the risk being piped out as we are watching our world in reactive action and maybe not so much peacefully "just being" yet.
The new and fun part with our New way of Life is that it is created consciously with awareness and not from "who made that happen? where did that come from?! who did that to me??!!!" Created from our imagination, our dreams and visions sending them All out into the future ... from Self Love or lack thereof ... polarities of Life ... contracting - expanding, questioning, not being able to control, but still trying ... old habits die hard.
All that we give our attention, whether it is with Love or Fear, judgement or compassion will charge the abundance of energy that always is and will create a pipeline into our future. This future will have an impact on the present in changing how and what we choose. We have created many futures, many that we love others not so much!
An important question to ask when we make our choices is "what takes me closer to where I want to go and how I wish to live? closer to my Dream?"
Hopefully this question will make the choices easier and make more sense in the process of creating a success filled Life on all levels of our existence, uniting and connecting in One Love one leap at a time.
Understanding and knowing, can help us reclaim the power (if we choose) from some of our future dreams that are not coming from a place of Self Love, so they can be "disarmed" and replaced with more successful dreams.
Dream Big, In-joy watching Your Dreams unfold and Allow Yourself to receive the Magical Gifts of Your Dreams come True ... Much Love and Peace Morayah
Close your eyes.. Picture this... You are in a restaurant, minding your own business, perhaps drinking a glass of wine... Casually looking around, maybe scoping for a man or woman... All the sudden, you feel 'eyes' upon you... A presence unknown.. What is it? Where is it coming from?.. BOOM.. Found it.. There they are... Big fake boobs staring, and potentially poking, you.. Your mind starts racing.. "Good lord! What was she thinking?... Couldn't she have settled for a full C cup?! She must be easy for sure! She just wants attention."... Now open your eyes.. Does this sound familiar? If you say 'no', then you are either a god and I need you to lay your majestic hands upon me, or a huge, fat liar... Since the rapture did not happen, I am going with the second of the two.
Judgment... We all do it. It is human nature. But next time you are placed in the opportune situation to judge another (which is an everyday occurrence), base your perception on what is truly important... Color...
Color is not race.. Color is not religion.. Color is not the god-awful floral dress that one wore in the 80's...
Color is our core... Our up bringing... The person we turned out to be and our life experience... Our soul spilling out of our bodies and touching others. It is a terrifying thing to find your 'true color,' but you MUST in order to live a truly happy, healthy, and free life. If you do not search your body and mind to find truth in yourself, then you could potentially be a superficial being who blends into the boring, beige background. For me, it took moving to a new state and being 100% alone for a full month. The most awful and terrifying things happened to me there, and I was miserable, but everyday I thank God for it.. It has shaped me into the person I am and made me find EVERYTHING out about myself.. the good, the bad, and oh dear lord the ugly. But now I can confidently say,
"Hello, world!! Here I am! Like me.. Hate me... Judge me.. because frankly, ma'am, I do not give a damn!"... And I don't.. And I feel amazing.. I wish the same for you.. Dive into your gut and figure it out. Yes, it is easier said than done, but you will be doing yourself a favor by releasing your insecurities and changing your perception of life.
My next challenge, for you and I, to conquer is passing judgement on others. You remember the 'well endowed' hypothetical woman from before.. Why do we choose to judge her? She's done nothing to us.. Is it because she has what we actually want? Is it because we are jealous? Is it because we are confused on who we truly are, and here comes Miss Big Tits McGee with confidence and a 'I don't give a rats ass,' kind of attitude?... I say yes to all of the above. This judgement is our own uncertainty coming out in a mean and hateful way. My mom has always told me, 'It takes so much more energy to be unhappy.. So just be happy." This passed down theory applies in this situation. Stop using your beautiful energy you have been gifted, to hate.. Just love. I promise, you can do it! Lets make an effort to stop judging others, and focus on bettering ourselves... Stop making fun of the girl with the crazy birth mark, or the guy with the knee-high Doc Martens and spike through his nose... Some day, they will own you because they made it to the top by accepting their true colors and using it to their advantage.. Acknowledge who and what you are judging, and realize you are manifesting superior judgment upon yourself. Be afraid of it! Focus your manifestation on finding yourself and becoming that person you truly are..
Lets put an end to the evil eyes and snotty, upturned noses.. There is not enough Botox in the world to erase bitch lines smothered on your face.
! really liked this little video and I know that you all, everyone of you, the aquarius nation will benefit beautifully from watching this and you'll remember...
First, let me start by saying how proud I am to be part of this beautiful and amazing organization.. It is so empowering and truly inspiring what KA has accomplished. We should ALL take a lesson from her. She
taught me personally how to believe in the universe and release my fear of the unknown and judgement coming my way. I am forever grateful...
Gratitude is such a powerful word.. it makes you immediately think of what you are truly grateful for. Maybe it's your car, your family, your dog, your great rack.. it doesn't matter..
Appreciation is appreciation and to each their own..
However, are you ever grateful for the not-so pleasant things in life we are faced with?
Loss of job, relationship breakup, fighting with a friend or family member...
It is hard to be 'grateful' for these things..
But after the storm blows over and the dust settles, we need to recognize what we were presented with.. an opportunity to grow as a person.
When you speak to the one you pray to, do you ask for more money? to find love?
to be given a smaller ass? I know I do.... but I realize, my God won't just snap His fingers, throw
glitter in the air, and perform a magic trick. He is not a genie.
We are all responsible for ourselves and actions!
Your higher power presents you with the opportunity to make these things happen.
If you want more money, work harder or get a new job...
if you want to find love, wear a lower cut shirt and shorter skirt.. not really. But seriously,
surround yourself with love and love others with an open heart.
If you want to lose weight, work out and for the love of
god, put down that delicious Chinese food and trade it for spinach!
Do YOUR part in changing YOUR life. Play the leading role.
With all the crazy, devastating weather recently, some are skeptical that the world is coming to an end and are praying for repentance... Who is to say when and how it will happen?
But maybe, just maybe, we are our own demise! Perhaps we are being presented with
the opportunity to save the world, come together as a community, and unite as
brothers and sisters. The world is literally crashing down upon us, but we are
more focused on who we have killed and who to kill next.... and war.... and
what politician is sleeping with who...It's exhausting focusing all this
negative energy on bad people!
We need to ground ourselves and focus on helping
these poor people by sharing our kindness with them, not killing others and
hoping for destruction. This is our opportunity to potentially save the world
by spreading love and donating ourselves, whether it be monetary, time, or
simply a smile or hug because acts of kindness can go so far and make someone's
day, and potentially someone's life. Even the little things are appreciated.
They always say, "God only gives us what we can handle."
I think this is a very powerful statement and the way I see it, God must think a whole hell of a lot
of me, because I, like most people, have been put through the ringer a time or
two. But look who's still standing! We are! So when you are put through a
challenging time and sitting there cursing to the heavens and shaking your
fist, screaming 'why me?! why me?!', just think you were presented with this
beautiful opportunity to overcome a new obstacle. Someone in control thinks
highly enough of you to give you this hard time. Yea, it can be awful and miserable,
but use it as a growing period. Change your perception of 'why me',
to a more positive stand point of 'I will and can make it through this.'
And when it has passed, be grateful to your higher power for trusting you to
succeed with the challenge presented. Just remember to have patience, strength,
and the desire to fight.
Trust and give gratitude to the universe,
and she will be kind to you in the end... whenever that is.
I think Jamie Sams is the most wonderful Native American Shaman Woman out there! She is more real and out of the head than anyone I have ever "felt". And I love all her books...and this was a poem of hers I opened up to today:
Sacred Warrior's Vow
The vow of every warrior
who ever rode the plains
to protect the children
forever will remain.
Those hearts full of courage
promised to defend
the elders and life givers,
until the bitter end.
Those times are a memory,
to many, a bygone day.
But a new Sun is dawning
upon the warrior's way.
The peaceful warrior's awaken,
their hearts hear the cry.
Their eyes embrace the vision,
found in brother eagle's eye.
They rise from every nation,
ready to claim the right
to stand as men of courage,
the defenders of the light.
(she just described all ya'll who are the aquarius nation)