So I was out shopping today and ran into someone who I didn't think I had a problem with, but she was really cold and distant and I pretty much bashfully walked away because her energy was very rejecting. And I got out to my car and was like, what is it about here in Santa Fe, NM? This is a place where people who choose to walk the spiritual path are drawn to. They all want to come here and live in this magical place and take classes and learn to be even more spiritual. But I'll tell you what, since I have moved here I have never met so many unhappy people and so many judgmental people. And I also have made more enemies here than my whole life travels combined. They just "hate" me here in Santa Fe. And as I left the store and felt jilted by yet another Santa Fean (as they call them) I at first wanted to beat myself up thinking what is wrong with me that so many of these spiritual elite people can not stand me, can not even stand the sight of me. And I was like, how come I came here with such high hopes and have ultimately pissed off so many people to the point that they love to congregate and speak unkind words of me and belittle me and when they do cross paths with me they look at me with cold, angry faces. And why am I such a magnet for this in a town that is full of people who do their ceremonies and spiritual practices and talk about peace and forgiveness and Amma and love and light? And also why is it that the few who are just here because they love the land and not for the spiritual aspect are the only ones that really think I'll cool and enjoy my company? How come people from other places aren't so triggered by me and don't have such a problem with me?
So I had to go water a friends garden on my way home and as I was watering it brought to my attention this website I had found the night before and this guy, Jordan Lejuwaan, was listing off the spiritual rules to living and the last one was about loving everyone. He was like this is the most difficult to do and "if you accomplish this, you will be seen as a leader among everyone that allows hate, envy, disgust and all other negative emotions into their lives". And it just totally hit me as I was watering that maybe I am here to test these spiritual folk to see if they can really just love like what they talk about doing and go take classes to learn to do. All of a sudden my not so pleasurable visit in Santa Fe made total sense! And they are all failing because they want to hate me and they also want to run from facing their feelings. Even this woman at the store, I was like why was she so short and wouldn't even look at me? I also wondered if I was being paranoid and maybe she just had something on her mind, but nope, I got home and checked out facebook and saw that she had defriended me. Just like that, no explaination, no valid reason, this person of a spiritual path says, I choose to reject you, defriend you, have nothing to do with you, scowl at you when I see you in public...but in my ceremonies and with my group I am love and light incarnated! Welcome to Santa Fe.
So I ask all of you to think about it for a moment. What if the ultimate reason for living is to truly love everyone? What if that really is the point of it all? What if that is the single most important ingredient to being a truly happy person? What if the goal is to not take things personally, to not always react from our own set of issues deeply imbedded? And if human frailty comes to the forefront and anger or confusion or disagreement comes into play, isn't the goal to then forgive or work it out and let it go and not hold onto it or reject the other person and cast them out? (oooh that one just hit a cord with me)
So think about it. If you are working to evolve and be the best person you can be, are you to the elevated level where you can be face to face with your "enemies" and love them for the one Godness that is in all of us. Or are you still judging and feeling all powerful as you join in a group and belittle someone else? Like race wars and class wars, us against them. And what if you knew THAT was the secret to breaking the code to finding true happiness? Would you change your ways and try to find peace with those you call your enemies or would you just cast them out, reject them and hope that I am wrong about this thought?