So we innately are seeking a way to bring more happiness into our lives, to feel content, to feel peaceful, to let go of the guilt, the blame, the shame, and basically to not have our buttons pushed any longer. This is the path all of us are on and I am here to tell you, and you can trust me, that as long as you just keep it coming from the heart, keep it real, and intend to be the best person you can be, then you just can't get this wrong. You will falter at times, but as long as you get back up, accept your mistakes, intend to do it better next time, and keep doing it until you get it right, then, that is all you need to do. That is the solution. It is the same as learning any new skill and you will never get it perfect the first time, but you know to not give up and to keep trying until you get it right. If we didn't apply this lesson in life, then no one would ride a bike, drive a car, play the guitar, bake a cake, tie a shoe. For those things, we just learn from our mistakes and keep practicing until we get it right. And THAT is what we are all doing right now as we move towards this massive monumental shift that will occur at the end of this year.
There is nothing outside of you that you need to do. There is no class that will fix you, no ceremony, no seminar. Those things are only like getting a new outfit, where you feel really good and special for a little while, but then it becomes old news and you are once again sad, lonely, discontent and not feeling safe in the world.
There is a lot of competition out there to acquire more skills and to have healings done in order to "fix" oneself in preparation for this shift.. But all this effort is really just an escape route. Just because you have a lot of certificates on the wall, doesn't mean you are truly vibrating love. And just because someone takes all these courses and learns how to be all these things, doesn't mean they are vibrating love. I think to truly find the love vibe you need to be stripped of everything. You need to have everything taken away from you and you need to sit in silence with nothing to hold onto and THEN you will find what LOVE means.
I went to visit a friend the other day and he commented on how relaxed and at ease my face looked. I didn't even have to think about why that was; I know it is because I have lost so much that was so dear to me. I was like, Ya know, once you lose everything you thought you couldn't live without and once you move past the anger, or sadness, or blame, or regret, or shoulda coulda woulda's, you find yourself in a total calm peaceful state of acceptance. It can be a kinda treacherous journey to get from one path to the other, but once you do, you KNOW that nothing can touch the calm within as everything that happens in your life becomes only a fleeting thing like wind moving outside of you.
So you can keep busy and join groups and read books and take seminars and do everything you can to feel better about who you are, but know that everything you really need is already inside of you and just waiting for YOU to make the discovery. And you can go through just as much growth, and even more actually, by just daily sitting out in nature, daily putting your feet in a stream of water, daily playing with your animals, daily writing in your journal, daily doing something creatively with your hands. If you can just daily shut out the noise of your mind and other peoples garbage; if you can just daily look within and feel what comes out of you without judgment or stifling, you WILL find yourself in a peaceful state of calm, which is ultimately what you are all after.
We begin the month of May with an awesome aspect reminding us of why we are here and where we should be putting our focus. We are here to cleanse our density, our darker ways of thinking and being. We are here to let go and to forgive. Just like how we are born as babies and grow up into these adult states; we are here to grow into more noble and honorable and loving peaceful warriors. We are here to learn to walk our talk and to be the best possible expressions of beings we can be. We are here to examine how we treat people, whether a stranger or a friend. We are here to listen to our thoughts and to move towards the ones that are empowering instead of disempowering. We are here to look at our past experiences and learn from them instead of allowing them to hold us back and cripple us. We are here to be victors, not victims.
So this month starts with a grand trine between the Sun, the Moon (with Mars doing a slight pushing and emphasis to the Moon) and Pluto. I see this as a call to balance our masculine and feminine natures with the power house Pluto bringing on the inner rumblings of needed change. If you are male you can expect to shed some "feminine" tears and if you are female you can expect to feel the need to stand up, to use your voice, to protect, to be a force. And these planets are in total harmony so this shouldn't be too much of a stretch and the inner rumblings that do come should be easy to comprehend and not all all difficult to feel why they are occurring.
Then on Saturday of this week we have the Full Moon, which is a super moon, which means it will be the largest looking moon in the sky for this whole year, and this one is in Scorpio, who just so happens to be ruled by the planet Pluto. The Black Moon, my favorite, will be exactly conjunct the Sun, so opposing the Moon. In a nutshell, consider May to be a massive month full of potential to clean out some garbage. It may be a bit uncomfortable at times. There may be some things that come up that you want to just push away and stifle, ignore, blow out of proportion ,or project onto others, but you really don't want to handle it that way.
You are learning the skills in life to be able to see things with an honest, seeing the big picture appraisal. When something uncomfortable shows up, I want you to always ask yourself 2 questions. Why is this happening to me? And don't ask it in a victim sense, like whyyy meeeeeee?!! Ask it in an inquisitive sense. Also ask, what am I suppose to learn from this? I recently adopted the most kickass cat from the shelter and I took him in to the vet a few days later because he has some seriously raunchy breath, and the vet tells me that he has gingivitis, even though he is only 2 years old and that the procedure will cost me about $600 to $1500. Now, the old me would have gotten seriously flustered and worked up, and I did feel a ripple, as you all should when something uncomfortable comes your way, but then there was just calmness, like, whatever. As she kept talking and giving statistics, my body told me, because I was in a calm state, "let's see if we can treat this naturally". I heard grapefruit seed extract, neem, diet. I completely feel assured that I can figure out a way holistically or homeopathically to take care of the underlying issues and heal this cat without having all his teeth pulled and spending 2 months rent. And ultimatley, if I am wrong, then I will just have to find a way to make more money. Period. That is all my body went through with this bit of news. Oh well. I'll figure something out. And also as I ask myself why this is happening, I know it is also because I am a healer. I CAN heal this cat, I know it. I also LOVE to do research for people to find natural cures. I believe EVERYTHING can be cured naturally. This ripple of uncomfortable news really just reminded me that I love to find health solutions for people and animals, which I will soon be posting an article in the "real health and true beauty" blog sharing how to have a completely 100% healthy mouth, naturally and guaranteed. Which, ironically, I was composing the article in my head as I drove to take my cat to the vet.
And that is the lesson for all of you. Shit happens, always. We are being tested, always. And the ultimate test of living as a human is, how do you respond? Feel the ripple, but let it move through you and see it as having a definite purpose, something for you to understand and grow from ... and then ... grow...and move on.
This Full Moon will most likely involve things that you share with others, and there may be a separation that occurs. Things may have gotten a bit blurry with knowing what is theirs and what is yours. Something will occur that will set the record straight and a definite line will be found. Boundary time. If you do need to put a little space between someone else, do not judge it as an ending, but instead see it as a more healthy beginning. You will want to examine your relationships and see if there is too much give or too much take going on. You can, and must, strike a balance now. If you keep giving and get nothing in return, then you are sure to feel cheated and depleted. And that goes in the other direction too. You may also be spending a little more than you want to spend right now, but if you owe it, then you must make good on your debts. No worries, the money will fill back up shortly.
This Full Moon may very well bring some partnership tests to the table. If ever was there an opportunity to have buttons pushed, and reactions tested, provoked by those closest to you, it will be now. You may feel the questioning of should we continue, or sever ties? Sometimes we do have to keep it real and admit that maybe this person isn't providing everything we need for proper partnership. Life is about compromise, so maybe you just need to back down and pick your battles. Maybe you are focuing too much on something that really isn't all that important, but then again maybe you are glossing over things that really are important and that you need to pay more attention to. You will need to do your own pro and con list to find out the best way to move forward in this situation. And know that whatever comes up is something that does need to be addressed. Do not push it away and see it as insignificant. This is a Super Moon. This is a big deal!
This Scorpio Full Moon will most likely be more enlightening than difficult to deal with. You can expect to gain insight and extra umph into healing your body and finding passion to commit to an exercise regimen. You may find the missing link to what your body needs to heal. It may be so simple that it seems impossible, but do not doubt the information that comes your way and believe that things SHOULD be simple. Also there should be changes on the job front and ultimately they are going to make you feel much happier. Don't fear the change and think of the but how's, just trust that the changes are for the better in the long run. It is all occurring right on schedule and several steps need to be taken in order to get to the new destination. The first step is about 4 feet high, but then each step after will be like a foot high. Comprende?
This Scorpio Full Moon very well may have you feeling like you just want to have fun and are sick of having to do all the other things that keep you from just living playfully. You may want to be more creative and in the studio rather than clocking in for work. Work may feel like a total pain in the ass right now, but move through this as the Full Moon is just igniting passions in you. You DO need to be more in your creative space, but every thing is a process, so feel the passions, and then start making goals to achieve your wish to be home more and at work less. You can do it, but it starts with a few steps that you need to take. You can also expect to go to a new level with your lover where things will feel so on fire you may want to jump into ideas of "let's get married, let's have a child". Maybe. But also know it is this Full Moon energy igniting your love nature to be more abundantly creative. Next month you may be like, whoa, whoa, whoa, let's slow down and ground this for a little longer before we fairytale landishly believe it will always be like this...
This Scorpio Full Moon may bring a home related issue to your attention. It may be time to make your space bigger or upgrade in some way. You may come to the realization that you are ready to purchase a home and start to ground your roots in a way you never have before. You should feel a sort of culmination or ending relating to your roots and will be questioning which new path to take now. Through pressures at work or home, you will want to strike a balance between the two, with maybe working more or being home more. A Leo friend of mine just bought an abandoned home and will now begin gutting it and rebuilding it, so that could be something on your mind at this time. Don't try to hold on to what is leaving, as it wasn't in perfect alignment with who you are and where you are going.
This Scorpio Full Moon may bring some pressure where communications and honesty have been lacking but really need to take place. If there has been a squabble with a sibling or like a neighbor then you can expect something irritating to occur this week that will really make it paramount that a fair balance needs to be reached. Also I would think that if you have been considering going back to school or broadening your horizon that this week something will occur that will truly point you in the much needed new direction. Something may end for the sole purpose of forcing you to look into this new prosperous direction.
This Scorpio Full Moon could really have you pondering what it will take to feel safe and secure in the world. Things may occur which will force you to question how much you value yourself. Do you tend to put the focus on others and inspire and lift them up, while giving very little attention to yourself? Are you more like, "no, you first and then me"? Because seriously it is the other way around. It is not ego-full to put yourself first. It is what you HAVE to do to then have the energy for others. It is the whole putting of the face mask on yourself before you help put it on another...as in on the airplane. And everything good stems from you valuing yourself first. You need to know how awesome you are and how important you are. You need to feel the fact that others look up to you and that they would be lost without you. You need to know with zero doubt that you deserve all the good things in life and that they ARE on the way to you. And what is theirs and what is yours may be separating at this time, but this is only occurring so that you can be surrounded by all things that empower you and reinforce how special you truly are. If you were giving too much away to feed the other then you will find yourself spiritually depleted at this time. Pull your energy and focus back on YOU.
This Full Moon is in your sign so you can expect some serious buttons to be pushed and emotional reactions to be felt this week. You may feel like everything is coming up to the surface and that it just doesn't feel okay and safe. Know that all is not lost and over, this Full Moon energy is just triggering some things for you to remember. You may start seeing things about yourself that you don't like and you will feel the desire to make some changes and be a better person than you have been in the past. If you feel all judgmental with others are seeing their flaws as things they MUST change, then know they they are reflections of you, because ultimately this energy is all about YOU at this time and not the others. The others is just the projection of what you need to see in your life. This energy may also make you a little needy for attention and you may feel left out and like no one is giving you what you need. If that is the case then you just have to make your feelings known, but know that Full Moons affect everyone emotionally so they too are going through their own issues rising to the surface.
This Scorpio Full Moon may really bring some things to the surface and will have you questioning everything about your life. There may be some deeply rooted feelings of discontent and like something is just not right. You may want to leap into some new path, thinking the path you are on is all wrong and not getting you to where you want to go. Oh, you just sit tight my friend. I promise that it is all good and this is just a part of the journey. This is alone time for you. This is where you really will want to do some inner work to discover any old thought patterns or subconscious feelings about yourself that are depleting you now. Whatever is coming up, needs to be reexamined to see if it is something you still need to believe in. There are no mistakes so don't go judging yourself for any moves you have made in the past. If you did something, you were supposed to and there is a lesson in that. This is a time to regain your faith in the powers that be and to find the anchoring trust in your heart that it all has a purpose and there is meaning to every step of the way. You are an amazing person and if you think you aren't then you need to look back into your past and find when someone told you that you were just ordinary and not all that special and you need to retell yourself that they were wrong and you know the truth now. We will be including some tapping videos on the website soon and they will really help you rewire some old thinking habits that are just totally wacked out and not the truth.
This Scorpio Full Moon could bring a bit of a stink situation with a friendship. There may be an argument that has been brewing and now the deal will hit the head. This is good though because it is coming to the surface to bring you closer and to maybe redefine the relationship. Resentments that stay within never lose their charge until they hit the surface. Its like if you fart in the bathtub and how it will never just stay down there and disappear and they always make their way to the surface. If you or another have been holding it in and keeping it buried then you can expect that it will make its appearance known this month. Be thankful though because inner resentments are a nasty energy to hold on to. And the healing that takes place when two people are honest with sharing what they need from a relationship, can take the energy between the two to a whole new level of appreciation. This Full Moon may also have you redefining your group and you very well may just go from being a person of solitude to a social butterfly overnight.
This Full Moon is set to affect your career and public standing in some way. Maybe you have been waiting for a new job or opportunity and NOW something will come that will open new doors and put you maybe even on a whole new path. Something may be coming to a culmination and you are just waiting for the next to arrive. If this is the case, then use this time to dream of the most farfetched perfect beyond your wildest imaginiangs scenario to take root in your life. Go out into the world and walk with authority knowing that the next opportunity could come on this very day or the next, at any given moment. Walk with the authority that the next opportunity could come in line at the bank, at the grocery store, in line for coffee. You never know when, but you had best know that it will. If authority figures are rubbing you raw at this time, know that there is a lesson for you to learn from them and the sole purpose is for you to learn to be the best possible leader, which you inevitably are going to be... (this is called walk your talk time)
This Scorpio New Moon can have you focusing your attentions on spirituality vs. hypocritical spirituality. You are all about the truth and you will see the discrepancies in other peoples ways of being spiritual. If you have been someone who is seeking the truth, happiness and spirituality outside of yourself, then you can expect this Full Moon energy to bring that wrong move to your attention. Don't forget that nothing outside of yourself will bring you true happiness. You have to find that pot of gold within, and yes, it is in there. If you have been living the hypocritical spiritual world then you can really expect to see that mirrored in others this week. You will bump into plenty of people touting "namaste" and then telling a homeless person to "get a fucking job you loser". If you have really found the vein of authentic spiritual living then you can expect to bump into others on the path who glow with a light that magnetizes you to them like moths to a flame. You can make great strides at this time in your spiritual practice and you will gain a newfound connection to source that anchors you into what "this" is really all about.
Okay that is enough for now. In two weeks we have a solar eclipse at 1 degree Gemini and it sits on the Pleiades the "seven sisters" star cluster. The first degree is always very important and the Pleiadians have been the ones speaking to people for decades now sharing the news of this exciting shift occurring at the end of 2012. So is this important? Very. Do you have to wait to hear more? Yes. See you next week...