Say what you need to say.  Say what you need to say.  Say what you need to say!  For reals.  The planetary movements of this moment are screaming for you to just get it out.  Just say it.  Just go outside of your comfort zone and share what you need to say.  It may be an apology.  It may be a confession.  It may be something that has been kept hidden and undisclosed, and turned into something that is actually a total non-truth, but because of the silence, stimulated by your own mental torturous self defeating chatter, it becomes something that just really isn't even close to reality.  I went through one of these recently, where my mind got the best of me and I went into defensive attack mode, because I lacked enough information and only based what I thought I was seeing on, I'm sure, past time projections and expectations for rejection.  I became all like, Oh so I guess you just don't like me anymore and so I will be all suspect and judgmental with you right back!  And after days of building tensions and being hyper sensitive to every move, expecting attack and disapproval, feeling totally sick to my tummy and with energy shrinkage, finally, I decided to say what I needed to say, and lo and behold, after the shit of the truth hit the fan, I come to find, I was still loved and it was all good.  What was happening was words were not being spoken and sensitivities were on high alert.  So everything that meant nothing was blown out of proportion and interpreted as "rejection", from both parties.  Finally, one of the parties (moi) backed down and decided to share a vulnerability and that move opened the other to get real and vulnerable and peace and mutual love were completely restored back to the point before the shut down of communications occurred.  Thank God, because me no like being an attack dog.  Just like I say at work because I work with a lot of Italians and you often hear the words "I will fuck you the fuck up".  Or, there is "I am Italian.  If you hit on my man, I WILL kill you."  (Love you  feisty TL!!)  So to get back to not needing to defend myself and fight another is always my preferred path in life. 

But there are advantages to misunderstandings in that the final sharing of honestly and vulnerabilities can really open you up to loving and appreciating the other person even more.  Kind of like how you let your house get so messy, but then when you finally clean it you are so satisfied and appreciative of how lovely it looks.  Kind of like how you go on a fast and then once you take your first bite of avocado or olives or whatever and each bite is so like oh my gosh this is the most amazing tasting food EVER.  So don't judge that disarray that you may be seeing or feeling because honest words have not been spoken yet, because when they do, you both will feel amazing and reborn.

This saying what you need to say, may also be that you need to get real with something you are not admitting to yourself.  You may be in denial over something, holding onto something that is just not working.  You may be stuck up in your mind thinking you totally got your shit together, when in reality you need to open to a new perspective that maybe what you are thinking is not for the best at this point in time.  Maybe you need to stop thinking you know everything and step back and just go into your heart and see where your feelings take you. 

We are all at a fault for taking in so much knowledge and wanting to learn all that we can, intellectually.  But that knowledge that is stored in our minds really is just a bunch of hoo haa that can't truly support us.  It is only the walking of things, the actual feeling of things that gains us wisdom into life and life situations.  Kind of like you can "get" what it means to live in Phoenix in the summers with 120 degree days, day after day, with no let up in the evenings...but until you are there and actually living it, you have NO idea.  Kind of like thinking about going on a fast, but then it is the actual walking of it where you really see how intense it can be.   That is me right now on my first day of a juice fast and all stoked beyond belief the past few days, but now I am starving and have a head ache and am like, really, do I really want to do this.   Kind of like reading about ascension and becoming a light body, but until you walk that journey, you have NO idea.  So my point, maybe you are thinking too much that you know what is best for you, but maybe just maybe you need to get out of your head and see where your feelings are wanting you to go.  Maybe you need to say what you need to say:  I have no idea what I need to do to feel better and safe in the world.  And boom, just like that, the admitting of the truth, will make you breathe a huge sigh of relief and let you off the hook of having to be so put together and on top of your game, when in truth, you need to let it all go and be humble and feel your way through the ruckus. 

So today we have a grande cross, which will then turn into a t-square after the moon moves out of its placement.  The party consists of Mars, Neptune, the North Node and the Moon.  And the Moon in Gemini sits in the hot seat of where this aspect will affect us all.  But this one screams for us to get real, to see through the illusion that is fooling us into believing something that is not accurate and it somehow ties in with others.  This one is like loving someone who does not love you back and finding the strength to face reality and let the addiction go.  This one is actually all about addictions whether to people, drugs, alcohol, relationships, thought patterns, ass backwards opinions, jobs, mannerisms and habits.  This one wants us to awaken to those things that are actually escape routes to living truly abundant and thriving lives.  And because all the planets involved are in mutable signs, this will be something that we would rather avoid and deny.  So this is a planetary opportunity to get real. 

ARIES
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts in a clear and truthful manner.  You have had something you have needed to say, and NOW the power is truly there is full force and all its glory.  Now the pressure will be just strong enough to make you get the truth out.  You feel hurt and it's time you honored yourself enough to share your feelings with others.  Believe it or not, this truth that you are not sharing and are only keeping inside, behind a "no I'm okay facade"  can actually be affecting your health.  And the full and honest disclosure can be like going into a dip into healing springs.  Your whole spiritual nature can feel cleansed.  Your connection to source may even deepen.  This thing plaguing your mind has got to be banished pronto because Love is at the door waiting for you to just get on with it.  But Love will leave if you think this defeating thing on your mind is more important...

TAURUS
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts about how to feel more stability in your life.  You love the fleeting love feelings but you know that it takes something else to keep them into long term potentials.  You may be needing to tell something to your partner or to your friends that you have kept hidden for fear that they would reject you.  Taurus tends to just play nice and not really keep it real, often.  You sometimes want to be what you think the other person wants, but in the long run that never works because you aren't keeping YOU real.  Be yourself and speak your truth and never waiver from those standards.  People will always accept you when you are honestly you, but when you fake them out, they get turned off...because what they wanted was the original YOU, not the imposter.  Be true.

GEMINI
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your feelings with others.  This is like you placing value on yourself and what you bring to the table.  You will be needing to keep it real both on the home front and the work front.  When you feel valued, you feel amazing and like spring has sprung.  But if you feel like you are just a tool and can easily be replaced, then you will feel like a loser.  And you are anything but a loser!  But you do need to stand up and voice what it will take for you to feel valuable to others.  Just say it yo!  Vulnerability and being honest are totally hot, where as being all tough and elusive are totally not.  "Nothings wrong...."  Liar!

CANCER
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts of things on a spiritual or healing sort of nature.  You may finally get the ah-ha moment of how your past programming is keeping you locked in a pattern that is not for your very best.  You may discover many nuggets of insight coming your way in your moments of mediation or quiet time.  You may even be feeling crowded by others and will really need to stand up and make it known that you need some YOU time.  Don't feel like you always have to be there for everyone else because when you know that you really need space but won't claim it, then a resentment builds and by not being honest you are doing a disservice to all involved.  Go on a retreat all by yourself and bring a notebook to write down all the insights that will absolutely be coming to you. 

LEO
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts with a friend of yours.  What started as a creek has become a river because of non-disclosure and not being honest with yourself and the other.  Use the power of the energies of this moment to get it all out in the open.  I pretty much guarantee that if you humble yourself and share your doubts and confusion that the other party will totally be humbled too and you will go back to remembering how much you value this other person.  Friends are really important to you Leo's and to just throw them to the wayside because of your hurt ego or whatever is plain foolishness.  Friends are the most important facet to us humans feeling happy and satisfied with life. 

VIRGO
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts in the career arena.  The fog will finally lift.  The illusion is ready to take a back seat.  For so long it may have felt like, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, but the powers that be are now going to grant you the ah-ha solution.  And you can plan that once the ah-ha comes, with Venus sitting up in your 10th house, you will be feeling just lovely and like reborn.  The confusion will birth a new abundant creativity within you.  See.  Everything is right in order and just as it should be.  And YOU getting real and facing the facts as they have clearly been shown to you all along, will finally move you closer to the destination you dream of along your yellow brick road...

LIBRA
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts in a truthful manner.  Something work related may be rubbing you raw but you need to speak the truth and also see with a birds eye view that in the long run this really isn't all that important.  Maybe a road block showed up and is pissing you off, but seriously you just have to trust the process.  Life is a whole heck load of road blocks but they always have a purpose.  Life is purposeful.  Things happen as they should.  Let go of needing to control things and just be the witness. 

SCORPIO
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts that may be deeply psychologically in there.  There may be some hidden feelings that you don't want to share and you just wish they will go away.  Understand that this grand cross speaks of things you would rather avoid and deny, but the truth of the matter is that you need to confront them and get them out on the table so that they don't control your mind.  If you are feeling frustrated with a friend, then just voice it because you don't want the "illusion" of this energy to mess with a true friendship.   There may be some things that need to come to the surface that are money related and between someone that you share the weight of the bills with.  It may just be that you are feeling overburdened and just sharing your thoughts will clear the air and completely bust up the tension.  Whatever comes to the surface needs to and is for the sole purpose of bringing back peaceful feelings. 

SAGITTARIUS
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts with other people because there may be some things that have been kept hidden and they are holding you both back from moving forward.  Dude.  If anyone can say it like it is, it is YOU, so don't go keeping things in because you are afraid to make a stink.  It may stink for a minute, but the release will then make it smell like orange blossoms.  Mmmmm.  Also this illusion, or misunderstanding is likely related to the home front and your career arena... if that helps you see what I am talking about.  And once you just say what needs to be said you will be able to have more stability and safe feelings on BOTH of them.  Stability is just a few open honest comments away...

CAPRICORN
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts on how to feel more safe in your work environment.  If there is someone you need to be clear with, the time is now to speak your truth.  Do not be afraid to be vulnerable and share what you are feeling.  If you feel hurt or ignored or of no value, then you must speak up now and get ready to see that it was all just in your head and total illusion.  You may also be getting real with your health and workout program and where before you couldn't really figure out how to get healthy, but now your body, if you listen closely, will guide you in the best direction.  Other people may be sources of inspiration too.  So if others are talking all about how this and that works for them, listen, because they are there for YOU at this time.

AQUARIUS
This grand cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts on how to bring more happiness and contentment into your life.  If there is someone you have been loving from afar, and too afraid to voice your feelings for, gosh, get it out now.  You so deserve to be loved and if there are any ways you have been pushing romantic success away because of whatever reasons or thought ponderings like you don't deserve to be loved, well, you need to let that all go.  That is not the truth and everyone deserves to be in a loving relationship.  If you are holding onto someone who has not loved you back then you need to cut those cords because they are keeping someone else from finding you.  Make serious efforts to stop the habitual thoughts of the person.  What has worked for me in the past is to see them on a boat and you on another boat and see you two separating and going in different directions and feel that the powers that be are orchestrating the movements and that it is all good and for the best.  Then start looking out for some other boat that naturally makes its way to you.  Also look for ways to find more happiness in creative endeavors.   

PISCES
This grande cross for you will involve you getting real and sharing your thoughts on how to bring more stability into your life.  You will want to focus on your home and on your roots.  Maybe you need to speak more honestly with people around the home front and when you do, this total peace will wash over the situation.  When you stop hiding what you need to say you will be able to grow closer with those near you and as an end result of healing from the bottom up, you will be able to experience a more conducive career environment.  Venus/Love in on the home front and working together to help you speak with sweet words of compassion and understanding.  Your stability will come from a sweet tongue.  

XO, KA


 


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04/24/2012 4:27pm

Hi KA,
Just want to voice how much I appreciate your weekly horoscopes. I started reading since the beginning of April. I love your POV and how it's seems to come intuitively but also with a basis in what's happening up above. I'll continue reading and sharing with friends <3

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KA
04/25/2012 8:52am

Thank you Kristian! And I appreciate that you are here finding value in what, yes, you got it, comes intuitively AND relates to the movements of the planets. I appreciate you taking the time to let me know you enjoy what I am doing because I am having a blast doing it and I sure do hope some people like it too! <3

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