But there is still more work to do...
As things stand now in time, the Worlds are dividing and you have the choice of which place you would like to reside. In the Old World, the chaos is growing out of control, as it is destined to do. There is a feeling of hopelessness and despair and doubt and fear, but what is lacking is the belief in solutions or the honest appraisal of self as playing a part in the creation. In the Old World the people are saying, we are fucked. In the Old World all you hear is what is wrong. In the Old World you hear "we've had 106 degree weather, there are NO jobs, I have NO money, my bills have all skyrocketed, food prices are outrageous, I am afraid I am going to lose it all".
But from the people who are leaving the Old World and waiting patiently to enter the New World birthing now, you hear things such as "Everything is falling away, but, I see that these are things I no longer need", or, "I lost this person I've loved dearly, but, I can see that maybe we have outgrown each other and there is someone better out there for me", or, "I lost my job and have no idea where the money will come next, but, I know that this is just making the space for something better to arrive in my life", or "Food prices are going out of control, so, I will start growing my own veggies and going to Farmers Markets where prices are more reasonable and you know the source and are ultimately supporting local, which ultimately supports community". One World blames and says, period. The other World, says "Oh shit that sucks, but now how can I make the most of this, or find a solution for this, or see the good in what it could ultimately mean".
It seems crazy to see that the lines that will divide the Worlds will be so fine and narrow and obvious to cross, but to actually make that jump and leap to the high vibrating side is not such an easy feat. One side puts blame on everything outside, while failing to look within, and to see the changes that could be made on an individual level, while the other, sees all that is outside, but looks within to see how THEY can make a change and how THEY can make things better.
Another difference with the two World inhabitants is that the NW'ers are actually experiencing a lot more pain at this time. To enter the NW fully, one must peel back all those layers, that at times can feel never ending and completely futile. Don't buy into the pain. Don't buy into thinking all the sadness and all the loss is a bad thing. It is so hard to understand at times, but these are just growing pains. When you feel so lost and so alone and so scared from looking out and feeling like everything is against you and nothing works out for you, and no one loves you and you are a big fatty loser, just KNOW that that is the step BEFORE peace and love and acceptance finds a home in your heart.
The NW'ers are still experiencing much loss and tears at this time. But these feelings are cleansing and purifying a new life for you that will be expressions of a true match to your souls song. Your job is just to trust fully what arrives, what leaves, what comes up, what breaks you down, what opens your eyes, what pisses you off, what fires you up, and what makes you sing. You are a child and there is a parent watching over every single step of the way. You may want to stick a key in a light socket and think you are so right and know what is best, but if some force stops you and introduces a new element that you should instead focus your life on, then you had best trust that the powers that be have a plan for you, even with all the out of left field moves and changes that feel out of the blue. If you can surrender and see the light and positive angle in whatever presents itself, you will be positioned on the quickest route to your souls desires. If you just blame and don't look within, the road stops. If you see yourself as a victim and in no part a co-creator, the road stops.
If you just open your mind to all things having a purpose, and if you can just flow with all that is without trying to judge it, change it, belittle it, or reduce yourself because of it, THEN the new will be able to materialize into your life with ease and most likely as absolute miracles right out of thin air. If it causes you pain, it is merely a road block, so to speak, to teach you of another way. If what you peel away in those layers of your inner being, kept hidden for so long, unable to deal with until now, causes you too much pain, understand that it is only there to show you of another way. It is coming up because it is NOT a part of your path and is keeping you from moving at full speed ahead. It is only saying PAY ATTENTION. It is not defining and setting in stone. It is saying, whoa, let's work on this one. BUT, once you discover it and once you embrace it and once you feel the deep sadness over it, then you are over half way to healing it and moving it out of your body. You are 99% done with it once you embrace it. Think of it like when you really like someone but you are so afraid to tell them for fear of rejection. And think of all the energy that builds before you say anything. That is huge! It will consume every morsel of your life. But once you put yourself out there and just do it, the energy completely transforms into one of two directions. And either they feel the same way and you come together in bliss, or they don't and the energy level falls away. So when things are coming up for you, you can feel this overwhelming energy like, oh I am such a bad person, or, oh I deserve all this destruction and loss in my life, or, I will never be loved because I am worthless... but, after you just face those feelings and feel them, and see where they came from, and then laugh at yourself because, whatever, you are SO loved and so accepted and so perfect and there is not one fucking thing that has ever occurred to you or has been done by you that was a mistake in the ultimate plan of YOU. NOT ONE. They all have layed the groundwork for your journey. Every step has been an integral piece in providing all that is required for you to come HOME to YOU.
So the NW'ers are busy still peeling back layers that have been perfectly orchestrated from our soul plan to be examined at just the appropriate time. There is also the continued loss of people who have left deeply encoded, habitually entrenched memories in us, and all that sadness and pain is being felt as they fall away. This one is never easy to go through. But if someone does not love and honor you, they are not correct for you. There is no other way around that one. And if their memory is keeping you locked in a pattern of hope for the future, while unconsciously putting up walls for all that are there available in the present, then, you need to see this and do the let go and cut the cords and break the wall down for the present day love that you deserve. This is the asking for what you want and the making the space for it to arrive.
So the planetary events of the week are really going to be taking us more inward to do some more examining of our recent changes and moves we have made in life. Understand that life is always moving but every few steps of our path we are pulled back to make sure this is in fact the correct path for us. Uranus will be moving backwards on Friday the 13th at 8 degrees Aries and will stay that way until December 13, 2012, returning to forward motion at 4 degrees Aries. And Mercury will be moving backwards on the 14th at 12 degrees Leo and will resume forward motion on August 8, 2012 at 1 degree Leo. One thing you can expect during this time is that a decision will be made and then it will be changed and then it may be made again at a later time. It will be oh hell yes, then it will turn to well, maybe not, and then later it will go back to yes. It may also go back to no again, but only time will tell, and ultimately remember your job is to just trust what does come up. If something is kept from you at this time, it is not for your best in the long run. Do not try to manipulate and make something yours if is not to be yours.
This is not a time to make any big moves or sign any contracts. This is a fluid and changing time. You are basically on a raft right now and you have no idea where the currents are set to take you. This is a time to think about where you want to go and what changes you want to make in your life. This is also the time to expect the unexpected and to find the opportunity in that. Everything you think is definite and SURE to happen, will absolutely not happen, but that is a blessing in disguise. This is coyote trickster time, so be the witness and ride the ride, but don't get hung up on the details that present themselves at this time. Keep your eyes on the horizon.
In the horoscopes this week we will be looking to see where Mercury and Uranus will be going retrograde in your chart. On the 24th and 25th, the two planets will be in a trine and retrograding, so those days you will see how pausing and looking back will be beneficial for your eventual forward motion. This will be like listening to your intuition that tells you to not get on a train or plane and later finding out there were problems that would have kept you from getting to the destination anyway. I had that on Bart in the Bay area once, where I felt like I just should not go, but I went anyway, and there ended up being a shooter at a station up ahead but each Bart train had to stop in its tracks for hours, and mine was underground at the time. I get really claustrophobic and it was a full train and it was an absolute nightmare. I learned then to NEVER deny my intuition. These two planets together will be very much in control of the intuition realm. Listen closely and trust it fully.
Don't forget to read your Sun, Moon and Rising signs all together. If you don't know them, then send me an email with your birth data and I will look them up for you. Enjoy the planetary weather!
It really is all about you, dear Aries. The planets are coming together and having a jam session in the back room with the full on intentions of finding ways to make you happier with your life expression. Over the next few weeks you will be pondering over how to bring more fun and satisfaction into your life. You will be coming up with more ways to express your creativity and also to feel more comfortable in expressing your inner freak. You will feel awesome being different and weird and you will have no problem putting that out there for the World to see. This will be a great time to change your image and to do something you never thought you would ever do. Also if there are any rifts with past lovers, then now will be a great time to clear the air and bring back the love that once was. I'm not saying you will necessarily get back together, but, your life will move smoother in a forward motion if you are not holding the dense baggage of a love relationship gone sour. I think being friends with past lovers is the HIGHEST expression of emotional maturity and a really good sign that you can manifest something really true and long term with someone who shows up next...
This will be one of those times that is ripe for doing some serious emotional clearing and healing. There are powers working behind the scenes which will provide you with little nuggets that will take you along a journey, revealing bits and pieces of memories from childhood and maybe even from past lives, for the sole purpose of you letting them go and transforming your conditioned life into one of total freedom and of your OWN choosing. There has been a sort of puppet master act going on and you now have the ability to cut the strings and to make your own movements. This is a special time for you where you can truly come into your deep and powerful self, authentic and true. This will not happen over night and in fact you are in the beginning of a several year journey, but rest assured that you are becoming more free and more real and more authentic and that you have every reason to be super stoked for what the end result will be. Things will come out of the blue, deep from within your psyche, and they may feel rather shattering at times, but you are ultimately protected and being guided along this healing journey. It is so overused, but think about how physically painful it must be to go from caterpillar to butterfly, but think of the World of possibilities that open when switching into the new embodiment. Think of Earthy you learning to fly! That is a dream come true.
These can be some exciting times for you. When in a group, the magic can really happen. I would say that any time you are in a group, just EXPECT that opportunities will come, because they will. You will have the ability to communicate in a way which will also bring you everything you need. You are learning to speak in a way which makes you feel proud and noticed and special, and you got it down. All eyes are on you and they are loving what you have to offer. You will come across unexpected lucky opportunities in places that are close by and that have a neighborhood familiar feel to them. Keep it local at this time. You may be reconnecting with friends that you haven't seen in a while and you will find that the space actually did the relationship wonders. It is true that sometimes space does make the heart grow fonder, and that statement does not only apply to love relationships. It is the same for friendships. You know what I mean. I know when I connect with a friend I haven't seen in a while, it just brightens up every corner of my life. I love my friends.
There can be some sudden changes going on in your career world, with opportunities that come out of the blue. So I would say, keep your eyes on any career dream you may have and build that dream with faith and with your imagination. These changes will manifest over the next 5 months, but they are destined to arrive. There is something that you are very good at doing and it involves your hands and it is something that others find very special about you. This may be something too that not many others do and it makes you feel proud to have this gift. Over the next 3 weeks that Mercury is going backwards, you should spend some time feeling what it would feel like if you could truly make a living doing this thing. Maybe even pretend that it is already an actuality and live the life in your mind of how great it feels to be creative and to be doing this and making a living from it. There are opportunities waiting to manifest for you and they will come from behind the scenes, so be aware of that and just know that you are being watched and that others are taking note of you. Pretend that someone is watching all your moves to see if you are truly qualified and even though you can't see them, you still need to be aware that you need to be on your best behavior. So always do your best and always be the best out in public.
How do you want others to see you? You are probably going through some changes and awakening to some new ways of being. It's kind of like how you change from wanting to be a rebel in high school, to wanting to be respected and admired after grad school. There is a huge shift in consciousness going on with you and you are good and ready to be seen as the star we all know you to be. Your mind is going through a huge growth spurt and you are probably coming up with philosophical insights that will help you deal better with the life journey. You will suddenly say, aha to things and you will grasp understandings that years ago couldn't even resonate in your body. Your higher mind is on fire, so to speak, and you could be moving into a space of guru status if you play your cards right. Opportunities will be coming when you put yourself in a group atmosphere and the mirrors you receive will really make you feel awesome. It's like, people will really start to see you differently and their admiration will just totally light up your heart. It's that honey thing too, though, ya know, and I give everything to people who are sweet and smiley. Arrogant and conceited doesn't even get my attention. So be the lighthearted, smiley, happy go lucky and everything you need will magnetize right to you.
This will be a huge inner work/healing sort of time for you. There are powers going on behind the scenes that are working to clear some heavy duty density out of your life. These are things you didn't even know about yourself, or didn't think they really mattered. But they do matter and they are holding you back from the full abundant life that is to be your life. Things will be coming to the surface and they may not feel all that comfortable. It will feel like loss and disappointment, but they are only things that you don't need in the long run. You may think for sure that something is going to happen, and then it just doesn't, but you are not to feel like a loser in life, because these were in fact not the right things for you. They were merely bridges to get you to another place of yearning. Don't worry because what does not show up is only making the space for something better to show up and it will be easy and effortless. Use the uncomfortable moments to just sit still and receive. Put your palms up and open and breathe deeply and receive whatever is to come. There will be memories of past loves, or possibly unrequited that need to be severed from your consciousness. It is no longer fair to hold onto a dream that just is not going to come true. It may be painful to let it go, but when you do, you will feel more free and more alive than you have ever felt before. I can tell you that what is set to show up in your life sexually, is going to be mind blowing, beyond anything you have experienced thus far and with magical healing powers. Be stoked about that.
There are some huge relationship changes to be going on, and they will come out of the blue, so don't even try to guess what they are going to be. Ultimately they will be birthing a freer and more independent, liberated you. Your group is also coming into play with these changes, so it may just be that from you participating in a new group activity, you step away from the co-dependence of a romantic relationship and the freedom opens doors to more stability. Friends are also coming into play, so this may be that you are making more time for friends, and the end result is a happier and more content you. But sudden upsets are sure to come with those closest to you, and they will come out of the blue and rock your emotional system to the core, but, they are only a sort of release of pressure so as to voice your truth and make the situation better. They are not an end, they are a bridge to a better. It is time for you to be whoever you are here to be, with no apologies and no regrets. This is also the time to accept that you are different and not like all the rest and that if someone stays in your life they better love that fact and value you for the gift that you are. You have a lot to offer and you had best only place yourself in situations that KNOW that about you.
Something with your work environment and public career image is set to shift. This may be a time when a miracle comes and puts you in a whole new playing field. You will be working the next 3 weeks to fine tune any area that expresses who you are in your career world. You will come up with ways to better showcase yourself and your gifts and by the end of the year, you just may be living life in a way that is beyond any of your wildest dreams. Things will come from out of the blue so don't go trying to manipulate any situation to make anything happen. It just will and you will have no idea that it was underway. The changes will most likely be due to others working behind the scenes on your behalf. And when all is said and done, you are gonna feel so proud and special for what it is that you are doing out in the World. There is a lot of energy behind the scenes so don't go all showing your ass and being a baby if things don't go quick enough for you. Just keep doing what you are doing, and be in the light and be a good example, and do what you do best, and you will receive the recognition you dream of and deserve. (Relax...it is in the bag and guaranteed)
Surprises galore are on the way! And the end result will be a much happier, more content, more creative and abundant and more lucky you. You need some more excitement in your life and the planets are working to bring you this wish. Things may have felt a little stagnant and unmoving but that is all set to change. Things may start leaving in ways that feel a little uncomfortable, but they will only be making way for something better. You can not forget that. Anything that falls away is only making a space for something better that will help you feel freer and more excited with life. You may be deciding to go back to school to get some more education to broaden opportunities in your life. Over the next 3 weeks you may also be coming to some new understandings about how life operates. There will be moments of aha and clarity. You may be coming to some understanding on your own ways of communicating and how to better communicate in order to get what you want instead of pushing away what you really want. Travel will also be on the plate for you in the near future and the opportunity can open you mind and renew your faith and passion for life.
Mercury is going to be forcing you to examine some old long held patterns that are just not in alignment with where you want to be going in life. There may be some habits picked up from your childhood and you will really be seeing now how they are holding you back from being true to yourself. This could be something like always saying YES and not standing up for yourself when you really need to say NO. This could be something like thinking you have to be a pleaser and make everyone else happy. This could be something like thinking that you don't deserve to speak up and voice your wants. Whatever it may be, you know you are doing it, and it doesn't make you happy because you then go off and think about it and it makes your blood boil. This is like passive aggressive behavior. Just know that it is better to keep it real and be your true self, even if it feels to you that you are being a bitch, because holding it in and playing fake is felt by everyone else anyway. And we would rather you be a bitch than a faker. Personally I love bitches who can just keep it real. Fakers lose my interest. There may be some shake-ups in your home environment or root structure this week but the sting will come to either move you ahead on a home based business idea or to create more conducive smooth workings within your career.
This Mercury and Uranus Retrograde cycle will most likely involve you working some healing wonders through communicating with others where there has been a break or disconnect. The time is now to heal those broken bridges and feel the forgiveness love that can flow through you once again. You will be given the opportunity through mirrors of others just like you to see where you need to change your communication styles. You may feel like they are so harsh and blunt with their words and you will feel how it turns you off and makes you not want to budge an ounce and through that witnessing, you will make changes within your own conditioned structure of communication patterns. What annoys you about how they talk, is what you will need to change about yourself. On another note, there is something that you are working on concerning writing that you need to pick back up and give another try. Your words and insights are very important. It is like you are just finishing up a masters program and what you will be sharing in your dissertation is of great benefit to the New World unfolding. Yes, it is coming from YOU. This is an important job, but you chose this before you were born and the time is growing oh so near. Uranus, your planet, moves driect on 12.13.12...days before the 12.21.12 shift. This is no random coincidence. Work on your writing/communication/creative project with the intentions of a December birth, but with the full on understanding that premies can happen and are destined for success too.
This Mercury and Uranus Retrograde cycle will be pretty dang beneficial to you. The final outcome when all is said and done is that your work environment will be shifted to better suit your skills and values and you will also be feeling a huge drive and fiery passion to do something with your hands. You may really be feeling the urges to do something that is more valuable, and during this time, that path will open and lead you to this more soul honoring career. There are steps involved so don't go thinking this happens over night, but this is where you are headed. There will be some unfortunate monetary obligations that seem to come out of the blue, but, you will have or find the money to cover them, and while there will be hopelessness feelings of having to shell out the money, in the long run you will find the positive vibe of it all to feel that at least you DID have the money. It will suck to have to pay away, but you may just have to come to the understanding that losing it all monetary sometimes has to happen to force us to find other ways to bring in more income. Look at the loss as merely provoking you to get out there and make some money from your creative gifts. The money will come from something that requires you to use your hands.