11/28/11
Emotional burnout can show up in many ways and is the most important thing that is wearing us down right now. It is providing both what personally burns us out and is not nourishing and vital to our lives and what is. SO pay attention. It's beauty is trying to show us what about our life experience is actually our personal track and what is not. We must be on track to our heart and soul's desire now if we truly wish to be authentic in our life. The other and old ways will not go so well and will be painful, hurtful and so not worth it, kind of like when you put your hand as a young child on a hot burner for the first time and you realize that is a bad idea and you wont ever do it again. THAT kind of exact. So the message is not exhaustive the stuff we are holding onto and are either afraid of or just don't want to let go of is what is exhaustive and not so clear or exact. Stay with it. Emotions take time to impress us with their message, their voice, their clarity and truth. Be very clear though, the truth will come and it is deeply personal. So please do not compare your version to other people. It is a unique time for all of us as we must learn our own language emotionally and trust that and then share our perception when we are clear of what that is. This is a new and long process and make take some of us the rest of our life to learn how to communicate from this new place. So please patience is the virtue, being gentle with yourself is the key and loving yourself no matter how tired, angry, hurt or gotta kill that other person and their ignorance you feel is the answer. We have all bought into the lie, we had to to live on earth. So let us not judge what that has been, but please know that the structure has shifted, is moving and visibly so in some beautiful ways.

This gene is currently making sure we get this right and that we move forward and be exhausted and vulnerable in that movement knowing fully it is just not worth it anymore to uphold and carry the old mask and facade. Thank goodness and hallelujah to that!  Tummy problems where you feel nauseous, dizzy, too much acid and your tummy is wound up tightly are attached to this movement. So move it out of you. Stay still and breath into it and feel your tightness and yuckiness at the core of you right in your belly button area. Kind of cute that it is called a button really. The exact place you become on your own from your mom and then got tightly closed up onto yourself. How is that self and how do you feel now? Your I will speak loudly if you ask so allow it and know that your needs can and will be met if you just hear them like a distant voice in the wind and wilderness calling for you to come out and play. This energy is completing itself on November 30th and moving into the universal truth of your emotional pattern in life that serves you best and makes you most alive.

So let it open, guide and teach you through projection, yours outward and others towards you what emotional climate is best for you to survive in and to cultivate for your unique footsteps moving forward.  Open for aliveness and let go of gnarly, tangled, stagnant emotional crisis that has no progress in it. Marinate in these healing energies to nourish spirit and soul in whispering spirals through December. Mercury is retrograde and very much helping in this nourishment so go slowly and easily this holiday time in perfect and right timing for all the forms and structures you need to shift in your body, chest, blood, heart and legs.

My personal shift is in my uterus where much has created and hindered me in this world most of my life. So I will be free to infinitely create now as it is my great fortune to have a hysterectomy today. Please be kind and gentle with whatever your shifts are and know for sure they are divinely structured to put you just exactly where you need to be. Everything is perfect and right. Affirm it often now. I will be back just as soon as I can. With love,  Hi'ilani  

I count, You matter, Together WE make the difference. Be the unique YOU, only you can be. Do it NOW!

11/03/2011

I have a niece who plays volleyball, and one who plays soccer. Both are wanting to play in college so I do what I can to help them to achieve their goals. Most of the time in all walks of my life this looks like  eliminating and clearing, like a wonderful rain storm, all the limitation the world, their teachers and parents, their family,  their body and their own fear and doubt have created that clouds and fuzzes their perception to something that is not as real as the possibility they can have. It is a wonderful gift to be able to wipe clean a slate that should never be unclear in the first place. When I see, hear, feel injustice on any level I take all of my energy and attention and not fight IT but use that anger, frustration, hurt, pain to work harder to improve me, my life, my vision, my goal for this world. Is all that is happening right now is THAT is being alchemically fired up in everyone. SO follow it, address it, do not defend against it.
Here is why. 
We have a boundary of blame, shame and guilt, that has to be cleared and opened into our vulnerability. Our body knows how to do this, Our brain knows how to unfold the process, Our emotions know how to be powerful and strong if you eliminate the blame, shame and guilt. If you protect yourself in ways that are stagnant and outdated and outworn you will cause harm to yourself and others. SO don't point the finger in any way that makes it appear like their is a THEM and an US. Light and Dark are the same vibration when looked at through the lens of wholeness. It is important to not create separation in any way actively which basically means YOU deciding what that looks like. There is a much bigger picture and framework that is now holding all of us in place. It is like a hologram in our own solar plexus (area just above belly button). It took me a long time to get what a hologram was literally even though daily I work with these systems. So the bottom line is each of us have a part, that part is a particle of wholeness that is an exact replica of the big picture whole. The hologram reflection makes sure of it. You have a natural protective shield built into you now that did not used to exist, right now focus there. It originates in your solar plexus and is connected to the rest of the boundary of your body. This is your shield. If we defend against anything right now we reinforce the old boundary of blame, shame and guilt. Doing so keeps us from developing the honest protective shield of truth, beauty and love. Blame, Shame and Guilt represent our lower emotional nature and Truth, Beauty and Love our higher mature emotional nature. They sing a song in different octaves so listen and see which is operating  with every emotional twist and turn which one will be nourishing and the other nagging and depleting. Eliminate the depleting one to preserve yourself to your truest natural authentic purposeful state. Do it NOW.

Seems to me we are afraid of our emotions and just rawly feeling our hurt and pain has been a difficulty for most people to face. So instead we make stuff up about others that are bad, they are responsible for our pain and misgivings and we are not responsible at all. Well we each need to be responsible for our part now if we would like to keep living. Eckhart Tolle said, "Evolve or Die" kind of sums it up. There is a lot of good help in this world now. Though it may seem like it is behind the scenes, many folks have just been waiting to be of service in the right way at the right time. Well it is now. We can, We will, We are living our hearts and souls desire.  There is enough money for everything , always. It is how we choose to spend it that is up for reorganization. Don't be afraid, choose well. Thanks for listening. Here are a few ways the development is happening for each of us.

Remember: 
I count, YOU matter, Together We make the difference. 
Saying this out loud will continue to help you stay in your own unique flow.

Fall in love in such a way that it frees your from any connecting.
Love is the soul's light, the taste of morning,
no me, no we, no claim of being...
Love cannot be said.     Rumi

I wanted to include this poem because we have a lot of push/pull continuing on in our I and our WE. As we each create our own boundary our I has to be strong. and learn its new place in the world free of the WE. It can make it difficult in couples and people who need to be a team that are having to take a pause to find their new footsteps. Be gentle, kind and honest and this process does not have to be difficult.  Their is a developing place for the I in each of us dancing with the developing place in the WE and how we want to put that together properly. I can't emphasize enough that we want to be free from our previous structures enough to pay attention to where and how in our life this is naturally occurring. People are synchronistically showing up in just the right time, wow in the past I would have not wanted to do this and now I am open and wishing to share in this way. Pay attention to this kind of relating and structuring. What feels great about it?  Take a moment, breath it in to your cells is it nourishing or depleting?  Does it feel real or old and fake? We want to drop all roles that feel old and fake and open to the roles of ourselves that feel real, inclusive, engaging, continuous and in flow. Please don't decide or let your mind take over as to how this should look?  When you create something in present time free of the old structure you need to be present, honest, Am I in the mood or not, and able to be open to where the flow actually is. If you can follow this enough and not deceive yourself into it having to be in this exact way you will really easily be developing your I and your WE simultaneaously in a gorgeous interplay and dance. 

I have been watching some really nice things starting finally to manifest in the visible physical forms and structures on earth. YES!  People are addressing situations, differently with a lighter heart, a more just heart and more inclusive in some compassion for wanting a better world and to do something for it. The aspect bringing us this is our collective consciousness moon and node movement. It is half of the incarnation cross of consciousness. My dad had this and so does my brother and though they just lived it I got to watch how that worked fairly well. It is a WE thing where each person lives their I in the best way they know how and as enough of those pieces come together consciousness shifts. Kind of like the hundredth monkey concept but without our knowledge people just being so honestly in their right place Poof Magic just happens. This started for humanity on Sept. 28th and is vibrationally shifting everyone that is ready in their own part and genetic resonance to really Own, in all forms, body, mind and spirit their part and their own humanness to be a part of the whole, humanity. This is ongoing through this fall and will continue into next year. I am noticing in people really interesting nuances and lovely features that are subtle but are there. One friend never smiled and lately he has this little grin just below the surface. He is not aware of it and I know what it took to get that from the deep inside of him to his surface. So for me, it has been lots of hallelujah time and not in this hollywood overzealous over bling way just there so sweet the stuff life is really made of just in its ordinary nature, simple and beautiful comfort. Look for these items in your own life don't move too fast and when they come, pause, breath and fill every nook and cranny of your cells in your body full of the goodness that is there and the feeling of fullness that you find. With each pause you are helping your body to ground, anchor and be realistic in which ways and behaviors and feelings and life experiences  is correct for you to be and not be. As well as to live in a less extreme and dramatic way that does not serve you but a narrow balanced happy way that does. YES Please! 
 
Deception/Delusion:  Let us talk about the Double D's. DD.  DD...DD. hard to even say. Feel what it is like to say DD twice. Interesting that is sounds like DaaDaa like a young child saying daddy for the first time. The hold of the patriarch is letting go now and must shift into a better use of logic. When logic gets scared it reaches for the DD. Deception will be showing up in your life if you are living non authentically and still holding onto too much of the lie and manipulation that has coated our life from feelings of blame shame and guilt. This is no one's fault. THis is what we lived until we can live something else. The time is now to gently move forward into something that fits our humanity better and will allow everyone to have a proper place, an esteemed place of worthiness. A friend today reminded me of my dad's last words to me before he went into heart surgery and later passed away. He said, " You are enough for anyone and everything."  Though I genuinely do feel this way I feel it on my own. Most of the structures in life tell me differently and that is the karmic lie that must shift.
 In the must of it do not delude yourself into getting your panties in a twist. Do not get emotional over things that are lame and not so important. Notice you have a trigger, and let it go. The faster you can get in this process now and depersonalize what does not really belong to you,  the faster you can release and let go of deception and delusion that has a foothold on the quality of your life that no longer serves you to live. If it lingers you will digest it more fully and the passion it yields can then take action from a place that is more mature and more useful to address the current issues we now face that need to be addressed from a real place of innocence and compassion. We are seeing this in the protests and people stepping up and saying NO this is not acceptable. Stand in it and calmly with their energy and grounding making a space for something better and fair and just for all.  We each have a real girl and boy that lives in us and we need to learn how to honor both parts of THAT self before we can share that with others in a whole way. This process is ongoing so settle in and enjoy it. Go with the flow and river do not fight against it. You may be pleasantly surprised how easy this new doorway opens for you. I am having lots of wonderful spots that would really bother me in the past and things are happening and their is not one residual piece of irritation left to cling onto POOF Magic. Please enjoy your version of this as we have worked really hard for a long time to be standing in these moments and we sure don't want to miss these good parts. smiles. 

Scorpio gets a bad wrap and does carry our financial insecurity. So it hooks together our emotional insecurity to our finances and some people would rather have the world be doomed financially than just face some emotional housekeeping. Let us just clean house. YES!  This aspect is heightened right now and some very nice deceptive unconscious tendencies may be surfacing to help you get clear about people in your life on many levels of intimacy so you can see underneath and get to the emotional bottom line with yourself, your habits and your social interactions with other humans. What works? What does not?  Are the simple childlike parts of your social framework one's that excite you because of their deception or their truth?  Are you connecting for the right reasons or one's that disgust you in your emotional neediness? Address the emptiness and see what fills you up? Our paths are all narrowing now into something simpler and also we are learning what level of emotional intensity works and does not work. Are we honest with our emotions or are we passive aggressivley projecting them still? If you are lieing to yourself in anyway this is going to get really clear now so you can eliminate these deceptive and deluded qualities of false reality to bring you to a more authentic reality of life that suits you better. Thank Scorpio's influence for setting this straight for you once and for all, clearing old ancestry in our lineage forever in the pattern of it to complete and birth us into something next and helping you to now have the power to address and make new habits that work better for you and fill you up in nourishment and authentic self preservation that honors and protects your gifts so in the future you may share them with all of us as your unique part. 

It is also helping us to be more in balance emotionally and less paranoid as well as to be more harmonic to our natural tendencies. Please know Secrets abound right now and they are secret to everyone. Part of this is not intentional. So give the benefit of the doubt and really honor and know that whatever is not in your best interest, does not carry your best light and the correct power for who you are here to be will be removed from your life in divine order and not any other. Remove the fear that is driving you crazy there will be some really LOUD thing talking to you that makes you feel off, not connected, not a part of, isolated and not right. Just listen and let it go please and start to use the rest of this transit to know more about your truth and how the mystery wishes for you to take new steps, new perceptions, new social contacts moving forward. 

Breath in your nose and out your mouth. Breath in your mouth and out your mouth. Make the noise EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE just as often as you needed to let go of your nervous and emotional tension that you are feeling. It will help. Thanks for listening. I count, YOU Matter, Together We make the difference. Progress forward WE can and will do this. Thank goodness. Peace be YOU! Love Hii  

10/12/11
OWN-WON-NOW- Welcome one and all. If any of these words keep showing up in your reality you are on the right track.  We are Energy living in Matter not matter learning about energy. Ponder this for a while.

Once during Valentines day Oprah gathered some quotes together as only she can and one of them was the following:

"Attention is the most basic form of love: through it we bless and are blessed." This is written by a man named, John Tarrant.

 I then googled his name and somehow contacted him to find out he had no idea she was using that quote. I thought it was pretty neat to be able to be the one to make him aware of this fact and just how many people must have been affected by his words without his knowledge. THAT is how energy works. It is not loud nor boisterous and demanding and lame. It is subtle and true and honest and loyal and does not always have every answer but commits to paying attention the best way it can despite all of the push and pulls, ignorance, and disconnection and LOUDNESS of matter. Energy always is in the right place, at the right time, expanding and touching in all the best ways without any of us being a part of how that occurs. Remember this a lot now. It will help you to pay attention to your life in a way that will move you forward and very gently allow you to let go of all that does not serve you to be the energy that you are and have always been. Life has huge awesome possibilities moving forward if we can just get enough people to get to this place with themselves, OWN this NOW.

Use this quote often to guide yourself in love now authentically. To love yourself and others requires attention nothing else. Do not judge yourself ever for where your attention is but certainly now to have the right perception of your life you must be aware of where your attention is and is not. Both matter and both count for something. Your body and being know how to wire this together. YOU must pay attention properly to OWN your Life, to be alive NOW, and to take responsibility for your part here to be a part of the whole correctly. This is non-negotiable so don't fuck around with it just get her done! YES! 

 Early today we are having a full moon that is in the gene of shock/thunder.  It will sincerely place a lightning bolt of spiritual direction, truth and conviction into your heart impulse. It has the ability if you have been doing your work on earth to catapult you forward into a world, and quality of life you have desired and dreamed of forever, living magically so inside of you maybe even without your knowledge. Made true in form at the very core of the beat of your heart this full moon is a way to put being back into the Human equation quickly, succinctly, surely, alchemically. The roots for this shift started in April and the fire you have felt mixing with your emotions in the form of heat and electricity, revolutionary bursts, this is unacceptable, I can't take this anymore, come to Jesus talks to address your bottom line are all thanks to this firey Aries energy. It also carries a HUGE, I AM in it. Aries folks I am convinced are the only ones who should carry such a strong I in their power and if you are unsure Ever tried to tell an Aries person who is ready to take action that they can't? They can, they will, and they will get the job done efficiently so much so that nothing is left of the original structure, Life is changed forever and there is no going back. Welcome to the full moon in Libra. We are now entering balance at a level that will not allow the extreme parts of ourselves to exist in matter as we knew possible previously.   

Let's catch up to where we currently find ourselves, breathing, living, transforming into the energetic beings we each are, living in the matter we are capable of. These are not little moments we find ourselves in. We had a transit shift on 9/29/11 that took us from two months of eliminating old cell memory via our heart and making ourselves aware of what we have and what we don't have in our throat, lives and manifestation here on earth. What matters in matter and what doesn't. The thing that was helping us to decipher this is our energy, that with each and every transit is getting stronger and stronger and the parts of matter that don't matter are getting weaker and weaker. Thank goodness.

This shift now has us already experiencing many changes that are forever endings and beginnings, magnitude, big ones not little ones so please don't miss the point. The passage of Steve Jobs and all that he represented in his authenticity, personal privacy, and public generosity of genius and innovation has changed this world forever and that was all him, no education needed. We had three women winners of the Nobel Peace Prize.  This has changed our world forever. The First Female President of Brazil,  Dilma Rousseff for the first time ever was the first female speaker of the six day united nation's debate followed by Obama where she declared," This is the century for women," 1911-2011. She gave us permission NOW to recognize the achievements of women moving forward in a new way. This will change this world forever.  It allows the female part of each one of us, male or female,  to be OWNED wholly in all its connections never to be harmed, hurt nor oppressed again. In that it equally Opens the door for the Male part of each of us to actually exist openly to be aggressive and fiery and act upon the subject matter we feel most passionate about and take action appropriately.  This transit will bring us big surprises, beginnings, middles and endings that are perfect and right to close the door on the past emotionally and open us up to our one narrow pathway that each of us have to OWN.

 We are energy living in matter not matter learning about energy. WE already know how to do this folks. We just have to drop our identification with the masquerade.  What do you need to OWN?  Your responsibility, the one that suits you best at this point of reality, Your Power, the energy electrical spark you came here to be, the one that shines your light and others feel the warmth and comfort only you can bring, Your Authority what you are an expert at naturally through the unique selective way you are built and put together in this body in matter. Way cool. Bring it on!
 
Our mind:  Has just been rewired. It was what was helping the male and female part of our brain to become more at one and to live more thoroughly. If you feel dizzy, or nauseous in your tummy part of the reason is this transit was sitting in our pituitary gland kind of behind your nose and under your eyes in the middle of your head. It just left today. You will feel differently than you did in July and it will take your body, a few days to adjust to this new placement. For me, it is usually a good week before I get my stability back and my sea legs again to navigate the new waters I find myself in after a transit shift. That means your mind is different now in how it thinks as well as has more space to think with. This space has to be grounded by your body and being in order to work right. So if you feel weird, odd, not sure, move cautiously until it becomes more comfortable. Pay attention to your feet, knees, upper legs and hips and address anything that is talking to you that is not comfortable. It is happening so that you will pay attention and move slow enough at a pace that makes you feel  comfortable, calm and grounded. The more you put your attention HERE the more your mind will work right. This particular transit was in a gene called the return and it happened to return many pieces of information we need to utilize for our future. It did this on many levels of our being and needs to be centered, integrated and balanced now that the transit is over amongst all parts of our mind, body, and emotional health and well being.  See how long your adjustment is so you can help yourself move correctly with every transit shift. This is personal and unique to each person so developing your information pool and knowing your pattern in relationship to what is moving through you is a life long journey and one you must begin with this full moon. SO welcome to OWNERSHIP. Welcome to NOW. Welcome to WON- world of no-nonsense:)

 Your mind should feel quieter and less full of pulse. Many people especially towards the end were feeling the electricity in their head and the pulse like a non stop thump. As this transit moves away it should diminish and get quieter.  This made everyone very sensitive and under pressure to hear noises and sounds and information that they would not normally hear as well as returning information, a bit like a rat on a wheel that just keeps coming back and giving you more and more truth. You may feel a bit exhausted as well as excitement somewhere that you just can't place. You want to close your eyes and sit and settle into your solar plexus, area just above your belly button to center down in your belly now in balance. Breath in the nose and out the mouth and then in the mouth and out the mouth. This should help you center into your calm.   

The electricity is important as it is the alchemy that changes the body and upgrades each of us vibrationally to a more correct expression of who we each are emotionally.  If you are someone who is a high vibration person many fast twitch fibers in you, don't sit still easily this was probably heightened in you to get your mind and head in equal proportion to your bodies electricity. People who are like this all the time generally are emotional beings. All the rest are feeling this way too in their own unique way to stabilize in their own emotional boundary. So this applies to everyone it will be different and personal to each of you. This electricity does screw with the internet and computers so if you are someone that is built in this fashion every time you shift, your phone, computer, internet, anything electrical will need to shift a bit too. Have patience, get the bug worked out allow you and all your electricity to upgrade accordingly. If you are like this all the time,  you have a higher emotional chemistry, have a more mature spirit,  a bigger role here, and may have a hard time grounding this energy. YOU MUST ground it to OWN your life,  to move forward so you will have emotional crisis right now to get you in the right frame of mind, right pace, and with the right job and folks to live your life properly. Stay with the crisis, pay attention to how you feel, name it honestly and let the rest go. The momentum is sure and true. If you have been pondering emotionally for some time an emotional shift and upgrade of your life, this transit will help move you forward into the right job, community, home, food, life that honors your obsessive compulsion to desire something more for your life all the time. Remember less is more so you are getting really clear about what your narrow efficient comfort place is in yourself and letting go of all that you don't need to have to live there. Say, " I am living my heart and soul's desire" often to ground yourself in trust and find the connections necessary to live a life your can recognize and you are built for exactly. 

Let us get REAL: Responsibility, Empower, Authority, Leadership- this always reminds me of the little child that loves its stuffed animal so much that in time it actually becomes real and alive. This process we currently find ourselves in is just like that. So keep it simple and remind yourself you are loving yourself back to life and aliveness in the tough moments you may find yourself in.
what is important: Attention: Love and kisses to yourself for being alive, doing the work, being a part of the grandest experiment ever and what it FEELS like to be energy in a body. 

Responsibility:  What to be responsible for is coming from Pluto and Capricorn and is cleansing the perverse ignorance out of our culture. It is taking dysfunction out in a nonconnected way- neglect and ignorance. Read Steph's entry here about Neglect it will help you get clearer of how this force is talking to you and what it wants you to address and offering its support and help to bring you to a better truth. IT will help each of us be responsible for our part to OWN in a balanced way using all of our emotional dysfunction from the past streamlined into a useful functional genius that only you can bring. You may thank your upbringing for your well developed ability to know what you know by the way. It is the only way to free the matter and form that holds you back so say thank you and use any remaining anger to fuel your process and handle what you need to, to feel well, healthy, like you.

Empower-contains a lot of empathy right now for yourself, and what you have been through to be where you exactly stand today. SELF CARE is the key which does not say a lot about the other. Do it from now until November 24th as if your life depends on it and then you may share more with others through the holidays and you will feel GOOD and HEALTHY in your sharing and engage more truthfully with others. It will help you to free the ackward social embarassing where do I fit in feeling that has been nagging you for two years. You will also discover what Habits nourish you and deplete you personally and with others and then you can eliminate the ones that deplete you and make consistent plans, relationships and habits with the ones that nourish you. 

Authority:  Is ever growing. The I AM in you is getting stronger and that part is learning ever so surely how to express itself and when. Here we have a strong interplay between the male, yang part of ourselves and the Feminine receptive, yin part. EVERYONE has both now. So one part of you is way overdeveloped and one part of you is way underdeveloped. Do not take your frustration out on other people. OWN it. Each time you get frustrated: PAUSE Breath and pay attention to see how your power wants you to handle, shift, change, gentle, hard whatever is in front of you. We are balancing into the narrow part we each must OWN in our vulnerable weak part and our aggressive, power, part. Here is why, the true vulnerable weak part is where you will connect in the future with others who are aggressive and powerful in that part and visa versa. We EACH have BOTH. So in relationships previous to NOW we have come together expecting the other to fullfill the part we don't OWN. FOR sure this went down in an oppressive way and as a result we have very few people who are in their real authority. No blame in it just part of the collective consciousness story we have been living out together. SO relating is changing. If your relationships have been rocky in the last four years part of it is just not enough information to help yourself through. The game changed and no one is speaking about it or connected enough to know all the information to guide properly as well as we have so many people in authority positions who are falsely asserting themselves, or not able to assert properly for the authority role they carry. So the world is not coming to an end it just needs some ATTENTION in all the right places and encouragement in others.

SO for your Authority Part to OWN.
   
Feminine Receptive-Strength: Pay attention to what part of you is truly weak and vulnerable and no matter what you do you need that to come from outside of you. YOU will know. Open the left side of your body up to receive from others who are stronger in it and keep coming to help you in just that way. It may be difficult to do at first but just open your left hand and arm and wait for it to come and breath if it is difficult.

Aggressive Power-Action: Encourage your self to assert and share and express what you actively notice in the situations you keep finding yourself in and no one is doing anything about it. I AM is also this part of you and though it has always been there it was purposefully dormant until this Aries energy got turned on in April. Also it might surprise you how simple, easy and little energy it takes to actually assert properly. This is the Yang part of you and the male part and the beauty of the male in us is it is not all inclusive, it does not connect the dots so what it notices is narrow, direct, little, but very bold and can't be held back. It makes a broad motion stroke and then it is done. Kind of like the knight in shining armor just shows up to save the day in that right moment that gets created by circumstance and can't be preconceived.  The Detail you see, take action on and don't DO it for others, point it out so they can do it for themselves. Use your aggressive power to encourage others to take authority in their own life in the way you see it. If none of that is obvious put out your right hand and arm and see how you wish to help in any given situation you find yourself in. The right side will assert itself now. Watch yourself and learn who you are in your power compared to others. It will honor your true power and encourage others to feel safe and secure in their vulnerable weak place.
 
In the end you will be whole in both parts of yourself and you can offer this in relationships and commune, merge in a new way that will feel wonderful, life affirming, ever growing and sustaining for you and for the whole person you relate with. This is new and not a place we have related from yet. It will allow for great sexual balance and fulfillment on all levels. 

Leadership:  this part of you will have a strong push from Mars and also more fiery energy almost a double magnitude. The ends of August and September gave us some clues and on 9/29/11 is bringing forward and into the light very visibly where some of the leaders are that maybe we could not quite grasp until now. Steve Jobs being a huge example of someone who energetically followed his truth and calling and did succeed in this world. He also created a computer with a female brain at a time that no one was having any of it and now apple is all the rage. He is a whole example of a man that utilized both his female and male part in a whole way to offer our world something awesome. He did not care what others thought and that is a prerequisite for anyone who is a leader. You lead you don't care how that is received. John Tarrant's quote another good example of someone who created words that Oprah took and expanded without his knowledge. The more I watch the world the more I feel right motion is never up to us. It is up to the whole. What do you OWN that you can give the whole?  THAT is where your leadership lies. You will get really good clues and direction now through the 20th and then the formula of how to implement that or how the world wants that to be implemented through your one OWNED part through the end of the month. I see a lot of shuffling in the world right now and this is appropriate and right. Unexpected stuff is important pay attention to it. You may not know where all this is leading and that is perfect and appropriate don't miss the clues as they come like a big puzzle putting your life together that you wont realize, become real in and allow to be your reality until just the right timing for YOU. The timing is divinely guided not up to you or me right now. Trust this. Practice Radical Acceptance of all that you are discovering. (Thanks Y.A.)

Be REAL. OWN your part. Pay Attention to what electrifies and activates every cell in your body. Not time to move yet just to be aware, receive and  practice your expression of the new YOU. Thanks for listening. I count, You matter, Together We make the difference!  Only thing that truly matters is love and kisses. Thank you KA for allowing me to share here. Hi'ilani 

09/20/11
Hello all. I am a Capricorn Sun, Scorpio moon, Pisces Rising traditionally. I tell you this because everyone minimally needs to know theirs and read theirs with any horoscope you read. Look at it like we used to be one dimensional and now we are 3 just for kicks and giggles. These days are not my easiest moments a lot of pain going on for me in my knees and heart and intuition lots of crocodile heart and mind tears and memories and people letting go from my life to open me up to be more of me and to focus on what matters most to me personally. It is not easy for me to share personally and KA says it is my scorpio moon and in truth no one really in my life has wanted to hear from me personally about all that I go through to provide this information. It is my journey and I always felt the information I get from it for you is the only important stuff really.  I suppose if someone sincerely wanted to know I would speak but generally others do most of the talking. I have worked long and hard without pay or recognition to provide this information. I do it because I wanted to and knew I could  and did not want others to feel so alone as I did with no one to turn to who could relate or understand and really honestly could not possibly grasp my journey so I am grateful I am me, and so strong and could trust what poured through me to guide me. I am supposed to be here to give this information to all of us. It is my job to know such things. I generally love it but have been ridiculed incredibly often including lately and I am a little tired of that structure and projection from the collective world and ignorant people who know not what they do. It is boring unconscious and outdated now let us move on.  I keep hearing lately in my inner ear, sticks and stones can break my bones but names can never hurt me. I have become much more emotionally stable in the last few years thanks to many polishing negative influences in my life that I loved dearly. I am much more able to not fall apart in a bucket of tears every moment so am more functional in my depth these days and in my life thank goodness. I don't want to seem like I just spew information and am not flesh and blood. I am real and just a person whose path is this and took on an enormous amount of stuff I chose to live through to be me and authentic in it.  So please know it is my pleasure to provide this and I absolutely wish to experience and live with all of us in our best and I actually know how to get us there if anyone will listen. I will always hold a space for this possibility and can only share what I grasp in that possibility so we each can find our way safely, securely, and efficiently. I am grateful to KA for letting me share here. It has made my life whole in a way that was missing for a long time for me. I still take time to digest everything before I can speak and need to empathically feel it in my own body before I will externalize it to you. A bit of a turtle that way I am as well as an eternal mother, I wont give you bad food, I will try it first and give you the best. Just my way. Hope you are getting ready for the fall equinox this is a special time now, and I am really looking forward to it. Thanks for being here and listening.

The title of this entry was the three top selling movies a week ago. It struck me as odd and great and I decided to weave what the words mean to the vibrational influences we are currently undergoing. Here is some information I wish to share that can help in our careful consideration of where we presently find ourselves. If you look at things vibrationally you don't have to exagerate or manipulate anything. Vibration is true and whole and vibes itself honestly. The whole point of life now is to be the vibration that you are. It is more than your aura. It is what feeds, what is, what beats, what smells, what guides you deep inside that allows your aura to be read as your vibration. Aura just takes up space what is sourcing it is your genetic vibration something only you can be and share and is deeply specific to who you have been forever breathing now in this body and this life. It is what is and isn't what it isn't. It cannot lie. smiles......... Imagine. 
Being your vibration is a much easier way to know the truth of a matter and not its disguise. Ponder this some. 94% of what is lived out currently on earth vibrationally is the disguise so it means the manipulation we live collectively is still altering our vibration in its truth. When that leaves it is scary only because the disguise is familiar it is also painful because it is not real nor authentic to what we are built to awaken into and be in this current time. When the disguise leaves we become more aware of all the ways we were not awake and were suffocated by the disguise.   All the details and ways this is shifting into something more authentic, true to your body and form and vibrationally correct for who you came to be is listed below for the rest of September 2011, while reading Please  breath and enjoy. I will list these details and current planetary influences affecting our body from our bodies perspective as the more you can encompass and anchor your body through being aware of its awakening places the faster and more efficient you allow your vibration to genuinely exist,  settle in, get safe, be alive and awaken and the disguise to vacate thank goodness :  FYI it may be easier to read my writing speaking it so feel free to do that if it is difficult to grasp through just reading. Remember I am someone you need to marinate with so read and reread to let this sink in where it needs to for you. Thanks.

By the way each and every one of you rocks. Only you can be you and we as a humanity cannot exist without you each and every one. Remember this a lot now.

Your feet, knees, legs: 
There is a lot working in here many influences so let us break them down one by one. How they meald and synthesize together is different for everyone. SO you will have your own symphony in this I am just going to list the general specifics to help for now. 

Pluto:   WOW undertow and it is the best way to view it. Have you ever been in the ocean with a strong undertow? It moves slowly and surely and completely, strong and hard, and is capable of pulling you under without the surface even moving an inch. So it will make us pay attention and honor our primal emotional depth.  It is our emotional depth that knows how to stand up safely and securely and with trust and faith to survive, nothing else. Every person's is different in its complexity, quality, and level. Some of us get to just be on the surface of stuff, skim the top. Others have to feel it all. Will feel like gunk, guilt, blame, shame as it flows through. It has been perculating in a fog horn pause and retrograde since April 9th. This date added fire to the mix so it was like deep hot lava mixing with the water in you to create steam. We don't have anything in our body until we create the alchemy of steam. Think of lava flow hitting the water makes smoke as it cools and creates LAND. THIS is the stability I am talking about. It actually exists in you and has been created these last many months so as we now get to be more aware of what the undertow wants us to realize in our personal truth, own that and let go of the rest. Where to look?  Feet, knees, legs. Symptoms this is working in you are: HEAT, sweat, more circulation, cracking in your joints, contraction and pain all of these are a great way in the body to create Help, be in touch with your inner warrior, and to be contagious to tell other bodies vibrationally, Yes it is safe here, now. We are under pressure here all of us to move, take different footsteps, and be healthy in this new alchemy that has created itself in our body and made itself at home.   The alchemy contains fuel to correct what you were unwilling to do before. The warrior in you can help. Ask it to help you be more disciplined with the new footsteps you now have the courage to take. It is making obvious all the perverseness in your life. Good and bad. SEE it figure out how you want to handle it now having more information and pieces to your life's puzzle and story. Write it down as it reveals itself to you so you can reflect on it later.  Who are you and who are you not?  Follow who you are, take it with you into the future and let go of who you are not. We are in this process of being reacquainted with our truth and our sea legs until December. Take it slow, pause a lot, don't miss any information, it is all needed to find our new legs and stability in what to trust about ourselves, free of the perversion of the disguise. Don't be afraid it is like Halloween think of it like a costume that you have no more use for and have outgrown  and take off your mask when you are ready and feel more safe in your ability to stand and are sure footed in your calm. Buy great comfortable shoes that support the new you. Dance a lot. Please say:  Free, Clear and Restore. Breath in your nose and out of your mouth. Thank you.
Your nose and mind:
 Everytime you relieve the old pressure in your feet, knees and legs the sinus cavities around your nose will open. You may thank Saturn for this influence as soon as it shifted on Sept. 1st it went from one health gene to another. This new one is our intuition. It carries a fear of tomorrow in it and gives life its eerie shear cool quality right now. It is acting as the bridge with our undertow now moving forward to allow the mind and our feet to be together in action and words. So it will remove the hypocrisy in life that is holding back the new quality of life that is possible to live out presently. It is also helping to bring a healthy perception of ways that our dysfunction can have a genius in it. What that means is that with all the disguise that has been upon us collectively we can brightly with clear flashlight see the parts we need to, to use this perversion in a healthy way and free forever the blame shame and guilt that was laid upon it just to keep all of us more unconscious until these moments moving forward. So no judgement please, yes it is exhaustive and has been a long time in coming partly why the same fuel that is revealing these parts to us is also removing and giving us more energy to keep persevering and not give up. Why this entry is titled, The Help, Warrior Contagion is because  Everytime we emotionally clear an old emotional pattern of blame, shame and guilt, (the help) our legs stand in a new balance (warrior) and our mind and nose area opens (contagion). It may have felt at first like sinus drip everywhere a river of drip.  It is freeing and cellularly clearing  the disguise.  It will help remove the fog that can sit in you. It will be aggravating your sinus and mind for sinus headaches perhaps, the key is to remove the pressure in your legs through walking, and stretching and swimming is grand. Energy work, massage, acupuncture, foot reflexology, foot epsom salt baths and all body epsom salt baths, all grand.  Helping yourself to breath in your nose and out your mouth as much as possible can help you to get this immune system moving in its new direction. All forms of exercise that help you to sweat and move the steam out of you is going to help these body areas.
 
Fear of tomorrow. 
Sounds gloomy and doomy but it is not. It is present, in the moment, captures all the little frequencies going on so you can be aware and alive like an animal and feels fearful to be able to be aware even more than normal,  gotta hear it all. USE it. Awesome information right now, bringing some very nice awareness to your life and revealing some nice truths you will have to incorporate to be healthy as the new you in the future. This vibrations secret is it is afraid until the moment comes. So that edge you feel in waiting for tomorrow is this gene. If you are engaged in the moment you are in you wont need to feel such demise. I have this in me all the time and though I have been doing the work I do for 14 years I am always afraid until the moment comes to do the work I do and then I am fine. So I have learned to remember and work with it so it did not take my life down. It was hard as a kid as I had swim practice at 4am on Monday and Sunday night was scary in anticipation of a moment I was not in yet. Once in Monday and in that cold pool I was alive and well. Work with it and let it help you and your body to feeeeeel goooood in the moments you are in engaging in as your new you. Pay attention to what help comes, where you feel like being your warrior and what parts of your expression feel contagious and you feel good and alive and others engage back with you. THIS is real Life and you giving your part your purpose. 

Your throat and voice: 
TO have or have not that is the question here. Listen to your voice, your words what you are saying to others and them to you. What are all the things gathering on your list that you have in your life that work? What are all the things you don't have that the last month and a half told you needs to be a must have in your future?  Sort it out. The foundational message what is important to create a safe and secure trusting life for you will manifest speak and reveal itself in the last days of this month. Funny as we move into Libra and balance the real balance for each of us will be shown free of the extreme. Don't be surprised if it is childlike and really yummy and not so extremely exciting. Excitement in its pure form is real and honest and safe and home and simple in its balance not at the extreme ends of emotion at all but right in the middle. This is about the floor of life in its most basic and fundamental form. Find your floor, your feet, your shoes, your pressure in life that works at a pace that makes you feel, calm, fulfilled, that you can trust your life and your quality of life.  Make sure it works for you personally as this is a deeply personal preference and one only you can know for yourself then you share it and combine what is necessary and needed with those you share with.

Your heart: 
Gathering steam and circulation and energy and ego we have been in our deep letting go. The heart is the main organ in the body we need. Without it we are not alive and we do not beat to circulate the blood necessary to sustain nourishment to the rest of the body. This is the central hub of change right now and if we cannot change our hearts we cannot live in this body properly and wont use our minds differently more connected and whole  for ourselves to create a sustainable future.  Emphasis on create. The new creative push in all of us comes from our heart. It is in Leo energy and the last many years has been pushing all Leo foks to let go and surrender their old pride and righteousness to a more whole and tender place that allows the whole of the heart to create differently than just the beating one to keep us alive. It is a frequency shift so the shock and alchemy and electricity that keeps the heart beating is getting more connected which allows the heart to have more vision than before and actually more information. The heart can be dense and immature worse than emotions actually and is like a small child that does not get its way. Be careful and aware of this part of yourself now and ask honestly is this who you want to be and is it working for you or separating you from others and your life?  If you are righteous is that working for you or not?  If you are egotistical is it healthy or not? If you exagerate to the point of deception and lie without knowing it, is the lie serving your life or not?  There is no correct answer as their is healthy ego, exageration, righteousness, and courage to be found and had in this influence. It will make each of us show up more with heart and meaning in our own lives and the lives of others. Life sucks without it. Unfortunately it is the very place that the disguise is the greatest, the greed is the greatest, the lack of truth and proper identifying of words vibrationally versus the hypocrisy of the words is the greatest. SO? What has been speaking to you. If it seems like a lot and you are exhausted from what feels like your own righteous fight you may be in a bit of a battle with your own ego in ways that can be surprising you and that previously you did not know existed. KEY is surrender. I am finding that just saying the word almost like an instruction to my body helps me let go in it, some of the fearful contraction recede and open to the stable land I can possibly stand in. I recommend it highly. It is subtle so pay attention to the subtle response in your heart and bodies state of contraction. There is a poem in the ascension support section. IF we all did it daily from now until the end of September lots of simply easy transformation could abound. Please try it. I find it makes a momentary calm but that the affects of doing the poem open all day long. It is a bit like a whispering wind all my words and poems but it works great and is based and founded in creative trust. It can't harm you and can only help. SO what are we committed to?  Continuing to complain and do nothing in the disguise of the collective vibrational dis-ease? Or working at it some to be the vibrationally sane and sound person you can be?  If the help, warrior and contagion win you will be doing that poem daily. I would greatly appreciate it and let me know how it goes. It helps me and the others here to bring better support if we have a sense of what is going on for you and what you are aware of when you read some of these entries. It is ok to go viral with this information and share it with people you care about.  If people don't have your best interest at heart they will be selectively and purposefully moved out of your way and your life. Trust it and use the extra time on your hands to do your thing and share with people that have your best interest at heart. 

Jupiter expanding and returning our mental quality: 
Many generations before us made these moments possible. They had to live through pretty awful stuff sometimes in their individuality so we could have the heart and voices that we do now and can make a different brush stroke on our lives. We are their offspring. They were narcissistic, addictive, rebellious, indignant, negative, rigid, mean, scared and unsure of what to do and how to handle it. Financially there was lack. Religion guided in a not whole way terrifying them into obedience with lots of false power and authority.  They did their best and so will we. They paved the way for now to be the possibility that it is becoming. Respect what came before you even if it felt like harm while you revolutionize yourself and shift. Don't be brutal or you become vibrationally the same thing you are fighting against to make better. Respect the sacred sanctity that is the life thread between all of us in a body. Honor that, it will help you to grasp the essence of the inside of someone regardless of the surface disguise. The respect of the vibration that has come before is the only thing that is sustaining us so we best realize that if we really want a chance to have the life we feel, desire, need, want, we  have to maintain and improve the thread that has made it through so far to keep us alive and allow us this life and  chunk the rest for some more space in our body and being, emptiness that can be filled with the return of all the hidden pieces that are now available to us free of the disguise. Don't take my word for it. DO some exercises see what you get.  Each day until the end of September take your hands and put them over a different body part. Examples that are good now are:  your mind , hand on your face eyes and nose area,  your heart, your feet,  your chest.  Say out loud, I now free clear and restore my mind, my heart, my feet, my chest respectively. I forgive myself and all those involved. Thanks be me and my human family.
 In that you want to be discovering where is the help?  How do you wish to help?  What assertive part of the warrior in you needs a role in your life? Where are you contagious and on fire and can't hold this ever birthing part back?  The more you let go of your disguise with Pluto's help the more revealing the answers to these questions will be. Everything is guiding you to your purpose and function in that. Trust yourself, You can, You will live your heart and soul's desire. Listen carefully for it now, to whisper its truth to you. I give you permission to pay attention here and ignore the rest. Do it now. 

I count, You matter, Together WE make the difference.  Thanks for listening.  Peace be Hi'ilani 

08/20/11
Hello everyone. I sure hope life is bringing some interesting aha's and realizations that are helping and giving positive freedom to your world your mind, your heart, your body and your emotional patterns. Though it may seem like one big cloud lifting and not so detailed SOMETHING is definitely happening would be the best way to define life's currents presently. The best strategy is to find the flow, go with it, surrender wherever possible and let the information good or bad in all it's colors and flavors impress upon you so you digest whatever is being presented as efficiently and effortlessly as possible.  Resistance to change can only bring pain so do your best to let go and let be wherever possible. 

Some details of where the current transits are impacting and navigating and guiding our lives:

Mercury Retrograde:  We are in the final week now and I have to say this is the strongest most impactful retrograde I have lived through for quite some time. The pace and the magnitude of how many places we are being asked to change is heightened and is much more not negotiable than previously felt and lived out. We will feel this more strongly as we approach and come through the end of the year into April of next year. Try to view it with an open heart and arms and as the grand adventure of your life because in many ways it is. We are living in times we have never created before and everyone has a choice to shift or not. To face and let go of their fear and not. This retrograde has greater impact because it has a great whooshing affect to cleanse clear and provide more oxygen to our brains to function in a higher and more whole integrated way. So if your anxiety is high and you are shaking like a leaf for unknown reasons please be gentle, kind and warm to yourself and the people around you. ALWAYS keep a slower pace to help yourself relax in these moments of change slow and easy always helps to get shifts done efficiently and with ease. Great doubt can be swimming around in your mind so let it swim it will shift on Thursday to your chest bringing some real future directions after the shake up of this month in the many areas we are addressing. So write down in your calendar what reveals itself to you Thursday through Sunday. It will help guide you in the future later down the road. Also if nothing really comes that means you are living in perfect and right motion so keep up the good work and stay on your path guided from your deep inside breathing always in the nose and out your mouth to help give your mind some space and some release. Thanks.

KEY shift:  Uranus the planet of lovely alchemy and electricity and profound changes quickly and unexpectedly starts in a new gene today. If you find yourself crying and having mini emotional breakdowns this planet is helping to keep the water and alchemy in us moving. It shifts out of the logic in our mind and has been quite intensely busy repatterning how we think about things and the facts that are important to our lives to let go of and to to take into the future with us as they are important and are building blocks for your future lives. It moves from our right eye to our chest helping us to be reunited with the innocence and love for all of life in a cool and detached manner. This gene will help to navigate some of the electrical storms and unexpected shifts occurring and center and integrate just where we need to be to identify home and what is necessary to be at home in our body and lives moving forward. It has real and truth authenticity and purpose in it and will make sure we get the messages flowing through right. Thank goodness. 

I can't stress enough that SURRENDER to what is happening in this world and your own life is the key to getting through some of these evolvement changes. Your ability to be present and in this moment is directly linked to how well you can surrender right now. Please don't feel this means you have no choice and you are a wimp and the world is doomed. Nothing of the sort. Instead Surrender is just an energy that takes us to a better place in our whole body and being and helps us to easily let go of things we are complete in because we want more of life and yearn for a more whole more connected more honest way of living with one another so we can create, improvise and have way more fun then the automatic life sucks and we are victims in a world that does not work right theme. Old theme just let the surrender move you on and forward. We can, We will, We are living our heart's and soul's desire. Focus there say those words often as an affirmation:  I can, I will and I am living my heart and soul's desire. It will help focus you in the current life theme and not the one that is clearing itself and freeing you to a better destiny. Placing your hands on your chest and just breathing there for just 5 minutes a day can help center you into your own innocence and love of the home you inhabit in this body. It will help calm the energies pulsing through you because you are acknowledging they exist and you are cooperating and not fighting the process that is happening. 

EGO/Righteousness:  We are exploring all of this and we have some serious pressure in our hearts and throats expanding each of us into understanding what we need to have to be authentic to our life, this one, we came here to live out not just the one that has been dumped on us or delivered so far.  Our greed and inequality in wealth is being worked out here. So please don't think this part is so pretty. If you feel strongly about being right, be careful, examine some more and be sure you want to be right in these ways. If so, awesome, it is important for you to have ego in these areas then. If life is bringing you some rewarding challenges embrace them as part of the adventure you are playing in and be present and ask yourself how you feel and what does feel right in this moment? This is all tied into money and the inherited financial abundance or lack your family delivered to you. Never blame just forgive yourself and them for a story that can be different now. Put your energy into making good decisions and a stable base and quality of life that suits you and belongs to you personally. Not collectively, Not the family drama version you may have needed to live out so far.  It is so ok to be mad and to use that energy to fuel yourself, your vision, and what you need and want to have moving forward.  It is great to stand up for yourself but not at the cost of another. Be very careful of your heart, of what you say and how you say it as the strength of your words is stronger and will be hitting you and others in more impactful ways. The other difficulty is a lot of people in this world are unconscious and not so well practiced at having an adventure so they may not realize the magnitude of what they are saying and that it can pierce to the core of your heart and your words to theirs. Also it is making us aware of inherited family patterns we need to let go of so when someone says something and it really bothers you and irritates you there is something there for you to feel, digest, process through and let go of. Then with each of these your heart will open a bit and your manifestation in life quality will expand and open as well into a more stable form. It is ok. Give it your all and some very nice results will be felt come October.   Let people know you need to take some space to be with yourself and don't play that out in arguing ego battles. A so, totally waste of this good transformative energy.  Be careful of alcohol and drugs at this time they can heighten all of this and make these issues magnify out of control quickly. So be aware please and responsible to yourself, your heart and this body of yours creating it's rightful home. Any form of exercise is awesome especially walking just to ground and center all this heightened energy into the body in a great integrated way. 

Lastly Saturn a planet I watch that really gives us good concrete leadership and change in the limitation of our body and our current life theme is wrapping up in our instinct and awareness of how to be more conscious in our body and immune system and overall health. It is the non negotiable planet and never comes until we as a collective are ready for the push and movement and finality and new beginning only Saturn can negotiate. It is a good guy and is a guy, more yang type of energy. This week it brings the highest form of valuable energy to us to imprint in our depth of spirit and core of our being navigating this new home in our body.  It has been doing quite an amazing job in our architecture since March of 2011. So you have become quite accustomed to it. Listen, feel, watch, this week for the last threads of inadequate feelings of fear to leave and also ways you feel deeply adequate as a person, in your life and the lives you touch. Write this stuff in your calendar. You will need the adequate expression that you feel most comfy in for future use. Thanks.

I count, You matter, Together, We make the difference. I really appreciate you reading this and listening and using it in your daily life to navigate the current life themes we are finding ourselves in. Please share it with others if you find it useful and of course write comments below to share whatever ways you feel this helps you.  Peace now and only,  Hi'ilani 

08/08/11

We had three big planetary shifts recently that affects the bigger framework of our lives and what and how we are transforming ourselves, body, mind and spirit and this world recently. It takes a little while to settle in and get used to the new energies and frequencies affecting your body so this last week could have been quite the interesting phenomenon. It feels quite a lot in my body and I am pretty well seasoned at these kind of things so I will try to go step by step and just honor each of these shifts for what they are in their most fundamental and concrete form. 

The three are:
 Nodes of the moon changed genes from mind and throat to heart and throat, Mercury Retrograde in Leo, Neptune's last hoorah in Aquarius. 

Before I do this I have a few things to say: 

Each and every person is built differently. So these guiding pieces of information will affect each person differently. The one thing we need to find out more about now is to honor the fact that we can't keep acting as if everything is like before. It isn't and every moment we move farther from how it used to be. So if you hold onto that it is not going to be easy, may be quite painful and is not really what is scheduled to live out now. So don't resist these energies. They are what is helping us to be more of who we truly are authentically and less of what we are not and can't stand to be one moment longer. People around me have described good and evil my whole life. I have never believed in such things and do not categorize any part of our existence that way. To me it is quite conservative and black and white to view anything in such light and does not allow for the whole picture to be revealed or lived out. We view things we are ignorant to in a black and white, this or that kind of way. The extremeness and limitation of such a perception is kiling us and choking our financial flow right now so if you are scared about the future and don't know what to do about it make sure you check into your own perception and see where things are too constrictive and coming from a fearful protective place not based in truth but in lack of knowledge and information and shear ignorance.  We are all connected and it is ridiculous to keep putting up these separating barriers as if we are not. We are becoming psychically aware on so many levels about all of the ways we are connected and all of the ways we have had this hidden from our awareness and what we could be conscious of. This knowledge we can locate now that was previously not available to all of us is going to help us to view, perceive and create better solutions for our future and the future of this planet so that we can manage life in a better way and a way that allows every single person to be ok in exactly the way they need to be to survive and to live their life out the way that feels good and right and true to their unique selective genetic make up. Some people don't want to be wealthy and greedy and some do. There is enough space for everyone to do that and to not lose in it. Our hearts have some of the answers and have a special vision and perception that is based on a higher frequency, higher vibrational awareness which just means there are more dots to connect and when connected it gives us a bigger more whole picture than ever before and within that wholeness lies answers and information that can solve some of the current dilemmas we face.  This feels wonderful, it will feel fun and exciting to be able to see and feel and connect and be a part of in new ways and share with each other to make win/win scenarios.  The only way for this to be the possibility it can be is for people to let go of their fear, let go of the past, let go of a world that is fast becoming a better one if we will just nourish ourselves with some of these more truthful, more whole, higher vibrating frequencies and not be afraid to become all that we each can be. Don't be afraid of your power, your light, your selective unique gifts and perception that took this long to be able to connect the dots enough to be alive now.  You can, You will, You are living your heart's and soul's desire. Please get out of your own way. 

What is offered here is information, water to drink for your parched being that is tired of trying to grasp for things based in limitation and lack. If you don't want to drink it that is your right. What is not ok is to use your creativity and power in destructive ways towards others just because you don't want to face yourself. Take that out on yourself not on others everyone has a right to real life and life based in the truth, the beauty and the love they came here to be. These self destructive projections and emotional stagnating lower vibrational forms of emoting are up to be healed right now. They are ugly and not the most pretty part of being a human. Clear them. Go get good help, Shamans, healers, energy workers, coaches, physical trainers, chiropractors, acupuncturists, nutritionists, therapists, herbalist, Readers, Psychics, Astrologers, any one that can help you get clearer about who you actually are and how your energy works and what you came here to live out is what you want to expose yourself to.  Pay these people well and get the efficient help you need to transform yourself into all that you came here to be. Get your human design chart free from Human Design America and look at it daily. 
I would much rather you use these highly charged energies of anger and rage to fuel your life experience into a better place rather than take any of it out on yourself or others. Thank you. 

Details:  Each of the following is an accurate description of what and where you are currently growing and developing. Reading this information will help your nervous system relax just by hearing it as it helps tell your body what it is doing so it can help itself in it. Thanks. 


First, the nodes of the moon changed genes and vantage points August 1st. These I watch as they guide our collective experience and help us to clear the past to live out the future more correctly. They have been in our left eye and our throat/thyroid/manifestation in the gene of metamorphosis since March 18th. The left eye was viewing and stimulating us emotionally and making us aware of what stimulations were harmful and not peaceful and what ones were harmless, funny, and feel at peace. This gene in the past can be quite punishing, and really full of emotional blame and pain. When it moved we finalized the pain patterns as a species and a doorway shut so we will know longer be allowed to get away with such ignorance. If you try to you will get instantaneously karmic retribution for what is painful right back so you can correct more quickly and not put gunk into the collective space that is not helpful and not in peace. Our left eyes will see from this perspective now to keep us in better check and to not cause unnecessary pain ever.  The metamorphosis was clearing our lives of the genetic shifts that have been occurring since SARS was first introduced and opening us up to manifest from this grander and more vibrationally savvy perspective and showing us what simple stimulation and tone is a style that works for each of us personally for the individual we are. These sourced our lives March 18th until August 1st.  That was a long time, as well, I also notice we don't really fully experience how we have changed until the transit shifts off of us so in that there can be a deluge a week later of us realizing all that has occurred and if not cleared can make people really unmanageable quickly. If you feel that way get some help to clear yourself into the flowing state not the stagnated one. Flow means energy is moving, Stagnation means energy is not and usually  feels uncomfortable, irritable, and painful like your skin no longer fits you or your clothes need to be washed, given away or a whole new style altogether. 

Currently the above moved on  August 1st  and will be affecting us until  September 28th in the following genes:
 we have the node affecting and clearing the past in the gene of our ability to gather and to know what we want to have and what we do really need to have. This matters as we were different people in the past, felt differently about things, were not as aware of what has heart and meaning to us and what does not and definitely what things cost and what we need to have in that and not. We will be going over our past and refeeling and reexamining what for sure we need to abundantly have going forward personally and what is not important to have. We are getting more efficient about what items we need to have and how to spend our money more wisely and efficiently to feel more safe and secure in our survival and to trust a little better the bottom line important features that are not negotiable. Do not be surprised if what you need to have becomes a lot less and easily can be shared with others in a win/win cooperative way. 

The other gene is in our heart and this is imprinting upon us in our heart. It is Egoic truly and has a big ego and is very fragile equally. If you feel like you are breathing and moving and creating blood for two people all of a sudden it can feel like this.  This part of the heart needs a lot of rest so in order to process and eliminate cell memory that is no longer needed and is too much ego and not enough tenderness we all need to have enough sleep. In our sleep our dreamtime will eliminate and reorder how our heart visions our life and puts it into the right order to have it efficiently pump our blood and work on our muscle tissues and tones to prepare us for best results and living going forward into our futures.It will also make you aware of your heart's desire and start to develop the vibration to magnetize that towards you.  Be open to a change of heart and do notice when you behave differently as equal to all this development when we can witness and observe all the new ways this wants to operate in our own body it helps us to be more at home in our own life quicker.

 If you are really agitated and very angry you may need to physically move in ways that honor this energy. Punching bags are good and punching into the air ok too. Any kind of vigorous quick exercise as these tissue fibers are quick and intense so doing vibrant quick intense exertion works really well to release these frequencies with ease and not take them out on your life or each other in negative less than great kind of ways. You may be kind of jerky at first as aggression spits out or you move and break a glass or random acts of aggression are common so have patience, forgive yourself and work with the active/aggressive energy to help yourself in it.

MERCURY Retrograde: 8/2/11-8/27/11
I was born and live in this life with my own Mercury, my mind and communication connection being retrograde. To me it does not mean the same as what some folks say and I am always quite at home during such times. I do feel it is a time for moulting and to be able to unconsciously make ourselves aware deep inside of what we are living out kind of like a cosmic pause and reevaluation as well as to be sure we are being thoroughly on the right track and path for our life. If makes sure we get it right and does affect our species and our collective consciousness before and after the retrograde in a very specific way. I have never witnessed what this retrograde is bringing us so let's hope I can get the words out to describe what I feel is occurring in a way that really addresses it's possibility. I don't talk like others and have developed my own languaging in my speech patterns kind of because my mercury in my birth chart is retrograde. I also speak from my heart and intuition so when I talk I address your body instinctually, your mind intuitively and bring it home to your heart. It has not been easy to be valued in this world so far and I appreciate you reading this and allowing it to touch you in all the ways it can. Thanks so much. 

WHAAAAAA!  smiles. I have been feeling like having really good sex is really high on the priority list for folks right now. So if you read Steph's entry recently in the empowering words section it is great and talks about making love in all its facets for some suggestions of what making love can be that includes being sensual to everything not just the physical act of sex. When I say Sex I do mean that. If you are a person who is fortunate enough to physically share your developing body with someone now in a wonderful and safe way please do so. If you can do that with yourself and pleasure yourself physically to move these energies from your uterus or prostate up to your heart please do so. There are so many different energies in this retrograde that are all about our fertile relationship with our own sexual, vital life force which is really about our own creativity personally as well as our ancestral heritage of creative function as a person and creative force in this world. This is heightened because August is our time of Leo sunlight and represents Heart, pride, and is the changing energy of creativity for the last three years into a heart centered creative function and flow that is truly different than just pride in its vengeful limitation in the past. This speaks directly to letting go of cold spots in your heart yours or your ancestors that are very sharp and have a twinge of a knife blade in their expression because your heart got hurt and has not been healed yet to a more whole and tender place that has compassion in it from the ability to process what it must be like for the heart to keep beating and surviving no matter what it meets in some of our more shortsided and smallness expressions as a species. In the past disposing of people that would not go along with the heart plan was a great way to exclude valuable people and not include them in the overall power play and business survival structures in our communities and life and helped create people with power, wealth and greed that felt they could cut whomever out of the plan whenever they wished. So when you look at it from that perspective we have some work to do folks. This retrograde will address and clear the cell memory lingering in our DNA forever. WAY cool. Please forgive yourself and all of those involved. This story has been very long as a species and we are capable of becoming more now so let's do it!  I say YES!

 I also feel like there is a twilight zone operating with this retrograde, many different realities able to converge in our mind and our vitality, our life force, that says yes or no to life happening all at once. There are many little small moments in time all converging together and gathering in just the right time and speed for each person. We can't push that envelope we can only watch the movie kind of like what it must be like for the edit person on a movie in the old days when they had huge reels of picture negative that had to be edited to have just enough picture frames to capture what the movie goer needed to see. Thank goodness our body knows how to do this which is why to not resist the moulting and the re emerging that is taking place is important and to let the storyline of life offer you something instead of you affecting it in any way is the necessary pause needed. 

The specific genes affecting this retrograde:
 It started with our fertility and creative force opening a new pathway and way to create a union with others being open to new more whole and vital connections with others. Done correctly it would open people to have more sex and to want to share themselves in a way that will have a flair of vervent heart felt flow. The connection will be vivacious, freeing, lighthearted and more fun and easy shameless rather than shameful to express your body physically. As Steph writes you can make love to many things so if you are watching your connections have this feel you are feeling it properly and well. Thank you for sharing yourself newly and differently.It does not mean you need to literally have sex with everyone rather to be more open to make a bond of any kind with others in a more heart felt and loving way. It may surprise you go with it!  If you get to have yummy encounters fill up your cells with the feeling of fullness you feel it is replacing the emptiness of the longing for these moments to show up and get here. So fill up. 

Next we have new ways we will respond and say yes!. It is opening us to wanting to be open to new life experiences and to say YES to a greater experience of life and a real yearning to HAVE that now. This has a real timeless feel to it so if you find yourself  saying YES to time with folks and then you are there all day don't be surprised. Let your moments unfold just as they wish. 


The above two genes are kind of putting our mind in our belly. Though this sounds weird it is kind of true so if you feel like your mind is lost go to your belly and you will have an easier time focusing and being in the right moment in the right time. The next gene will move our mind back into our mind. So what is really happening is the creative life force in our body is helping to change our mind as well as helping our mind to think in a greater and more connected capacity. We will come up with new formulas for how to think about life and how to use our creative life force and mind together in a better more cooperative way. If you feel frustrated during this transit take a pause and ask yourself how do I open and learn more about my own power here? You may be freed in some interesting wonderful ways to open to more powerful, sensual and vital ways to have a better handle on your life in the future. Also when you can honor the limitation you feel in your frustration and be open to patiently working with it you can feel a whoosh that will expand you into better function of your power in your body that you can use to lead a better life in the future. 

Last we will have revealed some nice desires of our spirit and truly what our soul wants to include and have for the future. So whatever happens to you August 6th until August 11th write it down and when the end of the retrograde comes see what that week has to do with what gets manifested and communicated August 25th to August 28th. If it feels great and like a YES even if it is a brand new direction really ponder it and give yourself an honest heartfelt answer as your purpose may just be revealing itself for the future. Be grateful for whatever comes this retrograde as these are some pretty special times if you choose to use them as such. Also being over qualified and under qualified for jobs speaks to the fact that people need to be more on purpose in their job and not just selling their soul for a pay check. In that if something comes this week and it makes sense, feels right and qualifies as over qualified or under qualified it may be perfect motion. Digest it fully and you will know what is correct motion for yourself Thanks!

Neptune Moves:   7/31/11 This is our watery nature and where we can gleam some crystal clarity about things that can normally delude us. It is in its last hoorah of Aquarius and will culminate, finish, move through and place us into a new life experience as its possibility one filled with emotional maturity and a wisdom that our soul's genetic expression carries us forward with.  We have been working on this shift since March of 2009 in and out and in and out these transits give us a clue and then leave and then more of a clue and then leave and this is the crescendo moment where all the instruments and emotional droplets come together and show us what we need to feel and see to not delude ourselves and to take the proper steps for ourselves and live our right life of passion and truth. Pay attention, get it right and make sure your life is big enough for your soul. If it is not you will need to expand and open now to include a version that feels comfortable to your own skin and that gives you some confidence to extend yourself and reach for something that is more full and more true to the dream called your life you need to have to fulfill your purposeful destiny on planet earth. Literally. 

Lori on this website interprets dreams so if it is your waking dream or your sleeptime one she can help you interpret the symbology in a way that can help you help yourself.
 
KA has great astrology chart books a must have NOW. Use it as your personal reference with explanations to get you in better touch with yourself and of who you are becoming.  If you have your astrology book you can reference who you are in the planets I reference and it can help you to know what is being worked on in you and the color and flavor you carry so you can better embrace who you are. YES! please. 

Thanks for listening. Enjoy.  I count, You matter, Togther we make the difference! I bridge Heaven to Earth in practical useful ways. Peace Hi'ilani 

07/20/11
Hi'ilani here: 

WOW is all I can say life for me is moving at a pretty fast clip and it is taking all I have to keep up, keep breathing and do what I need to because I have asked for this level of function and aliveness for a long time. I did not expect to take so long to give some more details on what is currently moving through us but as I am in my own transformation some moments it is a lot. So hope this helps and here are some truths I have grasped that may help to guide you in your current breathings and processes impacting our world and our lives.
 
"Traditions need to grow and change if they are to be relevant and alive." a quote from the late Arthur Ash

At the core of what is transpiring currently in our lives on earth that quote is very appropriate. I mentioned in the empowerment now for Sovereign Beings section some big picture guidelines and the current poem in Ascension Support can very simply and easily help with what is happening right now to remove some of the excess emotional garble, numbness, paralysis, and overall fog.
 
The body is resisting quite a lot in some people and if you have very strong blame, shame and guilt and denial tendencies this could be a rough time if you don't open up and let the current transit influences help you to let go of the past and to open for a better future. We have been as a society pretty addicted to numbing ourselves out and to over consumption. If we just make the wrapper look good enough no one will notice and no one will have to realize perhaps what is underneath. For me the most important aspect of this is that you can trust the body to now shift this old boundary for you into the new one. Each and every day we have wonderful help that is guiding this process exactly. If you want to be right and hold one and fight for your limitations in life it is your right to do so. It is not ultimately what is scheduled now though so be careful if you are in this frame of mind. Just saying out loud, " I am open to allowing my life to move in positive and life affirming directions that are perfect and mine to live. I can trust my existence. Thanks be me,"  can help open you even if you are the most stubborn person on the planet. Please choose to help yourself in it. Thanks.

Here are some details to work with:
Today Jupiter moves in all of us. It was activating and making us aware of what to pay attention to and address in our self care habits and patterns that may have been taking years to address. Good examples are knowing you were being depleted by people, toxic environments, jobs, overresponsibility with no rewards, instability and a lack of vitality almost like quicksand and you could not shift it. This transit brought unbelievable detail about all kinds of things outside of you to help you get clear what to have in your life moving forward and what depletes and can be discarded. Mostly what is depleting is out of balance and will bring a more extreme version of life than you can currently live out. Simply pull your boundary in. Put less energy into  the parts of  your life that may be draining you. Put nourishing things, people, events, jobs, food in your moments and do it efficiently and with a narrow spectrum. This is not a time to overdo but to be clear about all the non negotiable items that must be included in our life and all the ones we can no longer live with. As KA says if it is time to let go. Let go  with love, tears and forgive yourself and all others for any misgivings that may be just too extreme and  too much for you to handle. Stand up and speak your truth so we can all find better boundaries and stop blaming and criticizing eachother in ways that take from life instead of giving to it. 

The mind:  I have never seen such a show as we are currently undergoing mentally. Though this has been coming for a long time we are living in a mental shift from lack of health, all of the ways we are not mentally healthy with our thoughts to mental health and a freedom to mentally think in ways that are out of the box and with an openness that allows for new creativity and some really detailed truth to be put in place. It is a wonderful time to just share all the unbelievable new discoveries that are coming into your life or leaving your life. Things you never thought possible can occur now. Sometimes these come in a stinging and not so fun way if you are not mentally healthy in an area, or are close minded and your words and actions don't match. These transits require a lot of rest so make sure you are sleeping enough as your dream time has a way of weaving new life into your mind. Use Lori's service to understand your dreams better right on this site.  Jupiter is the main player and is now joining the mix up in this mental reframing period of our lives. If you mentally are struggling ask Jupiter for help now. To me this transit is going to bring our left and right brain together and allow it to think in a greater capacity than ever before. If you feel like you have a puppet show in your head you kind of do so work with it. You may feel contraction in the left and right eye still and especially over the bridge in your nose. Massageing your skull and eye sockets are excellent. Laying down with your eyes closed are excellent. Whenever you close your eyes you shut down the brain so if things feel too much try to take some time quietly for a little rest. This transit will make you aware of truths and formulas you have not seen before in your own life and in the life of others around you. Imagine we have been living under a cloak of blame shame and guilt that affected us and could not give us a full view of what was happening no clarity in that kind of energy and vibration. Kind of like after a storm when the air is purified and cleaned we will grasp new pieces of information to help us calm and reduce our anxiety as we can have answers we have wondered about for a long time. Enjoy this information and freshly see how it changes your perspective about life, people, things and especially what kind of money you need to make to live your life and with whom and how.  As we approach 2012 we are learning what items must be included in our life to survive and feel good in this body of ours and what things we must let go of. With each realization and each reframing we are living more on purpose and can cooperate with others with similar vision, insight and clarity to start to work of some solutions for the current structures and systems that need to shift a little to provide what is needed in balance in our society. 

This week we are shifting our limitation in our body and embracing the new beginning started after the eclipse and through the 12th. A real freedom to our own independence of very old energies in our ancestral past that we are just able to clear finally in a whole way. Permanent is the word to use. This shift is possible because enough people did the work and did a lot of facing themselves when it was not popular and made sacrifices so all of us could receive this benefit now. So for goodness sakes get out of your own way, let go and receive with the left side of your body in deep vulnerablity what is gracing you and making way for a better, more clear and more whole perspective that is inclusive and vital and alive in ways that as Steph says," My Happiness."  Thank goodness

Neptune and Chiron are making us very moody and melancholic and sad to be in touch with a watery nature that is invisible but very much there. It is kind of like when you can see heat move in waves above say a barbecue that is very hot. We have invisible ocean waves brushing upon us. Think of yourself as a beach and some days the water waves are big and some small and flat. Biggest thing is let the waves brush upon your beach. DO not make a reason for them. THIS is mental information and not body and being information. The ocean waves are working with our mind to teach us a new way to perceive and to be aware of our emotions. You don't have conclusions or know why this is happening yet. So monitor the waves. See what tones make you happy and not. Play songs that sing to your soul and make you feel safe in your melancholy and deep wonderings and ponderings and yearnings for something more than we are currently living out.  Feel which waves feel too big and extreme and which ones do not. See what you can do to include the one's that feel comfortable and like home in your body. Eliminate the one's that are just too much, and too extreme and pay attention to the ways you are contributing to less than healthy mental environments and fix your impact and apologize or ask for advice on how maybe you can handle it better or how someone else view's it. Sharing our perception even though it is changing is the wise and wonderful thing to do right now. Reveal yourself and engage with others so you and they can show up differently. 

Saturn wants accountability and is focused and serious about repatterning our health and our practices to be healthy body, mind and spirit. Saturn is not negotiable so you will not win. Go with it. We are moving into adaption now so we can make some mistakes and learn from them to free old ways and habits that we felt inadequate and less than and not good enough to even practice being a human being. From now until the end of the month, Practice your humanness and really let yourself off the hook and others. No judgements just breath and go for life and being alive just as much as you can.

How at home are you in your body?  this is the question to ask. If this all seems like a lot it has been and now we have a lot of help to help us work it, step by step one simple moment at a time. Take little hand fulls and do what you can. Try to laugh and cry and laugh until you cry is the best way to cry. Music can bring tears too and make sure that heart of yours feels and lets go and changes and shifts and breaks open some more. It is an important organ and pumps all our nourishing blood so don't keep road blocks in there let them go now and open to a new way. 
You can and will get through this and let's move to more play and fun as we transform and move forward. Giggle as much as you can. Thanks for listening. Peace and big hug,   Hi'ilani
I count, YOU matter, Together we make the difference.