Today be kind to yourself, all is well and everything happens for a reason, find gratitude
in yourself for self and let that be your candle.....Blessings and love
Wow it is so true about being gentle and kind to yourself, you know all that chatter in your head that incessant review of a situation, "could I have done something different", the replay goes on and on......let it go......one way or another find what works for you and drop the self talk that is ever so questioning about your motives, choices or intent!
You are a perfect person in every situation, everything happens for a reason and you are a good person......You see I had some old hurts that I kept buried from my past as a child, then on top of that I had a problem with my daughter and my grand daughter was involved, I acted on it as would some and I then became estranged for 4 yrs from them......now the first 1.5yrs I tore myself apart going over and over in my mind what could I of done different, was I wrong? On and on every moment I wasn't busy with something to occupy my mind. The short of it I was physically killing myself with worry and fear, pain and anguish.....not pretty, it would take another 3 yrs before we found out how bad it was, I knew I was sick just did not know how bad.
Listen to your friends and your dreams, I had a friend drive 5 hours to tell me of a dream she had of me, all dreams have a three fold message, 1. is to represent your own life on a personal level 2. a spiritual level 3. current reality
The dream she had was, I had called her and I said I didn't have much time, it was something they missed. I assured her I would go to the doctor as soon as I had insurance. A year later my mother who passed 9 yrs ago came to me in a dream, she was standing with my spirit self next to my body on a morgue table.....she said it is something they missed you are being eaten up with cancer all over your body....Now I jumped into my body and got off of the morgue table looked at my mom and said " I know what this means and no I will not die and kill myself over this." That is when I finally let go of my estrangement with daughter, I knew you each have a path to embark on and we are not always meant to be part of it.....I moved on with my life as best I could.....my sickness was getting worse and slowing me down everyday a bit more, finally right before this last Christmas we recieved confirmation on insurance coming in Janurary, oh yes, I needed to see the doctor as soon as possible.
The short of this is, oh I stopped the cancer, but I lost 16" of my colon and then the rest of my colon was still to weak to put me back together, I woke up from surgery with a colostomy bag. Now I knew before I went under that there was a 10% chance of coming out of surgery with it. More on the colostomy bag tomorrow. Blessings and Love
PS there are so many good authors out there to help you find your way into a loving gentle person, a person who understands that life is our mirror and we create what we think. Sometimes you need a few friends to turn to or a book maybe even a life coach to help you through those tough, tough lessons.......I can always help with those dreams........<3