female, 27, Brooklyn, New York
question: I think I am losing my mind. I can't focus because every where I look, things are falling apart. I am so afraid for the Earth and our ability to think we can stay around here. I have a job and I have money, but I am not happy and I need you to tell me something, anything that makes me think living is an okay thing. I hope this is not too much of a question to ask. Thank you ahead of time!
KA here:I love your question! And I would say you are on the pulse of the entire nation with your feelings and question. So many people out there are feeling the exact same way that you are. Not everyone, though. Some know that this is exactly where things need to be to bring about change. And I hope that by the end of this writing I give you, you will be one of the few who knows this is all apart of the plan. Okay, so you are NOT losing your mind. Don't go to a doctor that just wants to put you on meds. The meds will only keep you under mind control. They will numb you so you are out of touch with what is really going on in the moment. We all need to ween ourselves of the pharmaceuticals at this time because they are only doing us more harm. It is imperative that all means of escape are let go bit by bit in our lives. They keep us dumb, numb and unaware of what has been going on for decades. In order to wake up and truly come together and make a stand on all this chaos that you see, and has you feeling like you are losing your mind, we must be present and here and ultra sensitive to the messages and signs we are receiving. They are showing up for each and every one of us every day. And if you are drunk all the time because you can't face the truth, then your vote doesn't count. You won't be standing up for change because you will be off escaping in a bottle of gin. Have a drink of celebration after a great move, but not as a means to escape from all the pain that you can not bear to look at. We need you here and present for the this great battle that is before us. So one reason you are feeling so desperate is because there is so much information out there sharing the stories. These stories have been out there for decades but before there was total control over what hit the newspapers and TV stations. Now we have the free speech of the internet and all the stories are coming to the surface. Before we couldn't know about global warming unless "they" let us know. Before we couldn't know about the 600 dead penguins that just came in on the beaches in Uruguay (as of June 8, 2011). Before we couldn't find out about all the dead sea life that is coming in on the beaches in LA and MS (check out our section here called 'The TRUTH of the BP Oil Spill'). Before, that information was kept hidden, but now it is blasting us from all sides. And while, yes, it needs to come out and to our attention; it can also be a bit of a load to take in. I always get emals from people who say how hard it is to look at the BP Oil spill pictures that are on this website. And I don't feel that way at all. But maybe that is why I have chosen to be someone who takes this all in and shares it with others. So when it becomes too much, take a break. But do be open to listening because we can't all turn a deaf ear. Now why is all this happening? Why are there tornadoes and fires and flooding and earthquakes and volcanoes exploding everywhere? Quite simply, Mama Earth is finally speaking up. Mama Earth is finally standing up and saying, ENOUGH OF THE ABUSE! ENOUGH OF TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME AND MY CREATIONS! We have been warned for years that this would happen if things did not change. If we could not change our ways and be completely honoring of the Earth and its inhabitants, then we would lose our privileges. Here we go. We are all getting sent to the principles office for acting up. We have poisoned her waters with our litter and oil and corexit. We have poisoned her skin with all the pesticides and fertilizers and things like Roundup we put on our lawns to make them pretty, pretty, which we now know causes birth defects. And all for the purpose of impressing others with our fancy, gorgeous lawns. We have polluted and violated every single thing on Earth. We have exploited and abused her children. We have tortured her animals and treat them with no respect. She is pissed and she has every right to be, huh? Now true that a lot of these abuses seem most out of our control. We can't control the Oil rigs or the Nuclear plants or the feed lots. But we have been in control of our own actions. We support the feed lots by eating at places like McDonald's. We support child exploitation in other countries by buying things at Wal-Mart. We support the poisoning of the land by using Roundup. In our own small ways we are all raping the Earth. And we have been warned that we needed to change, but the problem with humans and their egos and their desire to not make changes is that until the shit hits the fan, they don't budge. It takes major catastrophes to make them change their willful ways. But the warnings have been out there. This is not like we are all being fired without first receiving warnings. We have all been written up over and over and now she says, the buck stops here. So all these Earth changes seem so scary and like the end is near but you have to understand that this is just the balancing of what has been so out of balance for so long. It is like when you have held something in and not been honest with someone about it and then you just explode because you held it in for so long. And always it does create a release and hopefully a better relationship with feelings being shared. All these Earth changes are going to feel awful as they happen but there is so much beauty at the core, believe it or not, within each and every one of them. One of the main purposes is to open us to community! People sure do open their hearts and homes when these sort of catastrophes happen. I loved the story of the people from New Orleans going up to Joplin, MO to offer support and goods. People are so separated in this world and it is imperative that we come together as brothers and sisters to be of aid to anyone in pain and discomfort. That is one of the purposes of these Earth changes. Another is for the right action to come about from the destruction of the wrong action. Fukushima awakens us to the dangers of Nuclear activity, although in smaller units it is not such a bad thing. But we, our unborn children, the sea creatures and birds and animals will pay the price for this lesson. It is very unfortunate. But how else would we have learned? Had the BP Oil Spill not occurred we wouldn't be thinking along the lines of lessening our dependency on oil. We wouldn't be changing our old habits of driving big huge powerful SUV's and thinking along the lines of how to use our vehicles less. Trust me that Mama Earth WISHES we could learn our lessons in a milder manner, but we have proven that we will not change until things get ugly. We still find it more important to have a shiny clean car and keep those lawns evergreen green, so next we will lose our water and we will have to ration ridiculously in order to be more honoring of our sacred water, giver of life. Fracking is another issue going on that is destroying our water sources and you are urged to stand up and voice your disapproval before it is all destroyed. There is a fire in Arizona right now that is the size of Phoenix and the largest fire in the states history. Mother Earth is pissed! But even the fire is doing a cleansing. Sage is always used to cleanse and purify areas. She is attempting to cleanse the area of the U.S. from Arizona to the East in the hopes that we can just make changes now before it gets even worse. We are still getting warnings. These aren't the big wig moves yet! She will separate the Earth and take millions of lives in one big swoop if we do not make changes now. All of these Earth Changes we are seeing are insignificant in comparison to what is on the way, IF we still do not heed her warnings. So what can we do? We can learn to love one another. We can learn to not fight each other so much.We can learn to bridge the separation that is in everything; the whole us guys against you guys. We can educate ourselves on how to recycle, to use less, to need less, to honor more of what we do have, to respect Mama Earth for all the amazing bounty she provides for us. We can make educated choices on what we will support and buy and bring into our household. We can ask more questions. We can flip the item over to see where it was made. Made in China. Well, that pretty much means human exploitation. Don't buy it. By not buying it, you are not supporting human exploitation and you are changing things. And no matter what happens, know that this is absolutely a part of the higher plan. There are still avenues for change. The balancing act can be less than or more than. But the balancing will occur. And each and every one of you can be counted and can absolutely make a difference. Don't worry about trying to change others in this game we are in. Worry about yourself. Focus on YOU doing the right thing. When you do the right thing, your energy changes and others feel it. They will want what you have and when they come to you to ask what are you doing so different, you can then share. It is essential that you do not buy into the fear at this time as your emotions are the driver of your car of life. You have to TRUST that all will work out in the end and you need to find that voice deep within that says relax, it is all going to be okay. You have to use the power of your intention to always be seeing the best in things. You always have to trust and see that there is a higher behind the scenes action going on. Think about pruning and how if you didn't know what was going on you could be like, what are you doing, you are cutting it all off, it will die now! We are having a major pruning session going on in the world and even with all the animals leaving, they are leaving in peace as they chose this assignment to sacrifice their lives to teach us, the humans, to live ours in a better more honoring way. So what are you going to do about all this change? Are you going to see it for what it really is and make changes in your own life that always put the Earth first? And that too I guarantee you, if you put the Earth first and if you walk with integrity on your skin, then things will always come to protect you and keep you in an abundant state, even when things seem to be collapsing all around for others. You will be protected and provided for. If you care, you are on the right path. Now go out there and research some changes you can do yourself individually so Mama will stop her bitching! Here is an article I wrote that I want you to read: How to get back into feeling hopeful, when the fear has overtaken you, because it will, over and over and over again. You need to learn the tools to bring yourself back to feeling safe.And keep checking back here because we all will be sharing oh so much more on tips to help you be more honoring of the Earth so we all can do our part to prevent massive destruction. Good luck girl. You are asking so the answer and way will be provided. ❤ KA Vanzowww.aquariusnation.com
question: I have this friend/creative partner (birth data provided) and wonder if we should go beyond this special year long friendship or leave it the way it is. I am TOTALLY happy as just friends, but just wondering if you can provide some insight into our charts?
k.a. here:
oooh girl. This is one heck of a serious karmic relationship you have found here. And you two are so connected I can not help but feel like you two have been together in several past lives with many different forms of relationships. You two are almost twins there are so many similarities and I understand why you are questioning if you should take it to a romantic level or just cherish the special thing you got. I see this often recently, for some reason, and the question always comes with this calm feeling that you can go either way, like you would be perfectly okay with just staying friends but wonder if you should take it to another level being that there are so many familiarities with each other. The thing I see often too is that you are not in a desperate state of thinking you do need to plunge into romantic relationship just because there is a connection. I love that. I think so often that is how we were raised or that is like the normal inclination of human beings. The desperateness of wanting a partner and not being okay alone has so many human beings constantly on the alert for a mate. Everyone they come into contact with, they say, is this the one? And the moment they find out that the person is single they go for it and begin the conquest. And I understand why you question this because so similar is great but differences are exciting and stimulating and challenge us to grow and change and expand our normal way of being and thinking. I believe that similar is what great friendships and creative partnerships are truly based on. I believe that different is what keeps romantic relationships burning and alive and sustaining themselves over the years. I've heard so many times of relationships coming together where they had everything in common and it gets boring and what breaks the relationship is one of the partners leaving the couple for someone that is totally different and unexpected. I think our minds are so about growth and expansion and with this love of learning things that we do not know about and for a romantic relationship to go long term you just need those elements. I think you can go either way because you know looking at your past history of love relationships that the "oh my god I am so in love with this one" faded with each one and sometimes even ended in disgust. And I think when you look back at all the friendships you have where you did have everything in common and were so much alike that they still are in your life. I hear where you are coming from and I encourage you to cherish the friendship that you have and keep a part of you open for something romantic to happen but don't push it one single inch and do not go dream fairy tale land in your mind about this becoming sexual and romantic. Just send it out as a question to the universe and watch how your body responds, over time. I believe if it is meant to be a romantic relationship after this much time as a friendship you would know without a shadow of a doubt. I believe if you are questioning, it is because it is your higher self speaking from a future knowing, saying don't fuck up whatcha got. Because once you delve into the deep well of a sexual romantic relationship it is nearly impossible to get back what you had when it was an innocent bonded friendship. And personally I've had this same thing happen recently and I questioned if we should take some plunge because we had so much in common and were both single and letting it unfold overtime and with no feelings of desperately needing another person opened me to choosing the option of not going there and keeping this really cool male friend in my life. And with even more time passing as in now, I don't have any romantic feelings anymore. It turned out to be fleeting and I am so glad I didn't mess up what we have for what would probably only have been some amazing sex.
And looking at your chart with the transits of the now... you are in such a fertile activated creative career focused place! I know you said this was a creative partner too and I believe you have the ability to make enormous leaps in your career arena, with him. You have Uranus sitting on your 10th house cusp and you are doing something really different and they will see that about you. And with Jupiter in the same house giving you all this expansion and luck and it is your Jupiter return so you are on fire my dear! This is to be an amazing year(s) for you and there will be so many opportunities coming your way and I'll guarantee that you have no idea what surprises may be on the way. I say expect the unexpected, but visualize it always being beyond your wildest giddiest dreams! This is a time for you to exhale out into the world with what special brilliance you are to bring. I can feel that you know that and were just looking for confirmation and I am here giving it to you as 100% positive that your gifts are brilliant and are ready to be seen by the world. And as for romantic love, let that come in it's own natural time. But give great thanks for having such an awesome friendship/career partner because those are hard to find and are what make life and living so precious and valuable.
question: Is the timing right to make a shift right now and take this opportunity to become an entrepreneur and stop repeating the pattern of a "good paying" but miserable job!!!
question: Is the timing right to make a shift right now and take this opportunity to become an entrepreneur and stop repeating the pattern of a "good paying" but miserable job!!!
k.a. here:
Well. This question is a little more weird for me to answer because 99 out of 100 times if someone asks me if they should venture out and do what their soul tells them to do instead of getting a job and working for someone else, I am always going to say YES! go for it. I just really believe we can all be doing what we love and I also know that when we are really ready and really believe in ourselves then the energy will flow to the people or the opportunities will come that will make our dreams a reality. But at the same time I honor the fact that there is this thing called timing and sometimes we still have to go out and work for someone else because there are still skills we need to acquire or people we need to meet or who knows why. I know I have dreamed this dream for over 12 years and I have wanted to make a living at it this whole time but a job working for someone else still always pulled me in and in hindsight I do see that I still wasn't ready to give it my all and to truly believe in myself until right now. Only now in my life am I ready to commit to being an entrepreneur and am I ready to commit to honoring the process and getting out of my way to let the higher power lead the way. So I ultimately say, wait for the signs to show you the way. Proceed in the direction of becoming your own boss but still watch the signs and feel what your body tells you. If an opportunity to once again work for someone comes along in your path and your body actually feels like it says YES then follow that lead. And I say that only because doing your own thing takes big balls and a lot of faith in your ability to create. And one day you will be up and filled with faith that you can do this and then the next you will fall into fear and think you are crazy to think you can make a living following your dreams. I believe this is part of the test to see if you really do want to do it all on your own. If you have the funds to support yourself while this dream of yours gets out there and if you can honestly follow the signs that come your way and not push away an opportunity that may say its just not time yet, then you are right on track and should absolutely go towards doing your own thing. Now if you do end up working "for the man" again it may be a job that is the antithesis of what you are used to in order to renew your faith in the big money maker jobs and it may be a job where you meet that someone special. So if an opportunity comes and it feels right don't turn it down just because you think it is time to do your own thing. If it is in fact time for you to do your own thing then the Universe will block you from doing anything else! You can apply to all the jobs out there but for some reason like your resume will always get tossed or will not be seen or will disappear out of the blue because it is time for you to bring this other expression to existence. See. Its really pretty easy. You will know what to do.
But now looking at your chart. Since 2006 you have been going through such psychological turmoil and transformation. Not everyone has Pluto moving through their 12th house because in our lifetimes it will only move through maybe 6 houses but you have it there now and it will be there until March of 2016. So the heaviest hitting planet is in your most hidden house. So deep within is where you are experiencing massive transformation. Now dont get all down about this because there are no mistakes you know and this is part of your path and when it crosses your ascendant and gets in that house a little ways it can really catapult you in the world and when that does happen you will also be having Saturn in the best possible place in the chart as it crosses your midheaven in October of 2013. Things will change so dramatically from what you have known them to be in a few years from now. And let me tell you I can see that you have not had it easy but you have got to know that it is all for a specific reason and you are amazing and you will see one day that it really was all worth it. But damn I know you are ready and I know you have had enough but its just not over just yet. Its like those hikers in Iran. 2 years they have been locked up and not even guilty of anything and they cant do anything about it and they must totally be losing their minds. And that is probably a little like how you feel but I use it to give you any example to be thankful for what you DO have. And I need you to do your inner work! Spend as much time as you can looking within right now. Also Pluto is sitting on your 12th house Venus at this very time so I know you dont let people in that easily and may shy away from letting someone love you but that all has to transform now. You deserve love more than anyone else out there! And you need to make the space in your life for that person to find you. You need to look back and within to find what it is that makes you think you dont need love or can do it all on your own. Once again this is a psychological transit and you will be looking deep within to excavate for some dark and hidden answers. Major healing is gonna be going on. But you have to trust me that all this infuriating work that you'd rather just sweep under the rug and forget about has got to make its way to the light in order for you to be able to collect and walk this life that will be yours in about 4 years. It will look NOTHING like it does now and be excited and thrilled for that! You chose it to be just like it is. Your soul knows what you need best and this is the path that you needed to take to get that pot of gold that comes soon. You are a late bloomer, but by golly you WILL bloom brightly and if you do this work I tell you about then when Saturn hits your 10th house, which is where your birth Saturn sits also, then all your dreams become reality then. And that Saturn in your birth chart already declared that you are to do big things in this lifetime but that you have to collect many experiences to be able to hold such a position. So you should know this in the core of your being that to wait and to work for what really fits you would be a long journey. And you are closer than you've ever been! And with each passing day and year and inner accomplishment you get closer until finally you are THERE and you will look back and be THANKFUL for all the potholes, bumps, delays, crashes and triumphs because they gave you the depth that not many out there will even be close to understanding.
I have to stop somewhere but your chart and the transits say so much I could sit here and write for 8 hours. But let me finish with some things: writing should be a daily act for you. You have so much to share and your healing work could revolve around that avenue. You are just so close to a lot of changes and magical things happening. DONT GIVE UP. Keep it going and keep it going with trust and optimism in your heart. You have a very strong mind yet everywhere else in your body you are very open to others energies. Be vary aware to listening to your body around the company of others. If you don't feel good around someone, get away from them! Cut them out of your life because they will be like cancer to you. I'm dead serious here. Your body is so sensitive and only follow the love and good feeling and healthy, stable people. The same with animals. Keep the ones near who make you feel loving and healthy.
Okay. So go out there and do your own thing but listen if your body still wants you to detour a little while longer in "work for someone else land". There will be a very good reason if it is not time yet. But in 4 years oh heck yeah! You will be doing your own thing for sure by then and you life will feel more like home than it ever has! And it will be all worth the wait and hard work. I promise you
question: i am feeling like the time is getting close to launch this project i came up with a few years back. does it show up in my chart when the right time is?
question: I am feeling like the time is getting close to launch this project I came up with a few years back. Does it show up in my chart when the right time is?
answer: um wow. you found me at just the right time and oh hell yeah is it ever the time for you to bring this writing project, i assume, to birth. you have all these aries planets lined up in your third house right now and actually on may 11, when i launch my website is when you too should make it known what you are working on. and starting on may 11 the planet uranus will be trining your 11th house and there will be a jupiter, mercury, mars and venus conjunction on that day that will be exactly opposing your 10th house of career and moving into your 4th house, and that big conjunction will also be in a grand trine with the moon and the north node. everyone who has something to start should start on that very day if they want to do things in a really big way. this thing that you are working on you started several years back and you believe it will be somehow grounding to people and will affect large numbers of people. and so you know, you are definitely one of aquarius nation and i am sure your writing project is very ahead of the times, yet right on schedule for the people to really be able to hear what you are writing about. you also are going through your jupiter return which happens every 12 years and is truly like your guardian angel is right there with you and asking 'what do you want to expand on in your life?' and you just need to be clear of what that picture is that you want to manifest as your life. now since this feels all about career to me i would suggest that you put a huge piece of paper on the wall where you see it all the time and write up some expressions of how your career will look and what you life will look like when you are living this career you are creating. draw the infinity sign in the middle, which is a side ways 8, and go over it again and again as you visualize how you want this to take off. if this is a book, you could see mass loads of people reading your book with smiles on their faces with their hearts lit up and glowing. you could see them taking the book and pressing it to their hearts. and every time you look at this thing on the wall keep holding that vision. also write on there somewhere 'how can i serve?' because this truly is a serving lifetime for us all and that is the question we need to ask with all of our creations.
now i am going to give you some key phrases that will mean a lot for you and they are related to how people see you and what your career manifestation will look like:
career:
imagination and visions will bring dramatic results
you will connect with the public from what you have received from your dreams and visions
innovative and progressive relationship with the public
being a free spirit and embracing individuality, eccentricity
how people see you:
the public sees you as eccentric or a rebel
you are seen as trusting and very naturally sharing of your personal talents
you will have a high profile image and have unusual beauty
you will have enthusiastic and optimistic thoughts and ideas that you just have to share with others.
my key points to you is that you are not like the mainstream, you have an abundant amount of information to share, you will share it in a unique manner and it is your main focus in life to do just that. i am sure you know this is your destiny and nothing will stop you since so much of your energy is focused and directed fully into this expression of yours.
this will be a really exciting time in your life and please send me a copy of your whatever you are writing about!
question: will i EVER have a healthy romantic relationship?
question: will i EVER have a healthy romantic relationship?
YES you will. But you are years away from finding each other because you are in a deeply transformative time in your life. You will be going through profound change in the years to come and who sits there now is not going to be even close to who are you in 5+ years down the road. This time right now is all about YOU and getting clear on who YOU really are and not who your parents and whomever in your childhood has told you who you are. You have a deep seated belief that you have no right to exist and there are things that were kept hidden that can no longer stay buried within you. You may be experiencing anger and outbursts, and total fucking fed up with things feelings and they are just indicators of your inner child speaking up and saying "listen to me i matter!!" this child of about 8 is so pissed that she has had to guard your heart to keep from being hurt any longer and it does need to come to an end. there is no reason you should keep your true essence, your true light, the truly loving being hidden from the world anymore. and think about how if she is guarding your heart so tightly, how can anyone get the message that your are available? its like you are sitting at a job interview and someone comes in and asks who wants a job and you are just sitting there in silence, even though you did show up wanting a job. your heart truly isnt available yet to accept love. but that is okay! there is nothing wrong with you and this is your earth walk path. we all have to heal these fragmented pieces so we can truly reflect what is inside of us. i too know what you are going though and it has been a journey to be able to let somebody love me. but it begins ONLY with you loving yourself first. otherwise you will NEVER have a healthy romantic relationship with someone. NEVER. that will be you looking outside of yourself to feel love and it just does not work that way. thank god. what an empty and non-authentic world we would have if that was the way we got love, from our co-dependence of them loving us first. now i can feel you worried about time, but please let that go, we are wine, and we only get better with age. do not waste your time feeling like a loser as you look out at all the people in partnership. do not compare yourself to others because that is the quickest way to misery, that is the car pool lane, in fact...it will get you there even faster.
Now this time you in is like schooling and you need to trust the lengthy process of it. This is the time that you need help from others though. I recommend psychotherapy, hypnotherapy and most but maybe later a shamanic soul retrieval. there are all these parts of you that are scattered about and it takes so much energy to not be, all here. and you arent all here. all those parts of you that could not understand what was happening to you have left your body and will need to find their way back, at the perfect time. and when the time is right, wow, you will feel so light and so free and so at ease to really be who you are supposed to be. i also at this time ask you to start journal writing with the habit of whipping out whatever wants to come out of you, with no judge at all, first thing in the morning. if you feel worthless and that life is not valuable then write that. first thing, start that habit. dont make it grammatically correct. dont worry about the right words because this is for your eyes only. also put affirmations ALL over your house. on the mirror in your bathroom put "I love you and i accept who you are now". before you go to bed say, i love myself therefor i attract loving relationships. say goodnight to your future partner and be excited to see him/her in the morning. make a list of all the qualities your future partner will possess and keep it on the wall to see all the time. your chart is all about fun and love and carefree and balance and peace maker and healer but you have to heal yourself and these horrible wounds and things that you had no control over in order to truly walk the magnificent you. they are buried deep and you may not even be able to see them yet. but they are there and they are holding you back from the true happiness that is your total birth right. it may feel daunting but just know when the time is right, its actually pretty easy to heal and let go of the hold our wounds have on us. sometimes it can just be crying for the child that was you at a certain time in your life and then, it is gone. its like, she just wanted to be heard.
now your career is really important to you and when you are feeling fed from this other things will fall more magically into your life. you have neptune sitting right on your midheaven in the fist degree of pisces which is soooo loving! you will find yourself if your arent there yet moving into a career that is something to do with social work. you will play a big role in helping the disadvantaged because it is what you are here to do and THAT alone will help in your healing process massively. there is just something about helping others that always ends up helping ourselves to, usually in subtle and unknowing ways. and actually your part of fortune which is like the bullseye for what our gifts are and the direction we should take is exactly at that point also. this means your career is very important, to you and to the world. maybe if you focus more attention there and not on your "lacking" love life then the love life will just come together naturally. but do hear me that it is not time for the partner just yet. it is time for YOU to date yourself first. just like i say, you need to know how to pleasure yourself through masturbation before you can allow someone else to bring you to great heights.
you are right on time my dear. you havent missed the boat. you arent late. nothing is passing you by. there are still so many miracles and wonder that will be coming into your life. we all have different timings for things and when the water has boiled you will hear the whistle and you will know. much love to you.
question: i work hard, but i dont feel it is hard enough. i see my full potential, but i feel it is not always reached. i am climbing up, but i feel that i am moving too slow. i am 99% optimistic, but that 1% can bring me down. how do i change this perspective?
question: i work hard, but i dont feel it is hard enough. i see my full potential, but i feel it is not always reached. i am climbing up, but i feel that i am moving too slow. i am 99% optimistic, but that 1% can bring me down. how do i change this perspective?
wow. 99% is pretty dang outstanding. but i hear you. okay first off, and there is a lot to say, you are going through your saturn return and you are basically in college knowing you can do it all but you cant do anything until you walk the journey, get your certification and then you can take off. you are essentially right at the starting gate and it will be opening once saturn gives you these last lessons to make sure you are really ready for what is on the way. by the beginning of september 2011 you will feel that 1% dissipate. and most people tend to have saturn return lingering for years in their lives but since saturn is in your "midas touch" arena things will be a little different for you. you can pretty much have anything you want right now. and especially once saturn slides into your 11th house which it will in september, your wishes truly will have full reign for manifestation. you can have anything your heart desires! and you have such a beautiful chart, my gosh! if i could dream up a perfect chart/manifestation of life experience i would love to have yours! feel that and know that in the core of your being. this will be a very fortunate and blessed life for you this time around. be very grateful.
okay. because capricorn is intercepted in your house of money you must obey the laws of the capricorn to achieve in this lifetime. the capricorn goes step by step by step making sure there is secure footing before going up again. you are doing this and it will be your lifetime expression. you must learn patience and trust the process when it seems too slow for you liking. if you deny the slow and decide to plunge forward and jump up several steps at once you risk falling and going back even further than when you were on solid ground. when ever you want to push to make things happen and when ever you judge that you arent moving quick enough for your minds liking, imagine a baked potato and if you take that out too soon it suuuccks. but if you wait for the proper amount of time then it is mmmmm yummy. also when it feels like things arent moving quick enough you need to take that as a cue to sit down and examine all the things you did not have in your life say last year versus now. and go back further in time and see how all the elements came into your life at always the perfect timing.
now you have an undefined emotional center and what that means is that you are always taking on the emotions of the people around you and amplifying them! so if you are not feeling good about yourself all you have to do is change your company! and also understand that by being so emotionally vulnerable and sensitive you have to give yourself a break. dont take on the worlds problems. you are a sponge galore and just know you can follow that rule every time. get away from who is bringing you down and get in the company of someone who knows how awesome you are because you are, my gosh! you have beauty all over your chart. you have optimism all over your chart. you have true depth and the ability to penetrate to the core of all things. you are not like anyone else out there and what you choose to do will be done with a flair that will set you apart from the masses. always. you have this beautiful imagination and creativity that SETS YOU APART. you will do big things in the public eye and you will be remembered for your group efforts and your beauty. this is the chart of gifts granted from past life efforts. be thankful and stop judging yourself so harshly because no body else is judging you as harshly as you do and if you really knew all you have done in past lives, and worked so hard to have an expression such as this one this time around, if you really knew, you would just sit around in bliss, with a permanent smile and be thankful every single breath of your life now.
and when the going feels tough it is only because the timing is not right and you are overlooking something else that needs your attention. this lifetime you have your own personal genie sitting there waiting for you to command it. think consciously in your creations. know you can have ANYTHING but you have to create it on your own. things wont be handed to you without you stating what you want.
dates to take note of: you are in the blessed midas touch period that comes to us every 28 years, at different times depending on your chart. (mine personally starts on 11.11.11). yours ends in 2014 when you will go into a new inward cycle working on your next creation that will have full expression around age 52. over the next 7 years you can expect many opportunities that come out of the blue and will be coming from other people. keep your eyes and heart open.
your true highest potential WILL be reached. no worries ever.
question: am i going to have a traditional family and what can you tell me about health and work?
question: am i going to have a traditional family and what can you tell me about health and work?
traditional family?! absolutely not. but who wants to be traditional anyway? look around you at this tattoo, pierced, notice me as different than all the rest, nation. and you my dear can lead the way. with a moon and uranus conjunct in your 8th house AND in aquarius. girl you will be everything BUT traditional. so with your emotional nature in close proximity to the planet uranus you will be ahead of the times in the way your emotional system works. you will need a lot of space and will grant that to your lover and you will only couple with someone when there is a really deep connection. you may in your youth be privy to one night stands and frivolous sex-capades but with the aging process you will get very serious about who you share your vagina with. trust me that every one should follow in your footsteps. now in the sky right now the planet saturn is sitting right on top of your moon sign and that will be VERY sobering. you may feel kind of lonely and are looking back in time and wondering if you have made mistakes or if you have missed the boat and will be alone forever. i can tell you that no, you wont, and yes, you will find somebody to share your life with, but that it will be a unique bonding and i have to share with you that i have noticed a huge trend with people and i am hearing that they FINALLY meet that partner who truly complements them and it comes together effortlessly and it flows harmoniously, but that they dont find each other until they are like 46 or 55 or 62. it is later in life. and not one of them looks back at their past and sees anything as lack. the decade they spent alone, or the 3 divorces, or all the "failed" relationships before are just memories of growth and not marks of mistakes. that is what is really beautiful about life, that things in our past once we have truly moved through them do not have emotional holds on us. we can look back at times of total strife and chaos where we had no clue how we could ever forget and move on and then give it a year or 2 or 5 and it means nothing to us. it feels nothing to us. so i see it happening later for you, but it could be a mere year away. this time now is for you to get very clear on what you really want in a partnership and dont be surprised that if you dont have children, which that is another huge trend i am seeing, but dont be surprised if you find a partner who does have children and you get the best of both worlds. but especially spending time in the northern california i would meet so many people who werent having children until their 40s when they could really put their full efforts into creating and nurturing a child in the highest vibrating and most unselfish way.
now as for health you are someone that absolutely is 100% in charge of your health through your thoughts. do make an effort to protect your breasts though and a daily exercise you should do is using your fingertips to do small circular massage firmly around the entire area of each breast. just go, circle circle circle several times in a few inch area and continue and move around each breast, while telling them how sexy they are and showing your love. now your work could even be linked with sharing and showing that you can be in control of your health through your thoughts. you are someone that loves to work and your life will not flow the way you want it to until you are secure in your career. and you are at the beginning of your uranus opposition which is the main time when women decide to divorce and when men and women change careers. this could be a huge time of really examining what service you want to do for the world. and through the powerful magic of your thoughts you can sculpt that now. i see it being something nurturing, a service, something that takes investigating or work done behind the scenes, possibly done from home, definitely a creative field and possible the intertwining of 2 different things. and know that in ALL areas you will be a late bloomer. but better to bloom late with the maturity and growth to be able to truly hold and honor that bloom that will be you. i had this african violet once that i gave to friend on one of my moves but it would show no growth while the others in the house were in full bloom and i would look and look and wonder what was wrong with it and then after the others had faded it would finally bloom and it made me think that we only have this moment now and if something comes later that is more of a blessing! just like an orgasm! you dont want that coming fast do you? you want a build up and you want to wait because it is ALWAYS better when we have to wait for it. you will know patience in this lifetime and you will see that it is always to your advantage to wait, but to EXPECT the very best because the very best is what is waiting for you. if it doesnt come easily to you it is just not something that is good enough yet...
clues from your chart: your partner will be a friend first, they will be either older (most likely) or younger than you and communication will be huge part of your relationship and you very possibly will meet this person through your work. look for that person you meet where laughing and sharing and even debating things is effortless. look for that person who probably surprises you but that they stay on your mind when they are not around.
dates to take note: this saturn transit will leave and you will shift into a new space about mid august 2011. feel fully what it feels like to feel lonely and love that feeling. examine your relationship that your own mother had with your father and see it for how you would do it differently. because of pluto squaring your sun you are in a several year time of deep, deep transformational growth. see where that takes you but dont judge anything that comes up and out of you as good or bad. just follow what FEELS good and know that is what is guiding your way.
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