It's good that you have been keeping quiet and keeping to yourself because had you spoken up and bared it all when you were most inclined to do so, like immediately and with little forethought, you wouldn't have this new clarity and vision into the situation.  It is like that thing that I am always trying to get a grip on, which is, waiting and reflecting on the situation, instead of reacting to the situation.  I am very guilty of reacting to the stimuli of the moment and then later regretting my impulsiveness, especially since over time I tend to always see it in a different light.  You should be learning that gift now, to wait and to ride the wave to see how you feel overtime.  In hindsight we rarely have the same feelings as we did in the moment.  And you are extremely gifted in seeing all the sides of every situation, so calmness with whatever has been coming up in your life will be the direction for you to follow.  Sit with it, meditate with it, feel the sides of all involved, allow time to pass, and only then make a decision and speak your mind. 

You will also finally gain some insight into a relationship after a particular button is pushed, or fight is ignited during the beginning of the month.  The whole rose colored glasses thing will come to an end this month.  So often in relationships when we are in them we think the other person is our everything and we feel it is destiny and that nothing will ever break it apart.  True that, we know where the whole "honey moon phase"  concept comes from.  It is bliss at first, the whole getting to know a new person and the feelings of excitement and total infatuation.  But overtime, more often than not, the flame burns out and a total reversal of feelings takes place.  I have always been amazed at how someone can be so in love one moment and the next year or whenever, not be able to even speak or look at the other person.  A disconnect takes place and depending on the emotional maturity of the one who chooses to disconnect, a total separation without explanation most likely takes place.  If there was emotional maturity the person disconnecting would want to separate with total communication and understanding and make a clean break.  But not many are at that level so when they get fearful or doubtful of the relationship, then tend to just run and avoid all contact or communication, which ultimately leads the other person to staying connected because they are still waiting for some understanding.  Had the one wanting to leave just been clear and layed it all out about why they didn't want to partake anymore, then the person receiving this info would be more likely to accept and move on and not be wasting their life saying "but why??"  Unfortunately this rarely happens.  Which is why so many people have this never ending relationship karma.  When you treat someone like that, you either get it back or continue to have the same relationships over and over, never finding the one that lasts more than a month or year or so.  Solid relationships are only sustainable when the people are totally honest and value themselves as much as they value the one they are in partnership with. 

So expect some insight this month which will be like a tipping point where before you were still holding on and boggled in your brain with trying to come to an understanding of the situation and then just like that, you will move into a new space of DONE WITH IT.  You will see that it is over and you will feel totally okay with moving on and looking at it as an experience to learn from, instead of an experience to feel sadness and regret about.   It is all good.  If he/she doesn't want you, then get rid of it to make room for someone who does.   Now I am also leaving this open to be not necessarily a romantic partner but maybe a friend of even a relative.  If someone does not completely value you and honor you and see that they are lucky to have you in their life, then just let them go and if and when they do change their ways then you can choose to let them back in at a later time.  For now, only allow the ones who make you feel awesome into your life and space. 

Now this process of healing and going within will really be accentuated the beginning of the month and it will continue until July of 2012.  Look at it like you are taking a new class and you will graduate in July and will be feeling super empowered at all that you have learned and mastered about yourself and what you really want in life to be happy and vibrant and loving every minute of your existence.  There is a lot of work to do but like building a new house you have to start from the ground up and until you put in all this effort of really thinking through what components you want and how you want everything layed out, and until you do all the work to bring it together, you won't have the completed house.  It takes time so be gentle with yourself and don't rush the process.  If you rush you will look back later at a crappy built house and wish that you had taken the time to think things through further. 

So a lot is going on this month with Neptune going direct on November 9th.  This will be the catalyst that brings new insight into your love life.  Neptune has been going backwards since the beginning of June and that brought A LOT of confusion into where you stand and what was really going on.  On the plus the retrograde motion should have birthed new insights into your creative nature.  So, say if someone did break your heart around this time and if you did throw yourself into your creativity in order to cope, then what you created should have been quite deep and spectacular.  Something special was created at this time and maybe it was even an actual baby!  After Neptune goes direct you can expect to give birth and bring this life or idea out into the world to share with others. 

Then the next day, November 10th, Chiron goes direct in the first degree of Pisces AND we have a Full Moon at 18 degrees Taurus.  Chiron is the wounded one who after healing her wounds, is then able to go out and heal others because of her experience in authentically walking her talk.  So Chiron has been in the position of inner healing and also in Pisces which is very sensitive and psychic and in tune with the mysteries of life.  Chiron will now be sending us forward after spending so much time looking within and healing our sensitive buttons and we will be walking into much more appropriate roles in the world that reflect our level of authentic experience. During this time you will  be feeling much more connected to the influence you carry in your workforce job or to your own healing as a way to then help heal others.  If you aren't already there you will feel much more focus and drive to get clear within and to deal with any emotional garbage that you know is holding you back.  There is some saying about how you really need to do your work and get clear because otherwise everyone you attract, that you have issues with is only there to act as a reflection to what YOU hold secretly inside. 

And the much anticipated 11.11.11 will arrive the NEXT day.  This is the most magical energetic portal times of our lives.  How to use it?  I say keep this day totally clear for only high vibrational thoughts and intentions and actions.  Do a ceremony if ceremonies are your thing.  Keep your eyes open for any signs or insights that draw you in.  Mediate at 11:11am your time and 11:11pm your time and FEEL the energies moving through you.  Imagine at this time that all beings are in tune and aware of the magic that flows through us all and that we are all one and the same.  Intend to only do and be love on this day. 

Mercury will be going Retrograde once again on November 23rd, so all moves BEFORE this time should be followed, but after this time they should only be contemplated.  This will be a really good time to actually start the conversations that will be healing focused.  This time will be when you need to think through all the ways to make your point, while still honoring the person you are needing to talk to.  By mid December you will be able to make the greatest impact and will truly be heard by the other person.  So plant the seeds now and think through what you really want to get across so that a clean break or healed situation can take place. 

The New Moon and Solar Eclipse will arrive on November 26th and the Sun and Moon will be sitting at 3 degrees Sagittarius.  This will act as a blessing to help you make great strides in better communications.  If ever you wanted to have your expressions go far and wide, the time is now to set those intentions.  If ever you wanted to explore your own abilities as a writer, then set those intentions now.  Because Mercury is in Retrograde motion, you won't want to necessarily jump or act on anything just yet, but your intentions will be uber powerful at this time.  Think of now as the time you add all your ingredients to something you are making on the stove and later they will come together in a special way that will be very satisfying to your soul!

Go back to November 2011 Monthly Horoscopes

You are someone who naturally thinks of others and their well being, but at this time it really is best to just focus on yourself.  You could say that you have done all you can do, and now you just need to pull back and focus on your own needs.  Sometimes Libras suffer because they are the co-dependents in the world and everything starts for them as WE.  You need to realize that you are a powerful force as ONE and that you don't need others around you all the time in order to feel complete.  You need to walk that journey alone and find that space where you do feel okay going out and doing it without someone by your side. 

Recently I have heard so many stories of Libras going through relationship breakups.  I haven't met one who is okay with it and not fighting it tooth and nail. I say, stop, you can't force a relationship and you will only push them away forever.  I keep hearing: but he is the one, but she is the one.  And I don't know how to break this to ya'll Libras but I don't think we have to force the one to know they are the one for us.  I know we all at some point learn from that path, because we have all done it before, but now, in the world we are moving towards now, that is just not how the equation will come together.  If you think someone is the one, but they don't want to be with you, then they are not the one and you only think they are because the memory of them is fresh in your brain and you have created a storyline about them that is not accurate.   Put some space between you two and the truth will reveal itself.  Maybe just maybe over time you two can grow together once again, but if it ended then it just wasn't meeting the needs of the one who decided to leave.  The dating world is not what it used to be and people are really particular about what they want in a relationship.  So many people would rather be single than be in a partnership that is not completely right on.  We are all very much "the one"  focused now, probably more than ever in history.  Before, you were expected to be in a relationship and it was puzzling to others if you were single for long.  I don't hear that now.  I know more single people than I do committed in partnership people.  And all the people that I know in relationships are like with "their one" and either married with kids or moving towards that direction.  I don't have one friend who is just with someone while knowing that it is just a fleeting thing.  So.  If you find yourself single at this time, or thinking about singlehood, dreading the aloneness of it, don't fear.   First off this is a great time to really get to know YOU and what YOU want out of life and in a partnership.  This is a great time to pamper and dote upon YOU.  Go buy You some special little things instead of always buying them for others first.  And by putting yourself first you may just manifest the most amazing match who feels so right on that you laugh over chasing after someone who in hindsight you see was so not resonating.

Friendship is something you need to pursue first too.  Especially now your energies are abundant in social, group oriented situations.  You could meet some people now who will start as friends and blossom into something more.  Being a Libra and so co-dependent by nature, you need to pause when you fall in love with someone.  You have to understand that you are like a magnet and together is what you naturally gravitate towards.  Use some restraint to hold back and keep things as friends, and you may just find that the friendship is most fulfilling and you don't need to go there romantically.  You will see the warning signs clearer if you are not madly in love by week 2. 

Actually when I look at this Libra chart even closer I see that I am giving you this message for a very good reason. You are so lined up to really get clear on old patterns you may be holding onto, and there are strong forces giving you the sign posts to do inner work and get real on who you are and what you want in partnership.  You will feel sudden upsets and shake-ups with others and you may even feel a sort of death at the very core of your soul.  You  may feel you were rocked from your foundation and all that you believed was just a lie.  You may feel you don't know who or what to trust.  But ultimately, this uncertainty and dismantling is all for you to find and love the real you, as just you, no fake you, no have to be something for someone else, you.  Through it all, and the journey will be a long one, so don't think I am talking about a few weeks of work, but when all is said and done, you will love yourself whether rich or poor, fat or thin, attractive or unattractive, young or mature, wrinkles or smooth,  gray or color, makeup or no makeup, with things or with no things, single or in partnership.  That is your goal.  You are going to find YOU and you are going to LOVE you, no matter what.

So the Full Moon will be in your sign and your opposite sign, Aries.  It will show up on October 11 and will fall at 18 degrees.  Saturn is going to be conjunct the Sun during this Full Moon and will add some more maturing elements to your life.  Whatever shows up on the days surrounding will be things you need to let go of and move out of your life.  They may have you feeling rather somber and gray, but just know that it is ultimately for your best and whatever or whomever leaves, is not part of the plan in the creation of the best possible scenario of YOUR life.  Something that will hold you back or limit your expressions will just not stick any longer.  Let it/him/her go...

The New Moon will arrive on October 26 and will fall at 3 degrees Scorpio.  This will be a new beginning time for you to really examine your values of what you need from life and others.  You will have the month to discover what is acceptable and what is not.  You may find that using your hands to create something of beauty brings more value into your life than anything else out there.  You may enter a really abundant creative cycle.  You may meet new creative partners that open doors and help you manifest more money.  Through all this alone time you are hopefully utilizing, you may be rewarded with a business partner or friends or a group energy which helps you do more than you could on your own.  Definitely focus your intentions along issues with discovering new values, as they do change as we age, and more ways to be and express your creativity through your hands.  Intend to delve deeper into the real you who is ready to share some new brilliant aspects with the world.  


Back to the October 2011 Monthly Horoscopes

Libra
Things are pretty serious for you, dear Libra and I bet you feel like you have matured and grown more in this last year than ever before.  You may at times feel kind of depressed over the responsibilities and high expectations you have for yourself.  If you are looking back and feeling like you just aren't doing what you are supposed to or aren't where you thought you would be, give yourself a break. Trust that you really are where you should be and don't gauge yourself by where others are.  I like to remind people of how it really is never too late and you have no idea what is just around the corner and it very well may be something that rebirths you in a way that infuses you with acceptance and understanding of how it HAD to be this way.  You may say that you are lonely and feel you have wasted so much life being single, and then 2 weeks down the way you meet someone and totally forget that you felt any lack before.  You may feel like you aren't successful in your career and that you are doing nothing of importance and then 2 weeks down the way, you get an opportunity of a job that lights up and makes you feel so on purpose so that you totally forget you felt any lack before.  So don't beat yourself up if it isn't like you thought it would be.  I don't think it hardly ever is.  And I think we all have areas of our life where we can place the microscope and see faults.  I just think it is best to trust that this is a part of our individual process and that all it moving along just as it should.  You are growing more experienced and more mature through this transit of Saturn crossing your ascendant.  But it will be the same thing how you at some point look back and are thankful for the maturity and the level headed knowing that comes through the aging process.  Saturn is making sure you learn what you need and to use those tools to take you to a higher level of wisdom. 

You should be feeling pretty inward and contemplative at this time and Jupiter is your friend in it all because he is helping you get clear on some psychological issues.  So if you find yourself looking back at your childhood and seeing how they truly shaped how you are who you are now, and if you really want to let that go and be a different person, then you really can make that happen at this time. You can move leaps and bounds in your healing process at this time.  I had this shamanic healing once and she brought back 16 of my soul parts that had left my body at certain ages when I couldn't deal with what was happening.  Later on the shaman lady told me she was shocked that so many came back in one big net like that and that usually that would take a person a year or more to get back all those parts.  You can experience the same sort of healing in your life now, in that healing an issue that may take someone months to move through, but you may do it in day.  Something from your past may come to you, you look at it, feel it, see you as a little child experiencing it, cry over it and maybe just like that move through it and let it go.  Just like that, you may be able to heal wounds in your psyche.  So take the time for solitude and place your intention on your desire to heal and be whole.  When we are carrying around a lot of baggage of unresolved hurts, things don't manifest the way we want them to in life, and it holds us back with this extra dead weight.  That is why when someone says they got something off their shoulders by speaking up about something, that they feel lighter.  There is truth to that.  We also carry extra weight when we are burdened by unresolved pains in our past.  Here is something you can do too to help release some of the density you carry.  I heard this from this woman, Almine, but when you are laying down, maybe before bed, imagine that you are digesting density.  Imagine this gray,or black if it from other people, substance going into your stomach and churn it around like a washing machine, imagining that it is digesting and do this until it turns sparkly white.  Supposedly it helps people sleep better, need less hours of sleep and some people actually lose weight from it.  I started doing it before bed and it does do something, but I will say no more and let you try it yourself. 

I think you need to get together with some friends soon.  You've gone though a pretty long isolation time and I know that there are friends you can trust who are really looking for someone just like you.  People all over keep voicing to me that they are ready for more quality in friendships.  So many people have pulled away and gone inward because they just weren't matching up vibrationally with their friends any longer.  I really kind of look at is as, we only heal and do inner work in solitude, so we have had to let go of friends in order to do the work.  But now, enough of us have gotten clear and are ready to get back out there and laugh and giggle with some friends that really feel compatible with us. And they are looking for you!  You are all lined up to meet people who will really help bring the joy and happiness back into your life.  Also there may be a group you join up with that also makes you feel exited to be involved in it.  things are changing out there and the joy is truly coming back.  It is have been a sad, dark, disappointing world for a while but we needed that to bring about a shift.  We are still in the dark, but glimmers of light can be found if we open our hearts to them and say YES when the opportunities show up for us. 

The Full Moon at 20 degrees Virgo and Pisces on September 12th 2:28am Pacific time, would be a great time to let go of old thought patterns that actually may be affecting our health.  If you are feeling an illness at this time, just play around with saying and thinking things that are not in agreement with the illness.  Say, I love being pain free, or each morning I wake up feeling less and less pain!  Look within to see in you are saying things that reinforce the illness to stick around.  This is a good time to let go of any skeletons in the closet that are keeping you in a trapped place.  If there is dark corner you do not want to look into, look directly in it now.

The New Moon at 4 degrees Libra will come on September 27th 4:10am Pacific time, and this will be the time for you to manifest and focus on loving and accepting  the magnificent being you are! Look to this New Moon to create yourself anew.   Make changes to your hairstyle, or wardrobe, or workout schedule or anything to feel a little different then you were last month.  Play with variety.  Dye your hair (with safe dyes of course).  Intend to only do things that pamper yourself and make you feel special.  Pretend you are taking care of a little child who is You at the age of 3 and love yourself the way you would love that child.  Think about that one.