HELLO, MY LOVE!!!!

It's been a long time. I always say, we all get taken down in life at least once from one of the 4 D's: death, divorce, disease, or destruction. I haven't met a person untouched by the D's. And when they come, they can take us out for years, where it takes years to get back to who we were before the D landed in our lives.

For me, truthfully, it began as the Death of my dog Moon Bear, although before her it was the death of my dad, my step mama, 2 of my closest spirit based allies, all 3 of my cats, all 3 grandfathers, and my step father. EVERYONE died when I launched my career. And with Moonie, who was only 5, it was the end of me.

And here we are 10 years later. It was December 30, 2015 when I lost my baby, and it is December 2025 that I am finally returning as the best version I have ever known myself to be. I'm so much better at loving, being present, being patient, valuing the gift of friendship & community.

And it was all the pain, all the challenges, that really amped up after 2020, where I ended up in one toxic living situation after the next, from a stalker invading my privacy, to chemical exposures, to violations, to bully landlords, and NOTHING being what it appeared to be at first sight.

And I talk about this in my first welcome and with mention of the D's because YOU ALL will know them and they make NO SENSE AT ALL. When we lose a part of ourselves from these super traumatic life events, we forget who we are and we do act out or we make bad decisions because our faculties are literally shattered and in pieces.

Man, losing my Moonie was the worst thing that could happen to me, and so much after that was even worse. But I always was hopeful and remembered the passage of time and cycles, and SOMETIMES the D's dont lift from us for a decade. I researched that in people, so I knew. Many astrologers/healers/guides are gone for 10 years from some D that strikes them down at some point of their career. And most of you now can look back and see that it WAS a decade to get back to yourself.

So. I'm back. And not only that but I feel like my 30's again and I love my life -- even if it doesnt yet look like what I want it to be. I love God. I love the process. I trust that all things matter and they make sense at some point, but our job is really to be as loving as we can be in the wild karma of life, where we are not as in control as we think because higher plans are playing out. Maybe you need to be in that crappy home or that job that sucks because there is someone around it that is SOON to offer you an opportunity.

When I got Moon Bear, I had scheduled a time to meet with this rescuer and we were supposed to do it in the morning. But late afternoon, she finally was ready. When I pulled in, this van pulled out, so I had to move to the side of the dirt road to let it pass. When I looked at the dog I thought I would take home, I wasnt feeling it, so I said, are there any other dogs? So we went and looked through the shelter and when I saw Moon Bear I said,WHAT ABOUT THAT ONE!!!!!!!! And she said, oh, another rescuer just dropped her off and just left before you arrived.

That was the van I passed. And had our plans gone as scheduled, I would have been there in the morning before Moonie arrived.

So fuck yes. I trust God. And even though my life has often been SUCKY and beyond challenging, I know it wont always be, and I can feel the sun rising again. I can feel that NOW, 10 years later, I'm 54 now, and I am ready to be my exalted version for you. So there you go. I was gone for good reason, and I'm back, my love. I'm back to support you and keep you safe.

LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUU xx KV